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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Awkward and Hating It

by GerbzBaby 2/2/2016

written by GerbzBaby

Everytime my friends call or try and talk to me I feel like I’m being awkward. I feel like that triggers my friends to jump on the friendship train with my sister more than me. That’s why they seem bored around me. How can I get rid of this awkwardness and freely talk and be funny without being offensive or mean..? I’m so troubled with this, I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m the only one who does this, to new friends or the same friends I have. I feel like there is something wrong with me..

2/2/2016 1 comment

I WILL DIE TONIGHT (AVISGONE)

by avisgone 1/28/2016

written by avisgone

Tonight, I am planning to kill myself. I have planned many times to but I have held back because of what seemed like people who cared or the sacredness of what people would think if I failed. Tonight, however, ends all of this. To if you were my friend or you call yourself a friend of mine, I am sorry, but you should have known this was coming. To my family aside from my adoptive mom, I am sorry. To my teachers and other adults, why could not have done something. I know you guys have seen my cuts and scars. Some of you have […]

1/28/2016 16 comments

I Don’t Want To Be Alone Again

by GerbzBaby 1/28/2016

written by GerbzBaby

It’s my senior year and I’m afraid of losing touch with my friends… That’s all I can think about and it scares me. I don’t want to let them go like some of my old friends. Please, how do I keep updated and in touch with them when I’m done with high school?

1/28/2016 3 comments

A Daylight

by HeartLies 1/26/2016

written by HeartLies

I woke up this morning seeing the bright light from the sun.It was 11:11 am,I must’ve drink too much alcohol last night that I feel a lil’bit tipsy this morning.I was talking to a friend in which I have lied about something,still,she can’t decide if she’s going to stay or not I think I deserve it anyway.I lied to people who cared and accepted me.Im a bullshit.She might stay or not,nothing will change I’m still going to be free on Feb 1,in the arms of death I’ll find comfort.

1/26/2016 1 comment

The Countdown

by HeartLies 1/26/2016

written by HeartLies

26th of January

They said suicide is the coward’s way out.It is the one big solution to a temporary problem.But what if the problem is permanent,will suicide be an available solution?Today I’m starting my countdown,a countdown where it will all start and at the same time end.Nobody can stop me because even I cannot stop myself.So love me,care for me,stay with me,because the last days of my life will soon be a tragic end.

1/26/2016 6 comments

Love

by marz 1/25/2016

written by marz

You stopped the pain from carrying on

This is why I’m sitting here writing this song

You lied to me and ended it this way

Didn’t even have the guts to say it to my face

You’re just a coward a twit

All you do is is make my teeth grit

Fuck off back to your own life

I’ll just go back to my one true love the knife

1/25/2016 1 comment

I know you love me infinitely. :-)

by Still wandering 1/24/2016

written by Still wandering

Things aren’t good lately. But it’s going extremely well with my LuV. 🙂

She loves me infinitely. 🙂
And I am so lucky to have her. 🙂

She makes me smile in my hard times. 🙂

1/24/2016 3 comments

I Wanted to Jump

by OnePeacefulDisaster 1/24/2016

written by OnePeacefulDisaster

Yesterday I went to a party with some close friends. The party ended up being at an apartment complex on the sixth floor. The night went on and things were fun for a while, but then it was like something inside me snapped, or changed. I couldn’t breathe, I felt warm, and I got blotchy and flushed. I went outside onto the balcony. Once I closed the sliding door, I felt so alone. I’m scared of heights, but for some reason I went and leaned over on the railing. Instead of panicking like I usually do when so high up, I stayed and looked down. […]

1/24/2016 4 comments

That night.

by Bunny 1/22/2016

written by Bunny

When i was a freshman, so 14, i tried to commit suicide for the first time. I can’t really explain why. It’s two years later and it still feels like it was all a dream. Sometimes it hits me all at once. Out of nowhere.. like around Christmas, i went and saw my youngest sisters choir concert. I was watching, listening. My dad on one side, my brother on the other. And it hit me.. all at once. Without warning.. as those things tend to do. I looked up at the stage, seeing her sing. My throat got that horrible dry feeling and suddenly the […]

1/22/2016 2 comments

Stop Existing

by Rosiest 1/20/2016

written by Rosiest

I’m tired. Exhausted. My body wants to curl up into a fetal position and sleep for the next 2000 years.

Maybe life is better in 4016.

I you see, I don’t want to die. I don’t want to put my family through such sorrow and grieving. I love them all too much to chose to leave in sudden death. I don’t want to leave my mother wondering what she could have done better, or if she had said the right thing. I couldn’t do that to her, she doesn’t deserve that.

