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by msquared 6/3/2013

written by msquared

im going to take a shower now. maybe ill stay in there all day. i dont know. i dont know what to do. i cant calm down. i cant do anything. i literally want to die. i feel like im dying every second. i want a better life, but since i cant, living is more and more painful every second. i cant breathe. i cant do anything. i want to die. i cant handle this. there is no way i can fight every second about things i am not able to prove. i am fighting against someone who has made up their mind and has […]

6/3/2013 0 comment

Don’t let the bastards in life win

by Dawg 6/3/2013

written by Dawg

Don’t let them win – By not giving in proves what douchenozzles the bullies and bastards are and that for all their strength and snark – they just cannot beat us

“If you think god hates you, hate him back” (modified quote from Lethal Weapon character Martin Riggs)

perseverance dawg

6/3/2013 1 comment

by ronal007 6/3/2013

written by ronal007

i loved her a lot.it has been few months actually almost 4-5 months.i can’t forget her.i can’t stop thinking about her.i know i can’t die right now.but it is just that i am all alone.i feel my loneliness is bringing back all her memories.or what i don’t know.need someone in my lonely life.

6/3/2013 2 comments

by msquared 6/3/2013

written by msquared

oh my god. i cant change the past. i wish i could. i can only keep trying to make now and the future better. i wish i could change the past. i dont know what to do. oh my god. are you kidding me?! i dont know what to do. there has to be something i can do. why does he always have to assume hes correct?! why cant he understand he is wrong sometimes?! oh my god. i dont know what to do.
i really do want to die because i know as long as im alive this is going to eat at me. […]

6/3/2013 4 comments

noon

by msquared 6/3/2013

written by msquared

i’m going to die if i keep trying to prove to him that he’s wrong. or im going to die sitting here knowing hes wrong about this and all of the other things hes wrong about. he doesn’t understand that even though he’s been right about some things, that doesn’t mean he is always right. he thinks im a cookie cutter of somebody else, or another story, or things he’s read, etc. im not, i’m my own person. i dont know what to do. im going to die sitting here. this is why all i want to do is sleep. i love him more than […]

6/3/2013 0 comment

Question

by Im Fine 6/3/2013

written by Im Fine

Living and dying. It’s all the same to me. I don’t care either way.

If I’m probably not actually going to do anything to kill myself (despite feeling like it sometimes and having a plan) because, basically, I don’t see a point in it – does that mean I’m not suicidal?

Just curious.

6/3/2013 1 comment

LOVE

by AscahIsBroken 6/3/2013

written by AscahIsBroken

Sugar on your tongue
Inhale
Water licks my blood
Dead pale
Rain fills up my lungs
It’s hail
It’s a hand she held to my chest
Lips to my neck
I didn’t understand
Poison on her breath
Sleeping in her bed
Blood on the sheets
A memory that brings back memories

Red
Sink back, sink stained
Red

Fear
Black out, panic
Fear

Breathe
Drowning, in blood
Breathe

I yearned for his heat
Warm skin
Lust from curiosity
To sin
Exposed to release
Longing
It’s a lack of guidance
A cowards ignorance
No answers given when the questions aren’t asked
I wasn’t okay but no one cared about my pain

Blue

6/3/2013 2 comments

Dear Meursault…

by OddOneOut 6/3/2013

written by OddOneOut

For those who don’t know, Meursault is a character from the famous literary jewel “L’etranger (The Stranger/Outsider), written by Albert Camus, and is pronounced Mur-Sew

The book is famous and controversial because of Meursault’s character (which I won’t explain here; all of you should read the book it’s amazing), which I strongly believe is EXACTLY like how I am becoming right now…
I don’t care anymore. Whether something is ethical or not, what the effects of my actions will be…I feel emotionless (ba-dum, tss), don’t feel pain or happiness, time passes and the only way I know that it does is by the colour of the […]

6/3/2013 6 comments

6 Words

by raincloudz 6/3/2013

written by raincloudz

i lived.

people forgot.

did i?

6/3/2013 3 comments

Life.

by littledove 6/3/2013

written by littledove

Haha, such a funny word.

I wish I had one, a life.

Full of excitement and being cheerful.

But, no. I am nothing to anyone.

Constantly alone, no one to turn to. Completely alone.

I just want to mean something, to feel important to someone.

Just someone save me from this pathetic life I live.

6/3/2013 15 comments

Does that make sense?

by ImNothing_ 6/3/2013

written by ImNothing_

Why do I feel like life is just a set-up?

Life is just a distraction for the upcoming death…

I am living my life, trying to become someone in this cruel judgmental world and all I get in return is a funeral.

I am so afraid to die, but I’m beginning to be afraid to live as well… knowing that each day I wake up, is a day closer to my extinction.

