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I suppose I should be feeling better. Still everything is going wrong. A part of me wants to stop, a part of me just wants to go. How much longer will this fight continue?
im always sad i dont know why, i have people that care but nothing makes me feel better
I don’t even know if I should even be writing this post. When I used this site a long time ago I only ever used it as a place to confess, have my last words, that kind of thing. It was like I could just dump my emotional baggage here and be done. No need for comments to boast my ego or tell me that I’m worth it and I certainly did not use this site as a way to fish for compliments. It’s turning into other forums, the ones where people are like, “honestly, do you guys think I’m pretty?” I understand we all get a little […]
No one can know that im going down, not even my boyfriend. All i can think about lately.is killing myself. But I was on top of this tower and i had the oportunity to tip over the edge into oblivion but I dont know what stopped me. It wasnt the barriers, no, i couldve jumped over. It wasnt the many eyes watching as i leant over the edge and felt nothing but a sort of high, no, They wouldnt of mattered. It wasnt my so called best friend talking to the guy she ditched me for, she wouldnt of noticed. I was just scared. Scares […]
I don’t form connections with people easily and when it rarely happens the other person runs a mile because I don’t deal well with it. But this time with this one person she didn’t turn her back on me. She listens to what I say for the most part, doesn’t just ignore me like everyone else did and makes me feel like I exist and matter.
I haven’t been coping very well with living lately. We work together in a high pressure environment which has me stressed out for most of time. And the past few days we’ve been arguing which I NEVER do with anyone. […]
I don’t know where to turn for help. I don’t know anything any more. I feel like I am drowning. I feel like I need help. No one will or can help me. I don’t know what to do. I just want all of this to go away…
I can’t stop thinking about it. For hours now… It’s on my mind. I just want to be away from it all. I feel like I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do any more. I’m trying to make it through one day at a time. I can’t shake this thought. I’ve thought it all the way through. I am debating almost every day now. I know better, but I am so close. I have reached out for help and tried to help myself in every way that I can. Nothing is working. I really fell worse. Like I’m digging myself a hole.
So I don’t know what to say. But I’ll start here I have a boyfriend. We have been together for awhile. But he can me like shit allot. Well I’m pregnant with his baby. He doesn’t want it neither does his dad. So they want abortion. I’m not sure. I want it but he doesn’t care. He bugs me about it al the time. I feel like all he wants is for me just to kill myself cause that’s what he wants I know so he can just be done with me. Know one understands how I feel and won’t. He also is always looking […]
I HATE EVERYONE. This is not a fucking poem. Why am I still here… I feel a distant pain echoing in the caverns of my heart.
This life I am living is not a life at all. Despair and hopelessness, in 3 years I’ll be 30. Nothing to show for it. No stable job, no friends, nothing left but my insanity. I don’t wanna go on. Can’t wait until it’s over and I’m free
Hello. I would like information on euthanasia. I would like to know how to go about requesting to be put to permanent sleep or be assisted with the medication. Please help. I do suffer from depression. What is the cost and how effective is it? This not a 6mnth prob or 1 year prob for all d losers who think they opinions on how precious life is matters. I am tired of feeling d way i do for so long. Went on medication n seeing a doctor. I jus want things to be peacefull and the way it can be like that for me is […]
This is a serious question. Please be 100% honest, especially if you have bad news for me. I never had a girlfriend. After all the rejections and hurt I’ve gone through bec of women, I cant be objective about my looks anymore. I just hate myself.
I want to find out, if my shyness and sadness is the only reason, why I never had a relationship OR its also because i am just fuckin unattractive to women.
Could u find a guy like me in any way attractive? In my self-perception I couldnt 🙁
ps: i hope i figured out how to upload that picture ^^
Oh. Oh. Holiness, is dead.
Oh. Killing me softly.
The water, the words, down the drain.
Oh, the music, awaiting for the outlaw.
Hold it, by the claw. The bear, the world needs to blow.
The celestial mad cow, look into her eyes. Take her blood, instead.
From our, hybrid evolution, never evolved. I wonder, our caveman.
The killer clan. The God of Man. I am the only, a Morlock.
God is dead. God is real. My obscure projection into reality.
The new age is the golden age.
Our soul never evolved, only our machines.
The ant, the ant, they grow. What will be, of behind […]
People with a psychotic disorder such as bipolar or schizophrenia are 12 times more likely to commit suicide than the general population. Up to half of people with manic depression (hey that’s me yo) attempt suicide at least once in their lives. 10-15% of manic depressives will end up killing themselves. That’s even more than those with schizophrenia (10%).
I have a pretty severe case of bipolar 1. I’ve had more than thirty episodes of psychosis which ended in forced hospitalizations. I have never attempted though. I don’t want to ever attempt (who does?). If I am to go this route |I want to be successful […]
So I doused myself in gasoline today, because I was having another of my apoplectic fits. I did this right in front of my girlfriend, after cutting my forearm with a sawzall blade and scratching my throat with the same.
I guess I just kept driving myself to up the ante. I was working – with lead paint? maybe that matters. Fits of apoplexy are nothing new to me… I was scraping lead paint. The guy I’d given $70 bucks to to help me with my yard hadn’t showed up. Just a down on his luck hobo who was going to help me clear weeds, kept […]
Hi.
This is my first post. I should probably introduce myself.
I am a 21 year old girl living in New Zealand. I first began to notice a dip in my mood when I was 12-13 but understandably at that age I couldn’t quite get what the feelings were a symptom of. I constantly hit what I thought was rock bottom only to find myself continuing to slide down. I spend years battling it, as well as an accompanying eating disorder, and finally recovered fully in 2013.
I decided to leave home in order to continue my recovery journey. I have been living on my own for the […]
i feel so alone.everything i do feels wrong the only thing that helps is to sleep and drink.to be honest i just want to sleep,drink,and have sex.i should be dead i deserve to be dead but only the good die young,i guess ill be loving forever.please help
I keep waking up. I woke up in a pool of blood that one night, a month ago. I woke up. 80 ounces of the hardest alcohol I can afford, twenty cuts later, and I still wake up. I’ve overdosed so many times, on pills and booze it’s like my tolerance is way too high now. I wake up every time. Even as a kid, I’d try at least once a week. I’d wake up every time. A whole bottle gone, and I would still just wake up.
I’m scared, because every time I try to finally die, it just does not happen. I’m scared because when I get these last […]
Over the past two years, things have been pretty rough.
I’m a fairly successful 40-something, a good job and a reasonable house. I enjoy some great hobbies and am pretty competent in a competetive sport.
However, I have recently lost both parents due to terminal illness and then, because I was unable to support her emotionally, my wife left me for another man. Somebody I knew.
We had been married for nine months.
She was significantly younger then me and, despite trying for a long time, was childless. We had been trying for much longer than we’d been married but it just wasn’t happening.
After she left me, I got […]
New to the site. What does no partners mean in the website homepage?
I’m not quite sure of who I am.
sometimes I like to think that I am a perfectly fine teenager because isn’t the biggest symptom of madness denying you have a problem? if I admit to this I am probably not quite insane, am I?
but I’m too tired too tired to care too tired to live all I want is to fall into a deep slumber forever and ever…
its painful to wake up everyday dreading that you’re gonna live.
life has been deliriously tiring lately I don’t even know what I’m doing. sometimes I wish I could drag that blade across my wrist hard but no matter […]