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Back on Effexor again. It was helping. Then the one person you love most and who you thought loved you yells at you and calls you a failure.
Not everybody can see the pure sense of life… and death.
So, fuck this shit man. Fuck it all. I’m tired of feeling so down for no reason. Today may be the day I depart from planet Earth.
I think I put way too much trust in people although it’s nice having someone care I feel like I’ll never be able to be completely to be open I guess not even to myself which is what I wanted to be the person I want to an get over this slump. I think I need something to preoccupy me from this bad week but I’ve lost interest in things and its hard to get back into them especially this week because I feel tired and irritable, and I don’t feel like trying anything but I guess I’ve got with something small I just don’t […]
Know what’s worse than any diagnosis, loss, or environmental or economic situation?
==> Understanding.
I’m good with words. Ironic that when it comes to explaining to someone that the once functional, upbeat, charismatic person they once knew is now someone who cannot even string together “I’m suicidal”. Life is showing me the door….yet I remain standing in the doorway, like a guest that’s overstayed they’re welcome….not leaving. talk about crazy.
Apparently, my curse is understanding. There is no blame here. No rant. No anger. Just understanding. I understand I do not belong. I understand I don’t belong anywhere or to anyone. I never have. There […]
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
fuck.
If you come here wondering why we do it, here’s some answers:
We tried to stay.
We reached out for help and were told we couldn’t be helped. We were told our insurance wasn’t accepted or we couldn’t afford treatment. We were treated less valuable than others who could hold a job and / or were able / willing to go into debt.
We tried to tell someone. Here. In emails, letters, text messages, phone calls. Sometimes it was just a few words but it was the best we could do. It was hard to know just what to say.
We tried to show someone. We cut. We starved. […]
I just want to take a big UGH crap on everyone before I start!
It’s finals week and it makes me think… What the fuck am I doing? Everyone around me my age seems to have a grip on reality but I’m floating in a different dimension or something. I don’t even exist.
Lately I’ve been thinking about how I look to everyone that sees me. Am I as socially awkward as I feel like I am? Is what I see in the mirror the same thing others see when they look at me? Do I hide my suicidal side well from my family? Do […]
Hey everyone,
I have been suicidal for a long time. Been hospitalized three times before. I’m just falling again and I don’t feel like I can make it anywhere. It’s too difficult for me to go on because my past haunts me constantly.
I’m planning on doing it during the summer and losing contact with classmates before hand so my death won’t effect them. Anyways, I’m just wondering what people think happens afterwards… I’m just wondering but I know no one can really know for sure until that time
coming across this website just a few hours ago i realized that theres people who suffer more or just as much as i do..different ages different sex it doesnt matter, they all have problems..some which are hard to face alone and sometimes seem impossible to overcome. pretty much all my life ive felt alone, thinking to myself “whats wrong with u? cant u just act normal for once??” but i guess i wasnt the only one all along…even tho i honestly would do anything possible to heal or help everyone in this site with their problems, i cant. but it helps me that i […]
I look up at the sky and I think, ‘I want to go home. Please, God, let me die today.’ I remember being about 8 years old and lying in bed at night and crying, pleading for the same thing.
I’ve never wanted to be here. I really want to go home now, more than ever.
The question remains: Can I?
when the girl you love loves someone else. and you wish for death to end your pain
Thnx to all the people who care.. it might be like 5 at the most but thnx you I am feeling a little better seeing and knowing people vcare. you r my savior..
I cant belive that people hate others so much they beat them up and at that bank them and the people feel so weak they want to die….. I have a feeling that well.. ill post the rest tomorrow..
I am 35. I am in a loveless marriage going nowhere with two beautiful children. I have thought of suicide vert deeply for a very long time. My first attempt was at 8 years old. My parents abandoned me bla bla needles to say i have my issues. I have no family, no one to help as the government seems to think its ok to have an autistic child wait five months longer than scheduled for back pay. My home is in dire need of repair and i just want my son to have a safe, fun, loving enviornment
I am so tired. It comes to the point where I need to go away forever just to be a peace.
I am young and have such an amazing future ahead of me and I would give anything to be strong enough to go after that. To achieve my potential and to be the best I can be. But I have no patience. I have everything that should make me happy. I have a boy who loves me, the best friends on the face of the earth and a well-off family… I have a relationship with God, no matter how pathetic it may be, I’m […]
i feel like shit
i feel like not living
i feel like all i do is hurt
all cause of me not thinking and deleting a stupid picture
all this hurt
pain
for me and you
ugh
i fucking hate myself
you need better than me
i probably wont last much longer
I feel extremely depressed and I feel so critical of myself that I can’t write properly without my inner critic telling me how stupid my problems are and that I need to let it go. I guess that’s why I don’t really trust anyone or don’t have friends I mean sure we all have friends people we hang out with from time to time but I don’t really have anyone I can trust(to the people on here that have helped me thank you) that I feel won’t judge me. I’m not very social most of the time I just go to school and don’t really […]
Man I started to talk to you and you were slipping the key to my heart out of my pocket. Then we knew each other like what we looked like and then you tell me… you already had a bf and you had broke the heart i didn’t have. thnx a lot if you read this, you know who im talking about certain person. i have been let down again plz someone help…. plz.