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by hopeisafourletterword 8/18/2014

written by hopeisafourletterword

It’s like some kind of sick movie. I was all ready to go through with my plan tomorrow and be done with it all, but today at work it was like he knew what I was thinking and was trying to save my life. He just kept making me laugh, but that’s easy considering how I am around him. We played around with each other like we were 5 years old, spinning chairs and all. After work he even drove me to my car cause it was parked farther away. I’ve had a crush on him for less than a month, and as crazy as it […]

8/18/2014 1 comment

divorce court…..

by PeelASquid 8/18/2014

written by PeelASquid

So today I got called in for a hearing,,, met her lawyer for the first time. My lawyer was a crook, stole money and ran, left a mess for me, thus my day there today to straighten it out, or I would have been put in jail.

I walk in, find it is a “machine” of sorts, the room is full, strangely all women, I am the only guy there (except for the judge and bailiff).

Many before me, the judge basically ending all the other peoples marriages right before me.

Im not there yet, will fight my whore of a wife as long and hard as I […]

8/18/2014 8 comments

everyone here is dead….

by PeelASquid 8/18/2014

written by PeelASquid

So everyone comes here to talk about ending it all….
Many of us are already dead.
You know what I mean.

8/18/2014 14 comments

When I thought things were getting better

by SunshinesBlackhole 8/18/2014

written by SunshinesBlackhole

So last Tuesday, almost a week ago now, I had a really bad anxiety attack. I couldn’t stand up. I couldn’t talk without sobbing. I couldn’t move without my body hurting. I had this feeling of impending doom. At one point I fell and just didn’t have the motivation to force myself to get up…. I thought this attack had been the first one in a long time, but when I was talking to my dad afterwards he said that this was one of many in the past few weeks and was considering getting me to a psychiatrist to figure out some medicine to help […]

8/18/2014 0 comment

My Dad

by Lainie 8/18/2014

written by Lainie

Ive been thinking about telling my dad about my cutting. I wanna do it tonight but im scared. I dont know if I can.

8/18/2014 2 comments

“No more…..”

by PeelASquid 8/18/2014

written by PeelASquid

World doesn’t care,

About this life you bear.

Dead or alive,

It’s the evil who thrive.

No room for the good,

No room for the best.

No heart that beats,

Inside my chest.

All love gone,

All hope lost.

The game of life,

Too high of a cost.

Time to pay dues,

My plan I will use.

Go out on the sea,

No more of me.

8/18/2014 2 comments

suiside?

by helpmexo 8/18/2014

written by helpmexo

ive selfharmed for about a year now, with minimal people knowing the cuts are getting alot more deep and my arms are covered in scars ive also burned myself alot, i wear long jumpers most of the time. My parents are never at home, people think i am happy, but that’s one thing im not, my parents want me to do so well in school but i cant focus anymore, i cant concentrate at all, i get around 3/4 hours of sleep most nights because its just impossible for me to sleep and all i do is cry, im really nervous and anxious but i […]

8/18/2014 3 comments

I’ve had enough.

by sixgunz 8/18/2014

written by sixgunz

I’ve just seen this site and registered as I know it’s somewhere no one who knows me would look.

I have battled with depression for a really long time now. I did have a couple of years of respite, but over the last 5 years, it’s becoming more difficult to manage.

Pretty much everyone I know knows I suffer from depression but just recently and up to this day I have kept to what degree from them. The last year or so has been especially difficult as I lost my father and my mother has become hostile towards me. She has always been protective and has frowned […]

8/18/2014 3 comments

i’m not okay

by NotAloneButVeryLonely 8/18/2014

written by NotAloneButVeryLonely

I’m scared. Everything in my life is spiraling out of control.

I’m a failure. My family and friends are trying to support me, but all I can feel is their pity. And I hate it. I hate it so much. I just want to get away from everyone, and away from reality. I want to get drunk. Like so drunk that I don’t even know what’s happening, and just stay that way. And not have any worries.

I want to scream, and cry, and fucking hit something. I feel so angry and mad and.. I just don’t think I’m cut out for life. I paint a smile […]

8/18/2014 2 comments

scared

by Sonic 8/18/2014

written by Sonic

Why do we continue the empty eternal struggle. Knowing there is nothing at the end.

8/18/2014 5 comments

just when I was starting to have fun:(:(:(

by misanthrope 8/18/2014

written by misanthrope

Errr-sorry about the unsupportive manner in which I was attempting to “help” the poor upstanding father to cope,just then…It was Tough Love..and I think it can be very effective if applied the right way….I really do love this site and honestly it helps me quite a bit. I dont want to get 86’d out of here,guys.

