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I’m falling apart. I dont want to be here anymore. I dread waking up again everyday.
well now there is more drama in my pathetic loser life. we have to come up with a rather large chunk of change by next monday-tax day! and it is basically my fault. silly me i didn’t think the feds could possibly want more from my paltry income. boy was i wrong!! i will never hear the end of that. and then my husband’s drinking buddy wants to do an “intervention” with him this weekend about his drinking. won’t that just be a barrel of laughs? it means nothing when the nagging wife complains . maybe it will mean something when a friend says something. […]
I feel like I have nobody in the whole world, and it makes me so angry. I just want to off myself right here and now.
That’d suck if you killed yourself to end your suffering but ended up reincarnating into one of the death camps in North Korea or something. Â I think once you die though that’s it though.
It’s one thing to think about suicide, to plan it out, to rehearse it… But actually going through with it? That takes an enormous amount of strength.
I haven’t gotten there yet (but not for lack of trying).
I have been seriously depressed for 10 years now. Â I have been planning to kill myself for about 2 years. Â Just when I think that I am getting on top of it all — taking my medication, seeing my psychiatrist, managing my life IT ALL STARTS AGAIN.
I am in a high stress job. Â Before I got depressed I was a high flyer. Â Heaps of work etc, Â Since getting depressed it has all gone away, lost to me, I am worthless, I am a failure etc You have heard it all before.
Now I am starting to have panic attacks. Â I do not want to do […]
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Yes it’s upside down
You can’t see them well but there closer to the camera
Hey guys my names Scott and I’m 12
heres my story
It started  half way through year 5  I just moved schools and I didn’t fit it I was different
im now in year 8 and I have bottled it all […]
All day long its the same thing. The same boring classes, the same horrible people, the same note plastered on my locker. “DORK”. The same 2-3 hours sitting all alone at home, the same rest of the day being yelled at and being told to shut up when I try to start a pleasant conversation. The same insomnia, trying desperately to fall asleep but my brain wont shut the fuck up, the same exhaustion I feel when I finally shut off my alarm the next morning. Im so tired of this, Im exhausted and bored. I think Im finally done.
I thought my depression was gone; then reality bitched slapped me in the face.
Had a real shitty day today, found out my SAT scores weren’t high enough, made a fool out of myself in my language class, and got into a fight with my mom.
I feel like a failure, like all that I worked for is falling down the drain. I feel helpless.
I wanted to throw myself from the car on the expressway today, but was too much of a coward to do it.
I feel lost. I just want it to end. If life is just gunna do this my whole life, I […]
wish all this pain could end
Hello. This is my first post here. IÂ don’t really know why I’m writing this. I guess I just want to spill it out. May be it will help me to cope with my feelings.
I feel so angry at myself for complaining about my life. I mean look at the world around us. People are dying from hunger, from war, from diseases, from cancer….and here I am. Safe and sound…well…for now…
I’m almost 18. Feel like 12 years old to be honest. How did I even get that old. So fast.
I dont have anything to hold on to. Relationship with my family is…how can i put it…not the one […]
stop all of the dreams,
and start all the nightmares,
Listen, to them scream.
but nothing is there,
your all I’ve got,
your my only hope.
but now even you
seem to be cutting the rope.
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it’s a fucking mess
and there’s no escape.
my wrists are red.
someone save me.
drowning in this sea,
this sea of blood.
death stole innocence,
with the bang of a gun!
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with every breath you take,
you want to stop it all.
the blade is your friend,
it helps you when you fall.
love is a joke,
your only love is rope,
it made you a […]
Life is full of misconceptions and expectations that are all the same or similar in every functional community, we are taught the structure and repetition, the same values and the same ethics… what we are not taught is how short life is, what life real values are, instead we are masked with these green slips of paper that are more label more valuable then life, or even for life. Instead we are blinded from true the happiness, with a key to unlock are true identity.
happiness is a deceptions that we constantly misjudge for cure when really its a short term defect…
I’m so stupid, I’ve tried to kill myself 5 times and I’ve failed each time.
I fail at everything. I can’t even die.
I have always been a lost child in the wonders of how this world work, felt different, alone, unwanted. My perception of life was so different from others to the point I was unsure what the definition of life was… to me life was what we based it on what we create of it, not repetition and constant drills to form us into all similar beings. I never understood peoples fascination with money when I was younger, it was paper… why did people fight over it. As I grew I started becoming more frustrated with the world in lack of understanding the point of it […]
It all started on March 23, my girlfriend of 3 2/3 months broke up with me. This sent me spiraling into depression, as if to make me hurt she started dating a friend of mine two days later. My friends tried to help me but couldn’t, my mother noticed it and said nothing. A couple weeks later on April 3 my best friends broke up with each other, this sent both of them spiraling into minor depression except the boy, John, saw his ex hanging all over another guy. I confronted her and got screamed at. Accusing me of being a backstabbing a****** she declared […]
Sometimes I wake up, lay in bed and just think I want to die then spend the next couple of hours thinking about how to do so. Sometimes I wake up and feel a little hope. And sometimes I wake up and I can’t help but think of last nights nightmare. My dreams are so uncomfortable and horribly vivid. They’re so vivid that I think about my dreams through out the whole day because they’re so uncomfortably real that I feel like it happened… Anyways throughout the whole day I’m just an emotional roller coaster I’m fine, I’m sad, I’m crazy, I’m hopeful (this is […]
Kenny and I had/have a love like none other. We lived to love, laugh and make each other happy, and we exceeded that everyday for over 9 years. On 2/4/12 Kenny proposed to me and I thought that was the happiest day of my life, but everyday after that only got better. Kenny was the spice of life. Everything that Kenny did was amazing because he had that enthusiasm that made everything amazing. Then it all ended…
3/5/13 started out like any day. Kenny sent me a text to say he was up and I responded in my normal way “Good morning baby – I love […]