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Thanks to all those who felt their big philosophies and scientific theories could upturn my conviction. Thanks to all those who denounced his existence and helped to isolate themselves from their maker. Thanks to all. And even more..
It may not please you or even add to your depression to know that i will never forget him or leave him. Thanks again. To one and all.
Okay, this is really weird, telling my story to a bunch of strangers. But maybe that’s the only way for me to tell my story. I mean maybe none of you give a shit, and that’s totally fine, but it’s pretty cool if you do take the time to read someone else’s story. I appreciate that.
So let me start waaaay from the beginning. I was born with my eyes wide open, I notice everything. Too early? Too bad. Wanna know something else I was born with besides an innate sense of observation? I was also given the gift, or curse depending on how you view […]
“Ew, look girls, it’s the fat bird.â€
says Hattie. “Hahah, hey fatty,
why don’t you go and fly away
and take up space somewhere
else!†yells Carra. God I hate
the plastic Barbie bitches who constantly torture my life i think
to myself. I get up to leave, but
before i can Hattie and Carra
are in front of me. “You’re so
fat Jenna.†says Carra. “Yes,
your Royal ***** of Bitchland, I believe you’ve told me this
information before.†I say
calmly. She’s clearly pissed off
now. I try to walk past them but
Hattie stops me with her hand.
“Fat Bird where do […]
I want a hug
that never ends.
– and possibly hibernate when I’m feeling down.Â
The other day I attempted suicide. I tried to OD (overdose) and failed. And today I cut my legs badly.
I told my best friends about me attempting and now they are ignoring me.
I fuck up everything. :c
I suffer everyday so I can stay here for someone I love who doesn’t love me, and for my other best friend.
In the end, it probably doesn’t matter.
Hypnotizing, in case of insomnia.
I dont know what to even think about anymore I have gone through enough where I give great advice but for some reason I wont listen to it myself, I help everyone else but no one helps me out. I feel like I’m the only one. I don’t know how I can stand it sometimes. I have gone with out cutting for a little while now, and I always feel I am going to slip and do it again. The one person that has helped me the most screws me over every once in a while but I get over it because she actually listens […]
My philosophy in life is always want something, but dont ask for the impossible and definitely dont expect anything for free.
Life is a challenge there may be challenges around every corner but dont sit down n call it quits, find things u love and at least make an attempt to pursue them.
I sit and wonder. Wonder why I was put here. Put here to cry and suffer. Why would someone put lost.., lonely.., souls here.. to suffer? I don’t understand why I’m here.. Why I’m still dreaming of a good day.. It’s been almost a year now and suicide still seems to be my best friend.. It’s not as close anymore but it’s still there.. and at times.. it moves in and hugs me. Makes me happy. Isn’t that sad? Suicide thoughts make me happy.., when nothing else in this pointless world does. Sad. I’ll keep dreaming of a way to escape. Leave. Disappear. As I’m […]
Alright, so I’m not suicidal. I have cut, but they’re just scars now. This past year has been horrible. From family problems, to relationship problems. My boyfriend cheated on me, but we’re still together. He really is amazing. I wish I didn’t love him. We have been dating for 7 months, almost 8. The girl he cheated on me with doesn’t like me, but just because I told her to back off.. I had a reason to.. Right? Well, she hates that she’s the second option.. But she doesn’t know how it feels to know that there even is a second choice. I got taken away […]
I can’t handle this pain anymore, i just wanna leave it all behind. Maybe that makes me a coward, but i can live with that. i CANNOT keep going on feeling this way any longer. im ready for an end. im very young, i have lots of life ahead of me, but i just can’t take it anymore. Death is a beautiful gift.
I didn’t tell anyone that I was depressed. I didn’t know how. If you were a parent and your twelve year old daughter said she was depressed would you believe her? I wouldn’t, especially since I usually come across as the happiest of the children. When I finally worked up the courage to tell my mom, my timing couldn’t have been worse. It was the night before mothers day, and I let out all I had hidden. I opened up, I cried and confessed. I told her everything, right down to wishing the house would burn down with me along with it. I was so […]
I’m 14 . In 2009 , in 5th grade my Dad passed away. At the time he passed I was being bullied in school. Everyday was a living hell. I didn’t fear the people there, but I was just afraid of what new they had to say about me . When i came home and my mom told me my Dad died it was devastating, i thought of suicide and tried. No one new. I know that one thing that killed me inside was that no one was there for me when my dad passed , no one was there when i was being bullied […]
i don’t know why she gets into my thoughts and makes me cry.. yeah i remember i invited you to spread tears in my heart…
i don’t know do i really deserve this suffering..
Let me just begin by saying that i have contemplated suicide many times in my life time, mostly during my adolescence, but just recently also. I have been observing this page for a few days, and have been reading all of your posts.
I happened to stumble upon this article while searching near death experiences, and was amazed and humbled by the words so much that i began to cry. (not from sadness, but from the pure warmth of peace) I hope this brings you peace, and if not peace, a better understanding on why you are here now, and why we all MUST suffer sometimes… […]
Everyday it’s the same torture. I wake up not wanting to get out of bed. I leave my room to get on the scale seeing a number that makes me cry. I won’t eat but 100 cals a day. I weigh 99 pounds but my body looks like it’s 160 pounds. My parents worry. I clench my teeth trying not to cry all day. I ask myself why I let it get this far. I hate myself for who I am and the things I do. I start to believe I deserve all of this. I miss my boyfriend so much, he can’t be here […]
When people ask where you’ve been the last five months or whatever what do you say?
“Oh, I’ve been suicidal and a shut-in and being well enough to be out may not last.”
or “I’ve had issues” or
“Been busy” –I don’t like bending the truth.
Something that is relevant here and should be better understood.
I’m so positive, always smiling, laughing, telling people what they want to hear, trying to make them happy but sometimes when I’m alone, I just can’t control myself. I fight myself, knowing I will loose. I just, I don’t know, I don’t know how to explain. People out there, having fun, couples, or friend groups, going out everyday, their parents let them go out. But they are always wanting for more, i don’t understand. Is it fair? I love living and life but sometimes it’s seems so dark I can’t even find the light switch. Â Ofcourse I feel so blessed for all of these, so […]
welcome to the world kid,you have about 13 years to be happy,to be you,to be like nietzche said a superman,dont care about religión,responsability,education,prejuices,tabus,even sex.in this period you are you in your pure state,not influenced by society.when this period ends your mind starts to change,your feelings are new you will have to go to school,study like a damn nerd,obey the rules.now you are not you anymore,you are influenced by the people that surrounds you,their ideas,their fears.your doors are closing slowly.that pure kid that you where is dying.religion enters your life even if you dont like it at all.you have been raised to be a responsable,calm and […]
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