For some reason,that seems to happen to me wherever I go and fairly frequently.(???WHY???)I feel so persecuted sometimes.Prob because im so pretty..Yes,I think that must be it.Jealous and Unattractive people are behind this campaign of persecution:):);) (JK)

Seriously though,I cant stand homophobic people. Makes me get […]

8/18/2014 44 comments

Finding God – a prayer

by girlwiththetrinketbox 8/18/2014

written by girlwiththetrinketbox

“Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy ground.” – Exodus 3:5b

My life is one that has been ravaged. I portioned out the substance that I once had to the rats and cockroaches in the deepest gutters of my soul. I am left, a shell, an empty vessel, waiting — wanting — to be filled. I have called myself a Christian, and I have — shamefully — become no more than a stumbling block. I have sold myself to drugs, to alcohol, to sex, and to hate. I want nothing more than to slough off the impurities of my sin. I want […]

8/18/2014 3 comments

obssession with death

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/18/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

really, its real and it never goes, the addiction to think about ways to kill yourself is so strong, i even dream of it, how peacefully my body will lay, how i will leave everything here and how.. all i have done, all people have done to me will disappear. there will be nothingness and i will sink in the ocean of infinite security. i need this place, i need to feel safe from all the fight, all the hatred, all the people.

8/18/2014 4 comments

Tired

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/18/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

who else ?????? so tired … i slept in the afternoon, i washed a lot of clothes today, im not depressed, im good right now, but i want to kill myself, but i have everyone around me, and i live on the third floor, so cannot jump. im safe.

8/18/2014 2 comments

Soon

by NoNameNeeded 8/18/2014

written by NoNameNeeded

Headaches are getting worse. I don’t give a fuck about anything. I stick around to play warface on on Steam with some guys I know. Because nothing “important” will hold my interest.

I can feel that my time is soon. Probably once I pick up a bottle of Maker’s from my ambassador barrel. That’ll be what I drink from when it’s time. Here’s to my 29th birthday. Come November, it can all be over. My smokes, my bourbon, my rope.

8/18/2014 1 comment

19.14-sunday pm

by heliumhood 8/18/2014

written by heliumhood

Had a lovely Sunday with the in-laws.

Actually feel a bit guilty that come November I will no longer here.
I’ve a young nephew and niece who think the world of me and wonder why I no longer go and see them.

My brother in law and his wife, are worried about how I have withdrawn so much from theirs and their children’s lives, but I just tell them I’m busy.

8/18/2014 2 comments

by Bisban 8/18/2014

written by Bisban

Callisto, that I hope to be

A local homegrown, an Edward

I am Leech, the warlock

The beginning, the zero

Sidereal astrology, not conformed

I am, the Aquarius

I told her, I’m a straight brother

I asked her, for her white army

I said there was only one plan left

Then I left.

8/18/2014 3 comments

Pain

by Jade-Tiger 8/18/2014

written by Jade-Tiger

Pain

a word, a feeling and a state of mind
i feel so stupid, it was all a misunderstanding… and im to blame…
he does not seem to care, he does not know how much trouble i went through this past week, just to give me somewhere safe to talk to him…
i still want him, i still want to be the best i can for him…
and i go and do something that stupid…
and get all upset over nothing
i don’t think he knows that he is the one my heart have chosen, and pestilently refuses to let go of….
it would not matter […]

8/18/2014 4 comments

just to introduce myself

by fading star 8/18/2014

written by fading star

hello, my name is fading star… obviously not my real name but lets just call me this for now. ever since i could remember all i have wanted to do is help people…. right so while my entire life I’ve helped people I’ve never really looked after myself, helped myself. I’m 16 years old and feel like my life is no where. I’m not the complaining type but i’m falling apart with everything bursting inside me unable to handle by myself.

when i was a child i lived in poverty now most people live in poverty right?? well when i was a child my family did […]

8/18/2014 6 comments

he wishes i was dead and so do i

by wombers 8/18/2014

written by wombers

He’s stood by my side through my depression, went above and beyond, more than anyone else would ever even think about. He stayed with me after my last attempt and tried to get me help. I can’t explain how much i owe him. Now though I’m nothing more than a burden. He see’s me as a parasite and i can see it in his eyes when he’s angry hed love nothing more than to squash me like one. Or if i just dropped dead everything would be ok for him, everything would be better. I’ve been on meds for a year now and they have […]

8/18/2014 0 comment

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