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caged

by izzybel 5/22/2013

written by izzybel

there are more than 100 ways to let go. but the only thing keeping you where you are is your own cage. your mind constricts you to where you are. there is no way around it. ive laid down for them a long time ago. all i wanted was to be a better, stronger person. i hate who i have become for them. ive gone through all this, pain, doubt, and dislike in myself because ive listened to them.

when will it ever be enough? this weekend i will make that change. no more being caged!

5/22/2013 0 comment

sexy and homeless at 27 in Central florida

by Atlanta27 5/22/2013

written by Atlanta27

I gotta take my own life.

5/22/2013 5 comments

My story. Part 2

by ChellyDiane 5/21/2013

written by ChellyDiane

fourth grade and things didnt get better. People didnt really talk to me and if they did, they never had anything nice to say to me.I constantly got called names; Fatty, little miss piggy, worm (because i had my hair braided and they looked like little worms), four eyes, book worm, slob, ugly etc.Â I became very drawn back and I started to write poetry. My first poem was called no one cares about me. its a selfÂ explanatoryÂ poem.Â the names got to me. they weighted on my heart so much. I became bitter towards the world. I started to get a really bad attitude. I fought back […]

5/21/2013 0 comment

Dying of loneliness

by whyohwhysky 5/21/2013

written by whyohwhysky

Wrote my Last Will tonight. Getting it notarized this weekend and signed by two witnesses tomorrow. Felt great. Left most everything to my recently deceased lover’s family. His mom was the second kindest person to me; the first being her beautiful son who I can’t bear to live on without.

5/21/2013 4 comments

life

by hopelesshappiness 5/21/2013

written by hopelesshappiness

life is a four letter word,
a four letter word that sometimes feels like its filled with empty meaning
hate
another four letter word that over powers the word life
love
a four letter word that doesnt get used often enough
ugly
a four letter word that controls the person who i see in the mirror
dumb
a four letter word that is the reason i dont see a reason for going to school
worthless
a nine letter word that defines all my feelings

5/21/2013 0 comment

What Did I Do Wrong?

by Olivia Katelynn 5/21/2013

written by Olivia Katelynn

What did i do wrong?

Why are you always sad?

Why do you look so depressed?

Are you okay?

Is there any way is can help you?

Why dont you ever smile anymore?

What did i do wrong?

Why would you want to hurt?

Why do you intentionally harm?

What happened to your wrist?

Why are your thighs so bloody?

What did i do wrong?

Why do you dream of suicide?

Why would you want to die?

How can i make you stop?

How […]

5/21/2013 2 comments

by Jess 5/21/2013

written by Jess

I hate every second I spend in this hell hole that’s supposed to be my home. I hate looking at my dad, every time I do I feel this surge of resentment. Im tired of being that bastard’s punching bag, the fuck up to blame when things go wrong, the one who’s talents are ignored. I’ve never cut before but tonight I really want to. Everything that’s important to me is ignored, the only thing that gets me noticed is when I get pissed off and snappy, then they yell at me and I’m left crying, trying hard to explain. No one understands, they can’t […]

5/21/2013 8 comments

Is this good advice to give someone? Yes or No? Why?

by Jladd 5/21/2013

written by Jladd

Head up stay strong fake smile move on.

5/21/2013 12 comments

stop

by secretgrrl 5/21/2013

written by secretgrrl

stop cutting

that’s what needs to happen
that’s what i need to do.

but the problem isn’t knowing that
i know it all right

i know perfectly fine that’s what i have to do

it’s just i’m not strong

never have been strong.

i’m not strong enough to stop

because i need the pain so much

i need the anchor to the earth
so much
that i can’t give it up now.

i don’t know if i would call this an
addiction

but maybe that’s what it is.

idk.

how should i know?

why should i know?

and sometimes i just want to be

gone
wiped out of existing forever because you know my existence is
pointless anyways.

i am so […]

5/21/2013 2 comments

why

by myowndestruction 5/21/2013

written by myowndestruction

why why why is the question i get asked everyday .
why are you sad why are you mad why are you hurt why are you depressed . why why why
why are you cutting why are you suicidal why do you wanna die .
why do you feel so alone .
and i just sit there and cry cause to be completely honest i dont know why i dont why i am such a mess or when it began.
i dont know why i wanna kill myself i just feel like it would be the best thing .

my bestfriend kellis commited suicide today […]

5/21/2013 2 comments

Faint me..

by givin' up? 5/21/2013

written by givin' up?

