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Why?

by lolzmay
written by lolzmay

So I just found this website o whatever today and I guess I thought it would be a good way to right the things I can’t say out loud to anyone even though I know no one will probably read this. I’ve been depressed for the last 5 years and I finally decided to see a psychologist about it since my self harm problem has started up again and my suicidal thoughts have been getting stronger. The only problem is my mom, I can’t tell her why i want to see a psychologist because she’d freak and never let me leave the house alone ever […]

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The blood of my cuts and scars of the future

by Day
written by Day

Yes I am a cutter it’s how I deal with certain major problems a few months ago my life was going great now it’s taken a turn for the wiser my emotions are like a land mine and it dosent take much to trigger them if you don’t know me by now I’m Jason or Day whichever you want to call me is fine. I have been suicidal at a very young age and it’s only gotten worse I have drank so many chemicals in attempts to a true release but all have failed I always end up throwing the chemicals back up i am […]

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by scared01
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I had been diagnosed with severe depression about 12 years ago. In that time & have been on at least that many meds with as many different side effects.

I lost a Vice Presidents position and a business to this retched thing.

I have taken myself off of all meds. I know this is not smart, please, no lectures. I am tired of having one pill after another thrown at me like I’m a dartboard..

I am afraid to go out in public because I brake down over the dumbest things. As everyone here knows, nobody really understands this unless you’ve been there.

There just does not seem to […]

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Things people say…

by shatteredhopes
written by shatteredhopes

“I’ll be here if you need someone to talk to.” No you won’t, you always ignore me.

“I care about you.” No, you only care about yourself.

“I know how you feel.” No, you don’t. I don’t even know how I feel.

“I’ll never hurt you.” Then why do you always tear me to pieces? Why am I the one to blame?

“Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It’s not worth it.” Oh yeah? Sometimes those problems aren’t so permanent. And it may not be worth it to you but I’m sick and fucking tired of being in so much pain, and not belonging anywhere. I hate waking up in […]

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love??

by wanderlustnebula
written by wanderlustnebula

For as long as I remember, I never loved anyone. Like I’ve been attracted to guys, but I never felt anything. Like if they would dump me the next day, I wouldn’t even care. And it’s’the same for my family and friends. Everyone but my sister. What is wrong with me? How would you best describe love?

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Here again

by dyingsoul8899
written by dyingsoul8899

Well today was a terrible day. Started off good enough, I felt real for the first time in a while although I’m still hearing what people say repeating in my head, idk what that is, but anyway, I told a joke in school, a joke I won’t talk about but I’ll just say it got taken out of context, and of course the dean of students or whatever the hell you call him and now I’m going to have to deal with this shit. Of course it’s on the fist day I feel real and am starting to wish to continue on this happens. Fuck […]

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go away emotions

by Remnant The Unbroken
written by Remnant The Unbroken

Sometimes I wish I was a robot. I mean, damn it’s like my body is PMSing non stop. One minute I’m alright and then the next I want to kill everyone in the house and then myself.

Just shoo anxiety, shoo depression. Scat, get away! Before I get the rolled up newspaper and start beating my head with it. Like a fly on the wall.

Screw meds, we need a new form of flyswatters….. mentalissueswatters

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Im a Failure and always will be

by Adam1991
written by Adam1991

Its wierd i was fine this morning then now this afternoon i feel totally depressed very minor thoughts of suicide and how much easier it would be if i didnt have to worry about anything anymore.

the thing that makes me the most depressed it that i have nothing going, im 22 and i have nothing going for me no career started no plans and no matter what i try to do i fail at it, i tried to take me EMR which is my Emergency Medical Responder so i could work on the Oil rigs as a medic, but i failed the mid term as […]

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disgusted

by ashleys17
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Lately for about 1month and a half I’ve been feeling really disgusted with myself. Nothing about me pleases me. I think I really hate myself . I’m really fat and really ugly at least thats what I think. My friends and family think otherwise but no one actually understands me.  If im not a hungry kid in africa or I can walk move and do other things most people can’t do I cant have no type of problems.  I know I can try to change how look but its a lot harder then you expect.  I can’t stand to look in the mirror it hurts […]

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17 years of lies..

by emptyalways
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It’s crazy to think that for 17 years the man I call daddy isn’t even my biological father. You both claim you weren’t trying to hide it or lie to me but honestly I could care less what you say. You did lie. You hid it from me. You hid him from me. The man I call daddy doesn’t have my blood in his veins. It all makes sense though, why the postcards were never signed “Daddy or Dad” but instead with his first and last name. I was little so I never noticed. It shouldn’t have been such a shock, all the clues and […]

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more pathetic blathering

by kristink
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i feel a crying jag coming on for no particular reason. just really sad today. i am pretty sure i took my meds this morning though my memory sucks when i am in this state. i wonder what it would be like to not take meds. just be me au naturale. i suppose i would just fall further into the abyss. though at this time i question whether there is much more to fall into.  my suicidal thoughts are all encompassing. i see my death in everyday things. falling down the stairs, crossing the street, cutting up vegetables, burning myself on the stove. when i […]

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what can I do?

by whatcanido
written by whatcanido

please, anyone here that is even suicidal or slightly suicidal, or even not, or just needing someone to talk to, please send me an email. I want to be a friend to you and to try to offer you advice for a blessed life. I am not so old or wise, just 22, but I am pained at reading so many of these posts and I have it in me to be encouraging. I am not acting like I am some kind of suicide hotline but I know those hotlines cannot help to fill the void. please give me an opportunity to encourage you and be […]

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good morning

by Remnant The Unbroken
written by Remnant The Unbroken

So far my day is okay. Hope all of yours is too. Hoping it stays that way. My mood likes to fluctuate whenever it sees fit so I’m just going to listen to some mellow music and maybe daydream of something nice…like walking the beach with a future soul mate or laying in the woods listening to the birds. Also, random I know, but my backyard smells awesome because I just cut the grass yesterday and I love the smell of fresh cut grass.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5P7tD15whU

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Another day!

by blue3182
written by blue3182

So….I have never really added my own post, so I am a bit nervous about the response…thus bare with me! I am currently off to work…another morning and day of survival! Over the past 10-12 years I have been struggling and suffering with depression, borderline and suicidality. I have been in intensive therapy programs and have a therapist who is amazing, yet I have been still feeling a bit off and at times hopeless. Everyone is so supportive on this blog and it’d be great to meet or chat with someone living in the same area of Massachusetts, who has been struggling with the same […]

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