But I want to leave. I never used to be all that religious, but recently something has changed for […]

1/20/2016 1 comment

Protected: I hate my life!

by lonelyme85 1/20/2016

written by lonelyme85

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

1/20/2016 0 comment

I made a mistake

by Lawli 1/20/2016

written by Lawli

So tonight I was bored and everyone on a forums I hang out on was logged of so I went down to our living room and sat with my parents; that was the mistake.

The result was my Dad being sexist and complaining and dissing people constantly, both parent complaining and looking down on me and my brother. They both started lecturing us and they never say anything good about anyone. My head ended up getting messed up and I started to panic so I left, trying to act casual. I felt so stuffed after that I ended up cutting myself and even more than usual, […]

1/20/2016 3 comments

My blackout

by NiDDA 1/18/2016

written by NiDDA

On Friday I was going to try and kill myself. After a long search I thought that if I want to overdose on pills, the most available and lethal medication would be aspirin. Overdose is my style. I can’t cut myself even though I want it badly – I still can’t. I have a knife, I bought it for cutting my neck, but I just can’t do it, I can’t stab it in my flesh, but I may get to the point when I will be able to cut myself.

So, last week I carefully gathered all the things I would need to do the deed.

I bought […]

1/18/2016 44 comments

I cant take it anymore!!!

by Raven_Todd 1/17/2016

written by Raven_Todd

I’m so tired of this! I’m so tired of being treated like trash! I broke up with my girlfriend cause I wasnt happy. She’s now putting me through hell and making me feel horrible. I’m tired of my family being horrible to me. I’m tired of being made fun of. I’m tired of not wanting to go home. I want this to be over but I’m trapped. I cant get out of here alive. I just want to die and get this all over with. I dont have a special person I’ll be leaving so that wont hold me back. No one cares except my […]

1/17/2016 4 comments

Unbearable Loneliness

by GerbzBaby 1/16/2016

written by GerbzBaby

Everyday is the same never f*cking ending routine. I get up, eat, go to work, come home and lay around until my body succumbs to drowsiness. I do nothing in my free time anymore. My passion for art is completely dead and my friends never invite me to do anything. They don’t text me or even come close to asking if they want to hang out with a loser like me. I feel alone. I feel uncared for. I feel unappreciated. I’m rotting from the inside out. Why the hell was i born if I was meant to suffer? If I was meant to hate […]

1/16/2016 3 comments

To, My so called family & friends

by Still wandering 1/15/2016

written by Still wandering

I love you all,
But you never cared at all.

Sometimes you all show your fake love,
I always hide my tears with smile.

Amnesiac me, remembers few things,
But you even forgot me.

I dreamed your dream coming true,
But you never ask what I like.

I was with you in your bad times,
You deserted me in my wrost.

I LOVED YOUR LIKENESS,
BUT YOU DIDN’T EVEN CARE FOR “MY LOVE”.

1/15/2016 6 comments

More Suicidal than Ever

by lonely2k14 1/14/2016

written by lonely2k14

problems with parents. depressed. suicidal.

my mother finds every excuse to beat me, yell at me and ruin me. ive been told many times to kill myself by her, to leave, to go to an orphanage, but to mostly just die. it was terrible before but it’s only getting worse. recently she locked me outside of the house at night in below freezing weather, while it was raining and left me there for a near hour, locking the doors of the house. then, on the same day, she said to me “either i die or you die” and kicked me out of the house again for […]

1/14/2016 19 comments

Almost..

by nonexistingsoul 1/14/2016

written by nonexistingsoul

Today, after school ended, me and my friends decided to buy dresses for the debut of our friend. We decided to ride a train going to Tutuban. We paid and waited for the train. While waiting, I was lost in my thoughts. I remember the news I heard about a guy who decided to end his life by jumping on the riles while the train is near. I was so sad about it. I know how hard it is. Then I heard the train coming. I was thinking what If I do the same? What if I decide to jump like that guy did? I […]

1/14/2016 6 comments

How Ironically Hopeful and beautiful It Is ?

by Still wandering 1/13/2016

written by Still wandering

For me : My love cares for me alot, alot.

But before she came, I also used to think that no one cares which lot of you guys think and feel.

And I know this for certain that we(SP) care. We(SP) care when any member of our family feel low or go thru any horrible situation. So don’t ever think that no one cares.

How ironically hopeful and beautiful, it is ? 🙂

1/13/2016 7 comments

I need friends

by yuko0319 1/11/2016

written by yuko0319

I am 26 years old. I’m married… But I’m always alone and lonely.
Because I don’t have friends. I don’t have friends since when I was 18. I want to go shopping with friends and hang out with friends…Watching a movie with friends. Talking to friends on phone.
I can’t do that.
When I feel depressed, I can’t share this feeling with anyone. So I always stay at home, laying in bed, crying and waiting for coming the morning. Please be my friend… I’m so depressed I want to talk to someone. [ my kik : YYUKGRA]

1/11/2016 7 comments

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