First sorry if you don’t understand I’m chilean..
Since last year I want to faint me.. Maybe my parents notice that I have problems… That I’m not giving supply ( I can’t handle this anymore) cutting, wishing to take a pill and don’t wake up never again.. Is normal?
I was normal before… But something change me as a person (psychology talking) and I’ve noticed that we don’t notice when the things start until there’s no turning back.. And you will never feel that great again.. Your past will always be there to remember you your mistakes..
Maybe fainting me things will changeâ€¦
Please if […]

5/21/2013 15 comments

by why i dont no 5/21/2013

written by why i dont no

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqprsGyc8Sw

5/21/2013 0 comment

leting go fuck it im going to tell you evrey thing so if you read this let me know below

by why i dont no 5/21/2013

written by why i dont no

that it reley im don here fuck this i give up you win i dont whant to be here ill drink my self in to a oblivean on schtish wisckey of dart moor beer mmmm so yer that me no frends and well not careing i youst to help people you know i loveds it now i get greef im 16 and i feel like im 100 iv know more bout life that i would have you belev im smart but still in the botum streem in school i did pre traning for the paras iv whatch two of my frendsÂ kill them selfsÂ in freont of […]

5/21/2013 3 comments

Its not about me…its him (I’m just coming along for the ride)

by Soprano 5/21/2013

written by Soprano

First things first here in the UK its exam season.

So my friend had anÂ exam today: Biology and considering he wants to study medicine – well psychology,Â it was really important for him to do well. I asked him yesterday if he felt prepared for it and he said he “barely knew any of the content” – but he always says that and goes on toÂ get 90% on his papers and so I pushedÂ the commentÂ aside.
After his exam today I asked him how he thought it went and he said “SHIT”. Again its something he always says when he finishes exams and so I began to push […]

5/21/2013 0 comment

i’m just tired of it all

by shaeismyfaery 5/21/2013

written by shaeismyfaery

i have been depressed and suicidal for almost 4 years now. i am currently 14 years old. i have attempted suicide around 20 times (no attempts in recent year). i have frown tired of life, and i no longer feel as though i have a place on earth anymore. i promised myself that i wouldnt do it, but i can not keep that promise much longer. i dont know what to do, i am losing control and i dont even mind it.

5/21/2013 3 comments

I want to get the hell out of here.

by flatliner1077 5/21/2013

written by flatliner1077

Haven’t been on this site for awhile.Â I was hoping not to come back, but I guess it was unavoidable.

I have a wife, a kid, a car, a mortgage.Â My wife has dreams.Â Wife makes twice as much as I do, and I am constantly between jobs.Â I have no dreams or hopes.Â I am trying really hard to hold on to my sanity and myÂ job (as both a father and employee) but it is not working anymore and I am tired.Â I want to get the hell out of here.

I know very well that if I kill myself or divorce, I will destroy […]

5/21/2013 4 comments

by Sam 5/21/2013

written by Sam

I decided that it’s no longer about living because I have to. I’m going to live because I need to. My mom is currently in intensive care I came home and found her blue from lack of oxygen. She can’t breathe on her own. My mom is everything to me. She came back when I was 12 and saved me and my brothers lifes. I won’t give up until I know she’s fine. I blame a lot of this on myself the lack of oxygen is from to many medications because she was in pain because she was stressed about me. My mom has a […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

by hopefuldreamer 5/21/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

I’m kind of feeling bitter and angryÂ I never realized how badly bullying affected me forget bullying for a moment I remember how bad I felt and whenever I felt it was too much I’d try to go to someone to talk about how it made me feel but nobody seemed to take me seriously and stopped talking but the thing is I guess I started to treat myself badly and I began wishing everything about me was different and whenever I hurt emotionally it kind of brought me satisfaction in someway because I felt like someone would eventually care but it never happened so I […]

5/21/2013 0 comment

An Allegory

by orangish 5/21/2013

written by orangish

Let’s say that you’re going to have a party. You’ve planned it out, know exactly how it’ll go. You’re excited; this is going to be the most perfect party that there ever was.

Then, the guests arrive. As soon as they arrive, they begin criticizing and demeaning their surroundings; the same surroundings you took so much time preparing and setting up for your perfect party. They don’t like the booze, the food you’ve provided, they disparage the music because half of the guests hate the genre you’re playing, and the other half just don’t care. Some of your guests think your sense of style is severely […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

Still trying

by DawgMom 5/21/2013

written by DawgMom

Okay. So I finally found another therapist. And, she has way better creditials than the last one. Way fucking better. Plus, she has a way cooler office and she’s way better looking – hehe and 😛 and 😉

So anyway, I’m going to try and hang on. Try and give therapy another chance. I’m sure I’ll keep coming here as I go because the crap I’ll be sorting through will bring me back. SP is a safe place for me – I know some feel otherwise but – it gives me a place to write about the darkest places and thoughts without being judged. Without some […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

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