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i live a stupid life. i live a life that just wastes other peoples time and i hate it. i want to die. i want to die.
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Hi – I’m a 22 year old girl, and I have had the luck to find someone who is the perfect match for me. If something like a “soulmate” exists, then I found mine, the love of my life. However, over 4 months ago I lost him to amnesia….he’s a soldier and he experienced a very bad psychic trauma, since that he forgot nearly everything about his past and his life. Of course, I was gone too. Over the months some of his memories came back, but nothing about me…I only saw him twice in this condition, and the last time was over 2 months […]
Really, I want to get out of this shitty world! If this is what life is supposed to be, than I don’t want to live anymore! Wish I had a gun…
I swallowed pills last night but i whimped out and made myself throw them up. Why? Idontknow. I’m just an diot and i should already be gone. theres no point of me being here. i just need to leave. sorry
Life is full of unending struggles, pain and injustice.
Then your body slowly breaks down on you and you die a slow, agonizing death.
Great. Â Just great.
I don’t even know why I’m writing this, I guess because I have nothing else to do. I’m almost 22, graduating from a community college this semester, jobless, and still living with my parents. I just feel fucking pointless though.
I say graduating, but I know that’s only if I can actually make it through these 2 classes I’m taking. I can’t study, I never want to, all I want to do is just waste my life away on video games, so I don’t have to think about my current life. I’m still living at my parents house, and not to brag but they are decently […]
I don’t know what’s going on in my life. I feel so emotionally dead. Occassionally I feel small flickers of happiness, but it feels weird and stale…it doesn’t seem real. The only feelings I experience are sadness, disappointment, and anger. But most of the time I’m just existing, dull and monotonous. And what’s messed up is that I know that there’s really nothing going on that should make me feel this way. My parents are still together, I make good grades, I have plenty of friends, I have plenty of talents. It just feels like nothing matters. It’s all going to go away anyways. I’m […]
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this website is awful I feel worse for logging on I hope
it fails this is terrible
All my life I’ve been bullied. My parents don’t give a shit about me. I’ve been told, and now thoroughly believe, that if i killed myself, no one would give a single fuck. Now, I’m not going to run out in the middle of the street and jump in front of a car going 80, but say I were, for some reason, laying in the street, and a car were coming, I wouldn’t move. Growing up, I was afraid to go to school. I would play hookie because I didn’t want to be spit at by the popular kids. I was beaten and made fun […]
I am a 13 year old girl, i don’t really want to die but i am really not happy.
I don’t want to die is because i feel i have still to much to in life and don’t have enough time.
I am in the 2 year of highschool and i do a really hard school and i a about 4 hours busy with homework every day, my parents think it is to hard for me but i REALLY don’t want to go to another school because i always feel like a have to work as hard as posible because if i didn’t i will […]
My boyfriend of 1 year broke up with me saying that he no longer loved me. It sounds so pathetic that I’m this upset about it, but when we were together I felt lonely, and I feel even lonelier now I’m not with him. Yesterday I attempted to jump off the top of a car park but he stopped me. My parents are impossible to talk too, and I’m scared of my friends running away from my problems because they are too much. Tomorrow I intend to kill myself because I have no hope anymore. I dont even know if people on here will care. […]
I always say ” Sucicide is not the answer” But now im thinking differently, i need help, but everyone just laughs at me, i wanna runaway, fly away and smile for once, not be sat in a ddarkk room crying.
I wan to run away, and wake up in another day, live in silence for a day, no stress, no tears, freedom.
I reaallyyyyyyyyyy like this guy, we used to talk everyday but whenever he has a girlfrind he starts ignoreing me, he calls me bby and puts my hopes up and makes me feel wanted, i feel like i want to die whe he doesnt talk to me.
Hello and I am here to share my suicide story! Thinking about suicide is a big part of my life and it is hard that I am not allowed to talk about it. I am a man and I am turning 30 next month.
I remember I was first thinking about suicide when I was 9. I was not thinking about it as something I would like to do. I was just thinking about it with curiosity.
By the time I was 15 I was feeling suicidal. I remember I was living in a suicidal fantasy most of the time. I couldn’t stop imagining horrible ways that […]
I will admit, the one advantage to having no one give a damn about you is that you can do as you please. Do what you wish since no one will care anyway. Freedom in disguise?
if your with someone and you find out they were talking to a crap ton of others girl for a while, when do you draw the line? he hasn’t talked to any of them in about three weeks but I’m constantly afraid he is going to start up again and then decide he likes one of those girls better. he has done it before, broke up with me for someone he just met an hour before breaking up with me. and I just found out he was watching one of the girls via web cam when she was horny. why does he do these things […]
Yeah. It’s raining. Storming, actually, but whatever. Same thing. I broke up with Owen. I wanted to give him a chance, but he really was too old for me. Anyway, so I’m a “single pringle” as Dawson says it. Lol. Well, I just found out that Tennyson has a girlfriend. And he’s friends with Brycen again. So, even though I’m not exactly happy, I’m glad that he’s happy. Tomorrow, after school, I have to go to the band room. Kids that want to be in band are trying out instruments, and I told Mr. Kempf  (my band director) that I would help. My little sister […]
Tomorrow’s my first day at the new college. I don’t know if I should be happy about that or should I grieve, I’m at a loss. Â It seems like the best option for me is not to care, like at all. I’m trying to, very hard. I’ll meet my new group mates, and they will meet me. For them I will be nothing but a new girl, or the 13th girl. They know nothing about me. And I have decided not to tell them anything about who I am, nothing about my disturbing past. Only the obvious details they won’t fail to notice. The facts […]
They say I saved a life yesterday. For about 6 hours I felt meaningful, like my disgusting existence on this world was justified. Then the feeling crashed hard. i happened to drop a glass and it shattered  on the kitchen floor. And just like that I woke up, like I’ve done every day of my life, realizing that the few pitiful hours of artificial rest from the horror of life were just that: a few pitiful hours of artificial rest.
well maybe my “heroic deed” yesterday was my grand contribution to the world. Or maybe it and the life I saved are just as meaningless as […]