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Instruction Manual for Living Things in the World (English version)

by Stain 4/21/2014

written by Stain

1. Try to fit in. If successful, hooray. Skip the rest of this manual and have a wonderful damned life.

2. If you don’t fit in, try harder.

3. If you come to the realization that you can’t fit in, that you are flawed or damaged, or even more astutely if you realize that the world itself is flawed and damaged beyond your ability to tolerate it, then pull up a seat and read the rest of this manual.

4. Convince yourself that you are the problem. This certainly won’t fix anything, nor will it make your life any more bearable, but it may distract you enough to […]

4/21/2014 5 comments

I don’t know what to do I got no instructions

by themusical 4/21/2014

written by themusical

If I accept myself and my life- will that stop me from not trying to solve my Major Problem that’s causing me a great deal of shame and sense of worthlessness?

If I don’t, won’t that just make me forever miserable?

When my efforts fail and fail and nothing gets better, of course I want to end it all.

Then something may snap me out of that mood, but it is only temporary.

Because my efforts will still fail and fail and for as long as they fail will I have no hope and for as long as there is now hope will I want to leave…

Yet if I […]

4/21/2014 1 comment

Goodbye to all you strangers :)

by caillte 4/21/2014

written by caillte

I sometimes miss what could have been- some people wont get that and wonder how I could miss something I’ve never experienced first hand, but I guess you don’t really need to understand it. My life is too full of what ifs, maybes, and day dreams of what I want myself and my life to be like. I think I stopped trying to live “here” a long time ago, I live in my head now because facing what is right in front of me is too painful. I cringe at the thought of acknowledging Â my life, both past and present. Yet I am obsessed with […]

4/21/2014 2 comments

leaving

by lissbabe 4/21/2014

written by lissbabe

Goodbye friends and people I may not know but I will be here if you need to speak just email me at melissawitch@hotmail.co.uk I will try my hardest to help you all out no matter what just give me that email and I will be here for you even if you want to rant at me I will listen to you and be here and any problems just tell me I know how depression is and loosing someone dearly to you but I must leave this site sorry to say I love this site and all the people on here the makers and the people […]

4/21/2014 0 comment

by Kallian 4/21/2014

written by Kallian

I don’t even have anything to post anymore. I’m just done

4/21/2014 3 comments

Ever so slowly…..

by The_red_fairytale 4/21/2014

written by The_red_fairytale

I’m slipping off the edge again, I feel like every where i turn it’s gonna be another round of how to tear down the weird girl. It’s like they only come after me and I don’t know why. I don’t understand why it is such a bad thing to be different from the others. Why should it matter that I like a lot of eyeliner, or that the bottom half of my hair is a different color every two weeks. why should it matter to anyone? It’s not like my actions have a direct cause on your life. It’s not like I plan my life […]

4/21/2014 15 comments

I couldn’t have put this in a better way.

by Hospital For Souls 4/21/2014

written by Hospital For Souls

4/21/2014 8 comments

Well, this world ends with a fucking bang, baby.

by Stain 4/21/2014

written by Stain

The famous poem goes

This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper.

But I can’t say I agree. I refuse to “whimper” out. Never have and never will. I haven’t always won my battles (Christ knows I haven’t), I haven’t always fought bravely against my enemies. But I’ve NEVER rolled over and taken it.

And Life is my greatest enemy. I will not roll over and take it, like so many […]

4/21/2014 1 comment

honest truth

by The_red_fairytale 4/21/2014

written by The_red_fairytale

The honest truth:

We all have felt like we donâ€™t matter, that no one is listening to word you say.
We all have seen and heard what words can do, with the cuts and deaths.
The people around world, weâ€™ve seen the horror,
The romance, and the heartache of it all.
The kids, the teens, the almost adults, young to the old

Yeah, weâ€™ve seen the world go round ever so slowly.
The world that you and me live in
Donâ€™t we get a say?, in this life we live?
We donâ€™t get a choice from left or the right
Theyâ€™ll tell me, and they except me […]

4/21/2014 2 comments

bipolar? or hormones?

by mbaerr 4/21/2014

written by mbaerr

I’ve recently been told that I could possibly have bipolar disorder. I looked it up, and it sounds similar to what I experience. This isn’t the first time I’ve been told that I have some sort of depression, I’ve heard friends talk about me or even tell me to my face that I should get it checked out. I always try to look my best and happiest when I’m around others but sometimes it apparently either looks too fake and they know something is wrong or they just catch me off guard. I have mood swings, but I’m 17! I thought that was normal. […]