Breathing, fighting, trying?

All just to end up inside the earth;

with no conscience, no mind, nothing

Does that make sense?

6/3/2013 4 comments

Obsessed…

by _smiles_lie_ 6/3/2013

written by _smiles_lie_

I’ve been “depressed” ever since I can remember…I am now 23 and I suppose I tried to kill myself for the first time a month ago. I say I suppose because I’m still not sure that thats what I was trying to achieve. I wanted to sleep, I took a lot of pills…couldnt sleep, didnt die. I’ve had the hardest month of my life and then I find out that a guy that less that two months ago was telling me he loved me, and one of my closest (or so I thought) friends have been dating behind my back for weeks. I found out […]

6/3/2013 7 comments

Is the grass greener on the other side?

by KanadeSong 6/3/2013

written by KanadeSong

I can’t say I’m willing to yet.

I’m not.

But

If I know I’ll see him again if I get to the other side,

I definitely will.

Besides,

I still have to do what I have to do.

For him.

6/3/2013 7 comments

yeah so

by kater24 6/3/2013

written by kater24

ive singlehandedly fucked up my whole life. i was in love with my best friend. we’ve been best friends for years and ive loved him the whole time and then i fucked the whole thing up. because he was being distant and i freaked and stopped talking to him for weeks and then the first time he even texted me all he wanted to say was that he “liked” someone. this gorgeous fucking perfect girl that everyone is in love with and that he will never get. and now everything is messed up and i ruined our friendship and we are both going to the […]

6/3/2013 6 comments

What’s wrong with me.

by Sam 6/2/2013

written by Sam

They ask me if I’m okay knowing that I know what they want me to say. I smile say I’m fine it’s like this everyday. Most of us don’t have a life because depression has literally taken over are life’s. I was so happy.. He made me happy he’s the only guy I will ever trust. I’m a bad girl friend it’s to much for me I can’t help it I was dependent on him for happiness. I told him he would have to leave and start his own life. He told me where ever that is he’d take me with him and now he’s […]

6/2/2013 4 comments

Time is Flying

by hopefuldreamer 6/2/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

Time passes by very quickly so fast that I find it hard to catch up, I’ve always been shy,imaginative,and outgoing at times but in my recent years I find that I spend a lot of time on my own and I never really reveal myself or open up to people though I’ve never really been a kid who’s open with her feelings but I guess I can contribute that to moving a town away and when I do open up to people and tell them how I feel it’s a very strange feeling to me now that I end up regretting it, I truly feel […]

6/2/2013 2 comments

I hate being a girl

by progmessiah8 6/2/2013

written by progmessiah8

I do. It seriously feels like a disability often. You have so much that you have to worry about like making sure you don’t get raped. Every time I go out somewhere, I’m always told not to be out too late since it’s “especially dangerous for girls.” I hate that. That makes me try to dress as much like a boy as I can, so maybe I’ll be mistaken for one. I think about cutting my hair short and not shaving, but then I’ll be labeled as a “butch lesbian” since I am gay. It’s not fair. Aside from the obvious things like getting your […]

6/2/2013 4 comments

When nothing is real

by timelies 6/2/2013

written by timelies

How do you live when you feel like nothing exists? Like everything is really pointless because were all going to die anyway. Feeling like life has to be a joke…that things cant possibly work like this. Nothing ever lasts, every moment has already passed and theres not a thing you can do to get it back. And it all hurts so bad…that the very short moments you have…your sickness wont even let you enjoy, so you feel your just living to suffer, living just to hurt. Feeling like life has to be a joke that theres no way that your so alone with billions of […]

6/2/2013 4 comments

My Story

by dyingbutstillalive 6/2/2013

written by dyingbutstillalive

I’m 15 and sad. I know these dark thoughts are bad and I should get help but I honestly don’t want to depend on anyone for my weakness. I don’t know whetherÂ im depressed or just sad… all I know is that I feel empty and really dark all the time. I don’t remember when this all started and I don’t know when im getting better. I have self-harmed before and I still do. I remember the first time I took a blade to my wrist I was only 12.Â At an age like that I should have been happy and going out playing in the sun. […]

6/2/2013 3 comments

Empathy – psshaw

by Faithless 6/2/2013

written by Faithless

Set your gazes to the sky,
Look your sadness in the eye.
I don’t believe you want to die,
Silly, crying child.

Brace yourself against the ill.
Stand strong and ignore the chill.
Placate the monster with a pill.
And you with life will reconcile.

Warm yourself in rays of sun
Set tasks that can be done
And then you’ve normalcy won
If you go that extra mile

Bring yourself to places new
Take great care with what you do
Beget another friend or two
It will be easy after while

Build it up, build it high
Your life should now reach the sky
Live now not as a […]

6/2/2013 0 comment

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