General

I know the love, I know the hate.
I see the pain that I can create
Ive been low, ive ran on slow
I have no place to call my home
I have no friends I have nobody
I create the sadness that resides in side me
I did not come from a happy home
Ive been alone with no place to go
But to create is my escape
To just site down and interlace
The hands of time with my corrupt mind
To spew out whatever I happen to find
I write because its all I own
This block of mind inside my soul

Life is complicated and confusing. It’s filled with so much beauty and joy but buckets of pain. So much love but so much sadness. There is no escaping save for sleep. So if you are feeling like you’re ending is inevitable (which it is) and you may as well just pack it all in yourself (don’t) then put on your favorite song or go to your favorite place, and sleep. Be it in your car in a dead end somewhere, a park, under a bridge, on a roof. Just sleep. Don’t expect to feel better or worse when you wake up. Just let yourself rest. […]

“Life helps those who help themselves.”

Everyone says, “it’s all in your hands.”

“Only you can help yourself.”

What if I can’t help myself?

I’ve tried, but I just can’t.

Those who made this possible, Thank You .

Also thanks to society for having betrayed me and other people like me.
Fuck. You.

It’s been a long time.

Maybe I was trying to convince myself that I am better.

Life is better. But I am not. Does it even make sense?

I’ve been struggling with depression for five years. I’m 18 now. I haven’t tried to kill myself, but I self harm quite often. I snap rubber bands against my wrists and thighs, I bite myself, give myself bruises, scratch myself, burn myself in the shower, pretty much anything I can do to cause myself pain. I feel that I deserve pain. I have done so many things in my life that make me think that I don’t deserve to live.

I don’t feel like people actually care about me; I feel like they just put up with me. I am supposed to start my second year […]

So… this is new for me. I’ve only talked to a few people about what’s going on in my life. I have my suicide planned; the how and when. I just can’t deal anymore. I guess I was hoping to come on this site and something would miraculously change my mind or make things better, but, things don’t always go as you had planned.

I don’t get it!!! I really just don’t. I can help out so many people, even with the same problems as me and yet it may help them but doesn’t do me any good. I try so hard and I just cant seem to help myself at all. this is killing me inside and out. I guess that’s just what life’s all about. what’s the sense of staying in it just to suffer… any one else agree??

I remember when my dad was a angry drunk I was only 10 then. I was so scared to come home because I knew it would be the same thing every night. School was a safe place for me even if I had no friends. I went through a lot from 10 to 13. I was really depressed back then. My dad got his shit together when I was 13 and stopped drinking. My mom became a real mom. We were what I would call a normal family we still had problems but we worked through it.

This shows me that life does get better. […]

i really feel like im going to die. i cant take this. i dont know what to do. i wish there was a way i could make him understand that if he takes a chance on me everything will be ok. i wish i could ease his mind, do something. i dont know. i cant live like this. i wish he could see. im sorry. i love him more than anything in the world. i dont know what to do. i cant move.

i made the biggest mistake of my life and it just keeps getting bigger, worse, and i have to get more and more emotionally involved. stupid teenage girls and their decisions.

Every time I start thinking I’m going to take the easy way out the universe sends me a reminder that there is a reason to stay. Life is short. Don’t kill yourself.

If there is anything I can say to you that will make you feel the love that I feel in the universe I would say it.  But having been where you are I know there isn’t really that much you can hear other than pain. So let me help you in the only way I know how.

We are soul mates. I love you deeply. You’re awesome and amazing in the coolest ways. If you […]

and again im on here, talking it through helps, i cant talk to people i know about stuff, im always too busy making sure i come accross strong and confident, covering my ass with lies. its been over a year now since it all happened, i say it was a spur of the moment thing, me and a guy i hardly knew, i was 14 and he was 18, on concrete by a public footpath in the middle of winter. they believed it, i mean why would i openly go there? who would want that? it still hurts to remember it all, yet however much […]

Hey I just found this website and thought give it a try I’m feeling the lowest in my life right now have lost everything from job to family to home and car aswell as money I’ve been in a relationship for 3 years now and my partners left shes left me with nothing apart from debts im nearly 30 and cant start again I really love her she won’t take my calls or nothing feel nothing now apart from hurt

I’m about to lose my home and my boyfriend at the end of the week. I can either move back into my parents’ place in the closet of a room next to what used to be my old room, or… well, that’s about it. I’m 22 and I have very little to show for my life. I work in a dead end retail job part time and I can’t seem to get out of this rut. My soon-to-be ex boyfriend is miserable because of me, and I know my parents are deeply disappointed in my life. I have no close friends except for one who […]

Nothing… absolutely nothing. I’m completely empty. No thoughts, no feelings, no emotion, just a speck of dust traveling through the cruel air. I am not alive. In order to be alive, you must be living. I’m invisible. No one pays attention to me or notices me. I am but an ant…. crawling it’s way around the earth, slowly; step by step; little by little. Just like the ant, I have no meaning to life. I’m not making anything of myself, I’m not important to anyone… Why am I here? What’s my purpose? Do I even have one? I look into the future and see nothing […]