4/21/2014 8 comments

Reflection of Me

by ashley68@q.com 4/21/2014

written by ashley68@q.com

I remember looking into the mirror and being disgusted at the pitiful, worthless person I saw before me. I loathed myself, everything about myself. I was fearful of the world around me and felt suffocated by the pain that I had endured. My life meant nothing, I was nothing.
Now I sit here reading all of these posts, all of these reflections of me and my heart bleeds. I remember not so long ago feeling this way. Planning my death and thinking about how my suicide would be successful this time around if I did it this way or that way.
After something particularly devastating […]

4/21/2014 1 comment

I’m stuck in a rut

by Annonymousknight 4/21/2014

written by Annonymousknight

Basically I am in a bad situation. I don’t have anybody around for any kind of a support system and I don’t want to call some hotline. I am dealing with depression, abuse, and suicidal thoughts quite often and I am stuck alone. Most of the time I’m not allowed to leave the house because I’ve supposedly Â done something wrong.Â I don’t think I’ll be ending my life anytime soon but I might end up giving in if my situation doesn’t change. Anyone have any advice?

4/21/2014 5 comments

Help me

by psychoooowhoa 4/20/2014

written by psychoooowhoa

My whole body mind heart craves and yearns for death . Â Sweet death. Â i need it like I need air…. Â Help me pls

4/20/2014 5 comments

ranty rant

by Kalana 4/20/2014

written by Kalana

god I’m so fucking pissed off with my DHB; They expect us to pay through the nose in taxes and then won’t even give us the services we need!! WTF is this shit?!? and people ask me why I’m an anarchist… I don’t need the health of the majority dictating what sort of illnesses I get covered for!!! fucking idiots…. and then they act all suprised when we wan’t to kill ourselves! well DUHHH!!! USE YOUR BRAINS FUCKING DUMB PEICE OF SHIT POLITICIANS

4/20/2014 1 comment

Day By Day Step By Step,Life Gets Better Even When The Storm Never Ends.

by lovechangedme28 4/20/2014

written by lovechangedme28

I am here,because of one reason this is true “Love” I am strong I know this because I am also weak. Ive been through most of it,and seen alot heard most of it..I am 19 i’ve lived this life and keep living even though i’ve had my darkness and even when the light is in,theres always gonna be dark because ive learned “The sun cant stay out forever,but the darkness leaves always,and cant stay forever either” this is my story and yes it is true.

I found love at 16 a point in my life when I thought I was gonna give up and give in […]

4/20/2014 0 comment

I need peoples’ opinions.

by Sneakyy 4/20/2014

written by Sneakyy

TLDR: 20+ years old, moved abroad to meet online friends, did something silly and now debating whether or not to leave cause I’m happy as fuck here but if I go home (and make the people here happy) I’ll spiral back down.

Hi everyone, first post. I’ve read this forum for months while trying to constantly claw myself back up from rock bottom, and I thought I did (temporarily) until I came into this problem.

I’m in my early 20s and moved across the world to be a nanny. I was studying at home, working, and just felt like a drone. I had met a few friends […]

4/20/2014 2 comments

it will help

by givin' up? 4/20/2014

written by givin' up?

I’ve decided to start cocaine.

-on a point that im afraid of my own mind

4/20/2014 5 comments

Father completed suicide

by Momoftwo 4/20/2014

written by Momoftwo

My father completed suicide a few days ago. Â No one ever saw it coming–he was a religious man, a bachelors in Theology and an ordained minister. Â He was terminally ill and getting worse and worse by the day. Â He did not want to be put into a nursing home or die in a hospital. Â He died at home in his own bed. Â He was only 60 but his quality of life was so poor I don’t blame him for doing it. Â He is so much better off, in no pain now and free from his need of oxygen to live. Â Â I am sorry […]

4/20/2014 6 comments

Resolved to Commit Suicide

by midnite 4/20/2014

written by midnite

Contemplating suicide for the longest time, but the more I live, the more I yearn to die. Being human just sucks! If I were young, everyone would be concerned and talk me out of it right? But I am a senior. Now, you are not concerned and don’t give a damn right?

I am currently cleaning house. Purging my belongings. No one notices. No one cares. Good.

4/20/2014 4 comments

yes no maybe I don’t know

by themusical 4/20/2014

written by themusical

I feel like I am The Only One. The only one that is Truly Alone. I know that is not true… But somehow all my searches for somebody with life circumstances like mine only further validate that I Am Alone And No One Understands. Oh and by the way I am Not A Teenager. I wasn’t a particularly angsty teenager. If I had been one, perhaps I would have been ok now. If I had realized earlier that I might have social anxiety and/or be a HSP (whatever the difference is, I only learned about HSP yesterday) maybe I could have solved this sooner.

I just […]

4/20/2014 2 comments

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