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I hope he’s finally at peace. Â I hope there’s an afterlife where I can meet him in person.
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When you hate yourself
For being you
It’s hard to smile.
And just be true.
When you break a mirror,
By peering in,
You starve yourself,
And wish for thin.
When you tear your wrists,
And welcome pain,
It’s harder yet,
To just stay sane.
With every breath
You don’t want the next
With every step
You grow closer to death.
With every word
You wish for silence
With every tear,
Follows violence.
Cower dear behind the dark
Wishing still
For a fresh start
Peering down
Towards your wrist
What battle did you fight for this?
You fought the battle
The biggest yet
You fought […]
I haven’t in over a month, but I can’t stand to see this person hurt themselves. Maybe it won’t even help. Is it worth it?
i was feeling extremely sad about an hour ago. i sobbed out loud for a long time. my face was getting numb. i let the tears dry out on my face and my glasses form tear stains. i can’t move my face and i don’t really care. i dwell and dwell and think and think of what to do to get out of it. i remember overdosing on abilify and antidepressants in the past. 180 pills i took that time. my mistake was that somehow i ended in the emergency room. suddenly a huge rush comes over me, and i get excited and obsessive. i […]
I have never tried to commit suicide or even as much as tried to hurt myself. But I have a constant urge to hurt myself. Like if i stand on a railway platform a thought crosses my head what if i jump?A voice stops me which says no don’t do it . Its not a sane thing to do. But i don’t know how to stop the urge. Someone please tel me am i suicidal or is it just normal. I have been getting these thoughts since 5 years.
Today was a better day than yesterday.
No lie, just knowing that someone cared just a bit helped me this much.
But as soon as I lay & relaxed a bit my mind goes wild and brings back everything.
Sometimes i just wish i could be able to reboot myself and delete all this effed up files i have inside me.
I havent harm myself since ’09 and im hoping to stay the way, but is soo effing hard.
Sometimes i envy those who dont give a fck about  their problems/past/issues and live life as if nothing bothers them.
I want that but whatever im stuck with this effed up mind. […]
Legacy of an Adopted Child
Once there were two women who never knew each other..
One you do not remember, the other you call mother.
Two different lives, shaped to make Your one…
One became your guiding star, the other became your sun.
The first gave you life and the second taught you to live it.
The first gave you a need for love, and the second was there to give it.
One gave you a nationality, the other gave you a name.
One gave you a seed of talent, the other gave you an aim.
One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears.
I would like a tongue or lip piecing  I think it may help becuase it’s something I want and it’something that could help me stop to kill my self
I don’t know what to do. I know I need help  but I don’t know where to turn. I feel hopeless and helpless. I’m so lost. I’m losing myself. I need help.
(WARNING A LOT OF SWEARING HERE)
hey I’m 12 my name is Scott
i remember the days when everything was perfect and everything was so fucking great but it only get fucking worse I am constantly thinking about suicide print the fucking things a 12 yr old boy should be thinking about I feel like if one thing is corrected then another thing happens I’m not perfect I’m called names I fLeo like I’m fat (I wstone just over 8 stone) so I’m staving my self I cut my self but I havent got anything sharp enough for what I wanna do to my wrists and my […]
Red—Breathe-Into-Me – [MP3JUICES.COM]Â … After my parents divorced everything came crashing down. I never really realized it until it started attacking me. Im at the age of 15 and im on a train ride to suicide . I’ve thought about the idea of killing myself, its the only sure way I know I can get peace. My mom is just dumb, and Im just I can’t do it. She claims she owns the pentagon and Micheal Jordon , and Nikey and FBI CIA. All that, this one time she called the cops about a pressure in her head! I currently stay with my sister who […]
Hey. I’m Andrew, or Andy, whatever. I’m 15. I’m a pansexual FTM transgender. I cut, smoke, and drink. I’m fucked up in the head. I wish I was dead. I’ve been collecting pills to do it for about 2 weeks now, and I’m planning to use them very soon. Well, just wanted to introduce myself. I dont really know how this site works, so if anyone wanst to show me the ropes it would be greatly appreciated.
Just a poem I’ve written a few days ago. I’ve written it because I can’t trust anyone and nobody understands it because it’s almost normal for those people, so I had to write it down in a poem to express my feelings.
~ Trust is something that everyone needs,
but how can you trust people when they’ve harmed the trust you’ve had in people so many times?
How can you trust people when you even can’t trust yourself?
How can you trust people when you are constantly afraid they will leave you?
How can you have trust in people when you realize it’s unpossible to […]
I set my goals…01.06.1992-14.04.2013….God i have thought about this for a very long time and i have considered all pros and cons and i’m done! i wont see monday as live person.. I wont leave behind broken hearts and shattered hopes..I have found way out..I’m done thinking my 24h before taking suicide and i have decided..To end my life early.. And i will be successful this time around.. i’m done crying and praying!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ylnx0NA9X4&list=FLWMs7irsk3QtvknGKYjRjjg&feature=mh_lolz
I tried to kill myself… For the second time… I just returned from a long term treatment center 4 days ago… I wish I hadn’t done it… I wish I hadn’t cut so deeply.. I have SO many scars.. How will I hide them? Why am I ashamed of them? Why do I still want to cut, even though I’m soooo much better?? I already carved cutter into my leg….
But trying isnt good enough. I cannot take the bullying anymore. I’m not bullied much, but it hurts a lot regardless. She makes gagging sounds when I walk into the room. She doesnt even know me!
I’ve tried twice this morning. Suffocation by garbage bag, and asphyxiation by belt. Neither worked. It hurt, it made my lungs hurt and my head ache. I dont know how else to try.
Hello!
I really want to discuss the Pros and Cons of using anti depressants. I have come to the stage in my life where I have had major depression for at least 6 years.
At the moment, it’s all catching up to me. I don’t want to feel anything, I want to be numb. Â Please reply to this if you have ANY advice at all. I really don’t know what to do, and if you want more information about me feel free to ask.
Thank you.
i miss you talk to me
i miss you let me help
i miss you help me be storng
i miss you i dont know if i can go on
i miss you dont do this to me
i miss you dont let me diy like this
i miss you dont pull the trigger cos then well both be dead
i miss you i just do
i miss you i whant to hold you
i miss you i just miss you
i miss you i dont whant to here the bad news
i miss you help
the deepis thorts of mine are just so well fuckt up cant some one be the sergun and cut the infectid part of my sole out i whant some one to shoot the guy in my head i whant to be free i whant to live not be like this imagen if some one stumbulld in to are world and saw the truth if thay feelt the pane we do woud thay be abel to take it are we stronger cos of the pane we feel i whant to think that imagen if some one did thow wecom to the iland of broken toys all […]