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Maybe Tomorrow By Yuki Kaijura
A particular song I remember hearing one day while feeling depressed and suicidal.
made me calm down a bit, and think maybe ill wait and see what may happen first before leaving…
what have you taken away?
a fog of pain as memories darken.
once we experienced heaven,
childlike and open,
but your love perished.
a horrific pool of hatred –
thoughts follow night, follow darkness,
love bled dry.
in a storm of tears,
i still love you.
Today I told myself every thing’s okay, and that if I don’t think about the future it will stay that way longer. Why do I give myself false hope. Why am I still trying. I know hope is lost so why am I faking. You know what one of the worst feelings is? The feeling that someone could be dead or someone could die and it’s all your fault. When people say I’m going to kill myself because of you. That’s not okay. I was in a relationship where several times the other person said goodbye and that they were not going to be alive […]
Have you ever just wanted to die ?
like you have a good life and everything but sometime you feel like it doesnt matter ?
like you just not wanted and that no one needs you in there life ….
well welcome to my world
Death i await you just like you await the living </3
I wrote a poem a while back and and didn’t think much of it. I always knew I had a darker side, I just didn’t realize how depressed I was. It would be great to die this way, I hope someone remembers it.
THE LEDGE
look over the edge, what do you see?
The black of the street? Lights from the cars?
If you look up do you see stars?
Is the world black or completely clear?
Would they hear if you screamed from up here?
Or would they even care?
Look over the edge, what do you see?
Down below is your destiny, so […]
I never thought I would be here now. I recently turned eighteen and have been thinking about ending things lately.
You see, a few months ago I made a mistake of driving my car after working a double at work while under the influence of weed. I fell asleep at the wheel, crashed into a tree, and totaled my car. I am now in the process of receiving a DUI, and trying to get into the ARD program. ARD is a program that will remove a DUI from your record, and allow you avoid jail time, this is for first time offenders only.
But I just feel like if […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qh_gHAo-niQ
She stood in the cold rain, watching the people pass, remembering… She remembered him, remembered when he was more; when he was something human. She remembered the sun on their faces, when they loved each other, and thought of how they could have been, the family they could have had… They could have had everything… And as her eyes closed on the cruel world, the rain turned warm and thick from her eyes. The world cried for her, for her and for the broken heart of the sea…
Not a day that went by without him thinking about her; her beautiful face, charming laugh, and radiant […]
Hello, all
I feel like my mind is falling apart. I can’t remember anything and I have no sense of self. Nothing matters and nothing makes me happy.
However, I really do want to enjoy my life. I just want to be someone else.
I want to erase my current mind and start over again.
I also think that I might have an undiagnosed mental illness because of my rapidly-shifting moods, negative internal voices, and suicidal obsessions.
I just don’t want to take medication and go even more insane.
Can anyone else relate?
I look back over my shoulder
All I see is a past not worth remembering
And in my heart I know that I’ll never escape
The fear of my body growing colder
I see myself in all my pain
Hunched over the bathtub drain with
My blood pouring like rain
Down my arm to the sewer with all those who felt the same
And today I fight to keep at bay
The thought that demand I slay
Myself and those around who dared spout the lie that they cared
And end this life I hate today
So simple the old ways
To give in to hate and relate to life in the most brutal of ways
To berate myself […]
(not mine, thought I’d share it)
Go to sleep and close your eyes
Dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wing against a thorn
You know the pain that they have born
Hush a bye baby, you’re almost dead
You don’t have a pulse, your pillow is red
Your family hates you, your friends let you bleed
So sleep tight with a knife ‘cause it’s all that you need
Rock a bye baby broken and scarred
You didn’t know that life would be this hard
So time to end the pain that you hid so well
And down will […]
Brady’s scared to drown to death.
Sidney’s scared to burn to death.
I’m just scared to keep living like this,
I know I’ll be the one to cause my own death.
That problem being life. Â Thoughts?
Guess who’s throwing up again? Cyd. That’s who. I know.. I know.. I should really see a doctor since this is a recurring problem. I get it. I just don’t feel like dealing with it. So, instead of thinking about my volatile stomach, I’m just gonna post a random poem a wrote a few months ago…sorry it’s so goddamn depressing, but I’m still proud of it.
Mornings ruin my day
A beating heart is useless
Lying, waiting for my body to die
A beating heart is worthless
When you no longer need its services
My stomach is on fire
I guess I’ll let it […]
Hey, im back. I felt the need to take a rant. Read if you wish but if you dont i dont mind.
Its 1:04pm Sydney time and its Wednesday
So, over the course of 2 days, i have told my best guy mate that i started cutting and i was really giving up on life & personal stuf that was going on inside my head.
We played 21 questions the other night and i told him i would answer anything truthfully, and so i did. The questions started of as a joke but then got serious.
He asked ” why did you start cutting?” i told him that i […]
Towards the end when Agent Smith and Neo are battling inside the matrix and it looks like Agent Smith has won the battle, Neo stands up again to him…
Agent Smith: Why, Mr. Anderson? Why do you do it? Why get up? Why keep fighting? Do you believe you’re fighting for something? For more than your survival? Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know? Is it freedom? Or truth? Perhaps peace? Yes? No? Could it be for love? Illusions, Mr. Anderson. Vagaries of perception. The temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without […]
That’s it I’m giving up there’s no benefit from being here the only thing I do well is screw up so I’ve decided to kill myself before I fuck up again so I say goodbye.
I put a knife to my wrist i began to cut, i hid my scars so no one saw
i just wanted satisfaction of being in charge of something in life i just want to take my mind off of all this pain
all of my emotional pain, depression and stress. i popped pills i tried to overdose for some reason i only passed out
nothing works it’s like i’ve been denied by death , death wants me to be in this torture but i wont stop until this is all over
So many times, so much places
I’ve tried to kill myself without any traces
People don’t care I’m such a burden my mother hates me It just keeps hurting
No one cares most are unaware
I’m alone in this world no friends just foes
They all hate me they tease , they say I’m just a hoe
I’m nothing to anyone they don’t feel my pain
I should be gone , no one is to blame
Why live when there’s nothing but hurt?
My life is a mess this would never work
Momma tried her best to reach me
Father could’ve never taught me