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Sleepless Night

by starsuicid3
written by starsuicid3

I’ve been extremely tired all day. All i’ve wanted to do is sleep. Sleep and not wake up. Just dream the night away. If it happens to be a nightmare…it’s okay because i’ve master lucid dreams. But it’s 1:25AM and I’m wide awake. The part before drifting away to the dream state is the hardest for me. It’s when all these thoughts come to my mind. All these people that have hurt me. All the words I’ve been told. All this negativity I seem to reminisce about. I want it all to go away! I hate hurting because of all the BS i’ve caused myself. […]

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Don’t say it, Don’t feel it

by rach
written by rach

There are a long list of things we are not allowed to say, and feelings we are not allowed to feel.  Isn’t that true my fellow slaves?  You did know you’re slaves, right?  From the moment you’re born you are a slave to your parents and to this society.  That is why what we say and feel must be regulated.  That is why dissenters must be outcast as “evil” horrible people.  Because in order to keep the system going, we can’t have dissent.  Dissent wakes people’s minds up, and awake people rebel, and what society fears most, is rebellion.  “Being born is like being kidnapped […]

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Trying to enjoy the last days of my life!

by LovingLife
written by LovingLife

Hi to all,

Well, it has been 14 months since got sick physically – could not exercise or do anything after a while; things escalated and got worse every day. Now just breathing is so hard, and can’t even move without having terrible chest tightness, stomach aches, dry mouth and other stuff.

Docs first checked me for some general illnesses and after they found not a thing; it had to be in my head, of course.

The thing is not like many here may have; I have a physical sickness which is killing me and the docs can’t find what seems to be the problem, and then the […]

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antipsychiatry

by righttodie
written by righttodie

http://www.antipsychiatry.org/suicide.htm

 

One reason some oppose the right to commit suicide is theological belief that is sometimes expressed this way: “God gave you life, and only God has the right to take life from you.” Using this reasoning to justify interfering with a person’s right to commit suicide is imposing religious beliefs on people who may not share those beliefs. In America where we supposedly have freedom of (and from) religion, this is wrong.

Another reason some people believe it is ethical to interfere with a person’s right to think about or commit suicide is belief in mental illness. But a so-called diagnosis of “mental illness” is a […]

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Will I ever get better?

by bpND
written by bpND

You know the feeling when you get dumped for the first time. That feeling you get where your heart and your head are in a vice and your on the edge all the time between crying. That’s how I feel all the time.

I’m years old 27, and I don’t have any clear path yet in mind. I have a job where I can work and maintain an apartment but besides that my life is empty, I wouldn’t say empty so much as void. I think of fight club a lot the part where he says everything is just a copy of a copy of a […]

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btw its 10 DECEMBER

by dotdotdot
written by dotdotdot

so i had originally set up to post about “the date” a.k.a the day of my death. but my mind wandered off sexually and its a bit of a nuisance because then my mind got dredged up into old memories with people with whom would agree would have been better in the sense of different if there wasn’t any more human communication or even the thought of connecting

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Sleeping Positions

by TheRiver
written by TheRiver

I saw something on the net recently about sleeping positions and what they supposedly mean about your personality and what not. Now, I’m not the type to buy into things like that, but I had to have a bit of a sad, grudging laugh when I thought about it. My usual sleeping position was not listed. I tend to sleep on my back, legs together and hands folded neatly on my chest, like someone laid out for burial. I never really noticed before. Hah… I wonder what that says about me.

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Life hates me.

by Lifehatesme
written by Lifehatesme

“Why me?”

“Why do I have to live with this pain? (mentally)”

“Why can’t I smile like everyone else”

“Why can’t I be happy?”

“Can I please die?”

My depression started in September 2012. When I applied for university in 2011, I got rejected which I didn’t mind first time round. Later on the year, I applied again in 2012, guess what, I got rejected. That’s when my depression started. I just can’t deal with rejections. My “friends” are busy with their university friends and their new life whereas I, stuck at home, hoping to go university. I have tried applying for jobs but no result. Any way, I applied […]

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Mental pain now constant

by drastunir
written by drastunir

Still pretending to fix something now, as I have quite literally given up. However, I am a man of my word and I won’t kill myself until June 22nd. Only recently has the pain of depression (and yes, major depression can cause pain) been constant. Previously it has been on and off, but now I can’t shake it. I won’t have any regrets when I kill myself, because it won’t be as painful as my life is now.

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It never ends, but keep going

by KeepGoing
written by KeepGoing

This post is mainly for anyone who needs a read or something to carry on….

I’ve been battling with killing myself everyday for over 2 years. What’s worse is that the reason I feel this way is because of the shit from other people – some people are just nasty and hateful, I’ve been dealing with privacy invasion – I’ve had a lot stolen from me intellectually as well as emotionally – maybe that sounds dumb, but it’s true…. I ended up in the hospital once because I wanted to kill myself…. this isn’t a pitty post it’s to let anyone who reads it know they […]

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I suck at life

by TheRoadSoFar
written by TheRoadSoFar

Here I am, once again, depressed. Reality finally caught me and punched me hard in the face. But this time, I have nobody to talk about it. I’m so complicated, people get sick and tired of me. I mean, people don’t really care for me. And when there’s someone who actually does, I wish that person didn’t. It’s stupid isn’t it? I need help, but I push aside everyone who tries to help. And I say “tries” because I’m such a fucking mess and I’m the only one who understands myself, and still, I can’t figure out who am I. And if I can’t figure […]

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Stop Now

by Jaye
written by Jaye

Everyone is getting sick of me.
I’ve been in the exact same state since my breakdown over a month ago. I’ve made no progress. If anything I’m worse.
I’m trying so hard but I can’t move on. I hurt so much. People are sick of dealing with my weakness and I don’t blame them, I just don’t know what else to do. I need help pretty much 24/7. I’m a mess.
If I don’t talk to people, I feel worse and so lonely. But they’re tired of dealing with my issues.
I’ve had my exit planned for a while now. It’s all there and ready […]

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by Remnant The Unbroken
written by Remnant The Unbroken

I really, really cannot do this anymore. I can’t trust myself. I can’t survive my life with the etching of all this shit in my brain. It’s not good. Not good at all. I think I’m going to go back to planning my way out. This burden is too much for me. No matter how hard I pray for God’s help and talk to other people the guilt just keeps choking me.

 

 

Its over. I’m over. I don’t deserve to live. I’m a fucking failure to everyone.

 

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Seraphim Resurrection Execution

by Bisban
written by Bisban

Recruit.

The first album. The man to his death.
Abyssal, abyssal. I am the only one counting the number.
There is no number, here in this singularity.
Today, burnt away again. Army of Seraphim. I need to die. Take me.

The new age begins with the walking, death, and the white horse.
The ancient text, the journey to the holy pilgrimage. Death…. is a number.
I am an obliterated splattered rot. Transmogrification of hell.
Build me an iron mask. The warrior, to the fight of the story of the living hell.

We gonna be heading, to the Squatch. Did you hear about the Star-Child skull yet?

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my story

by johnytwotimes1
written by johnytwotimes1

Hi, I’m a 15 year old boy, I’m currently a closet bi-sexual, and have, in my own way, suffered a lot over the years. For starts, I’ve had to deal with both mental and physical bullying my whole life, save for this year. When I was in 4th grade, I had only 1 friend, and when I tried to make a new one, this kid thought I was trying to take his only friend away, so instead of telling me so, he physically bullied me to try to get his point across. Every time he caught me talking to his friend, he would come up […]

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