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right now

by kristink
written by kristink

right now the urge to ace myself is strong. i don’t really know why. these urges come and go. for the most part i just ride them out. not now i say. time isn’t right. like there is a “right” time to die. there are things that need to be taken care of. loose ends tied up. careful consideration is called for. i have selected a few days next month. chances are those days will mean nothing. i am stubborn till the end. MY time schedule. not depression’s. so i am supposed to try being sober for x amount of days. to try to get […]

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There, but not really.

by theguyman11
written by theguyman11

It can always be worse, I mean I could not have legs or something. But the idea of outward problems that can easily be identified seems so much Better than what I suffer with. It’s those little inward things, that eat you out slowly, dying on the inside, dominated by things that shouldn’t own me. I’ve attempted suicide, I’ve drank too much took too many pills. I’ve hurt myself just to feel something, and speaking from experience it doesn’t work. Whatever’s on the other side has to be better than what’s going on for me over here. I can honestly say that I don’t have […]

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weirdness

by butterfly_free
written by butterfly_free

If I kill myself I want to be feeling better, I want it to be a pretty day, I want to be in the woods, up in the mountains, I want it to be like that, and I want to be feeling something, like I don’t want to kill myself when I am feeling completely nothing and flat.

crying feels good, its the terrible nothingness that scares the shit out of me

i want to die in a place that is special and think/feel the things that were special to me

and then i think i could die

(the other night i was suddenly not afraid to die and I felt immediately better, […]

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bad but good enough.

by loveisdifficult
written by loveisdifficult

You think its you, you’re only harming,
Because its nice, soothing and calming.
When really each time you shed a tear,
Someone’s biting their nails in fear.
Fear of if you’re going to make it through the night,
Or fear that you’ve given up the will to fight.
And its not because you think you’re weak,
It’s because you’ve lost your words to speak.
Help is out of the question if you can’t find the right things to say,
But you’ll remain acting happy and living life day by day.

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On the edge..

by Ixhatexmyxname
written by Ixhatexmyxname

I honestly don’t know how much more of this I can take.
Nobody wants me around anymore, or maybe they never wanted me around in the first place…
I fuck everything up.
Life is so painful.
Everyday is just so stressful and it’s just not worth it anymore.
I want to die so bad, but I fear that I will be missing out on something good that might happen later in life.
No one loves me.
They all just pretend to care and I’m really sick of it.
I wanted to grow up and help others with mental illnesses and those who are suicidal get […]

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Here we go again

by TisxIxKasa
written by TisxIxKasa

He broke up with me a month ago, and I was barely getting over it.
I’m just appalled. How could he have regained his feelings for me in under a month?

He wants me back. But I’m scared. I’m afraid of all the possibilities, both good and bad.
He treated me terribly after the first couple months.

And I don’t really want to go back to experiencing that sensation.

I never liked that feeling. And he reminded me about how it felt. To feel like I wasn’t good enough. Like I don’t make a difference whether I’m in someone’s life or not.
I haven’t become like this just […]

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tired

by whydoesitmatter
written by whydoesitmatter

i don’t want to be on this planet. I don’t want to be alive. to live. to breath. I’m so tired of feeling powerless and having no one be there for me. the people that were supposed to teach and guide me never did. they just gave me more reasons to feel fractured then what we all have set up for us already. her voice sends shivers through me. it makes me so angry to hear her talk so lightly when there is much to be done. she just doesn’t care at all. i know you cant change people. i’m just on an endless loop. that’s all my life will ever be. same things over and over and over […]

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Feedback wanted on note

by Twitch
written by Twitch

Greetings all.  Getting ready to do the deed and was hoping for some feedback on my, admittedly, unconventional final remarks.  I wanted to try and keep things are lighthearted as possible given the subject matter and place the blame where it belongs–myself.  Iwould appreciate any thoughts.  It does need to be right the first time after all.

 

To whom it may concern;

 

I doubt that many people will read this and fewer still are likely to care.  That said I felt I should say something before the big recycle so here it is.  I’m done.  I can’t do this anymore.  I have decided to go the gun […]

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Day of Silence…

by Bloodi
written by Bloodi

I want to tell everyone what happened to me.. But how can I when I’m still afraid of myself?? Who could I trust to not laugh?? Who would cry with me?? Who would get me through the bad times? Some person I don’t really know? Can I tell the school I was  bullied… That I need their support on Day of Silence?? That I need them to understand when no one else will??

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Fuck this shit

by mes1234
written by mes1234

I’m scared of life. I think about the countless number of days ahead of me and I feel trapped. Trapped living. Trapped in my mind. I feel insane. I’m dying to get out. Dying to be free. I wish it it was all over. I wish I had the choice to end it all. Why don’t I have the choice? It’s my life. I’m the one who has to live it. I don’t want to live just because everyone else thinks that I’m sick. YEAH I am sick. But I’ve been sick and it’s not getting better. Why the fuck can’t I just die. This […]

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click. gasp. bang.

by perspectivexx
written by perspectivexx

i or she

opened a box

from my or her daddy’s

closet

and pulled out a gun

she or i

coiled her hand or mine

over the cold metal

and tiptoed back to one of our rooms

i or she

wrapped the gun

in a pillow case

and a couple more

for good luck

she or i

put the gun to our heads

because i or she

did not like that i

was no longer me

i am not me

and she is […]

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It’s the pain I feel

by angelina
written by angelina

It’s the pain I feel of every minute of every day. The not knowing. I don’t want to feel the ache in my heart anymore it’s killing me. I cry all the time and I breakdown and there is no one to talk to. It’s like living in purgatory. I know killing myself is the cowardly thing to do but I just don’t know how to kill this pain I have. I just want the darkness to take me, take me where there is no more pain. I feel like I’m dying a slow death but I wish it would just hurry up and take […]

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remember..

by perspectivexx
written by perspectivexx

you left your life

like a giant “;”

you left me

your last words being

“just remember-

when someone breaks your

heart

it’s because they don’t want

you to break theirs

you’re beautiful and..”

that was how you left it

and the next day

you were dead

you left your life

like a giant “;”

i think that’s how you’d want it

-e.m.

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