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Posting is… Well… Is something that makes me feel better… Until I find out how many problems I don’t really have  because ‘other people have it worse’. My mom tells me that practically everyday.. ‘I’m selfish and need to stop being a downer’ ‘I need to stop being a loner’ I need to do this.. I need to stop that… I can’t help if I want to be alone. I can’t help it I want to die. I can’t help it I’ve lost all but 1 of the people I care about the most. I can’t help it I’m depressed. I can’t help it I […]
sometimes I think I think too much. I get paranoid and fearful. I can see all of the worst case scenarios clearly but not nearly enough of the good. I notice it but it doesn’t seem solid to me. I’ve been programmed to think that only bad things can happen to me and those around me. I notice the good that comes usually is a result of a concentrated effort, a conspiracy towards success on behalf of a person who is cared for and loved. Perhaps it isn’t that. Perhaps this is my overthinking things again. But I notice all of these details, the differences, […]
Im 17 years old,I’m losing hope in my life. i don’t think i can hold it much longer from past 7 weeks i have been getting the idea of suicide. i screwed everything, my friends, family, relationship, my college stuff literally everything. Im indian scottish.i live in US in an international school. everyone in here dont wanna be friends with me. As i look tan colour and most of the guys in here are rich and dont like to talk to me. most of them stay away from me. even though i helped them in their times of need. they just soak me dry and leave in middle of nowhere. fortunately i […]
Today is one of those days where I just feel like I have nowhere to go. Once upon a time I got up at 6 in the morning or earlier, but now I wake up at 7:30, 8:00, or later. I’ve started coming to school late, IÂ am not handing in assignments on time, I take no pride in my work, and feel like the only escape is dying. I am speaking as a younger teenager somewhere in or around wherever, and even now, I still think that I am highly intelligent. Keep in mind, though, that I always have this feeling of hopelessness, the feeling […]
All world’s a stage and it is very much true. We are all actors, born with scripts in our minds and hearts.
Many act as if they are the leaning shoulder, the helping hand. Not everyone is a lie though, no I wont go that far go that far for I am a lie.
I am the walking lie. What you see on the outside is not true, it’s what’s inside that is true. To walk among society as a lie pains me, tortures me. I give anything to be free. Free from this torment.
People say be strong. They say that just to show […]
the only person that i thought would care if i died told my bestfriend that he wouldnt. thanks bro, do you think we can die from overdosing on painkillers?
I think what should disturb me most is that the thought of killing myself has ceased to disturb me.
It doesn’t.
It’s gone through my head so many times, with minimal variation. Go to the top of my apartment building and sit on the edge for a while, taking in the world.
And then push off.
Contemplating that scenario, perversely, calms me.
I mean, my life is shit and my existence is meaningless. But logically there is no reason for me to want to kill myself. Yet I cannot stop thinking about it and doubt I ever will.
So we’re back to this now huh?
Blaming not only me this time, but your other two as well? As if WE were the reason you went out and cheated. WE are the reason she can’t trust you now. WE are the reason you are a pissed off fat ass alcoholic who’s never around. WE are the cause of YOUR financial errors.
So let me get this straight…you’re blaming a 23 year old, a 13 year old, and I’m baffled at this one: a 4 year old? A FUCKING 4 YEAR OLD??!?!?!
…I don’t even…
What the fuck. Seriously. What the fuck are you thinking? Are you seriously so […]
If in the end it all falls apart
What’s the point of a story’s start
Nothing but grey sky’s and teary eyes wait for us
When our skin turns cold to the touch
If there’s no god above us then what awaits us
But the end of consciousness
Peace at last, laid to rest
A long and tired soul drifts off to sleep for eternity
If all we are remembered by is the day on which we die
A number on a stone past the cemetery gates
Then I ask what’s the point in life anyway?
To writhe, to hate, to wonder…
If every day passed by without a sign
Something to believe in, even if its just […]
I’m feeling very lonely. I have been feeling lonely for too long.  It is about 1:30 am. I can easily end my pain tonight and have no one walk in and try to stop me.Â
Then again, if I do end up killing myself, who will find me? I am fifteen years old, so I still live with my parents. Will death be worth it knowing that the sight of my body hanging from the water pipes in our basement will scar my parents? What will death be like? I really do not want to go on feeling completely worthless and useless towards everyone, but I know […]
I have only visited this site once or twice in the last two months. I have read, today, several of the blogs, and it amazes me how we all view this project so differently.
I have not seen any blogs where people write of their situation, which is at all similar to mine.
First, I have very little anxiety about the exit plan. I finally observed that:
—- If you have luck, and if you have health, you will survice, without either you will die. Without love you will simply wither —
For me, I am 71 and have led […]
Honestly, I think the song skyscraper just saved my life tonight.
But, I din’t want to be saved.
I wanted to die….
Maybe tomorrow
Is it possible to plug one’s self  up, in order to explode automatically?
Please think about this!
No I’m done with life.
No your not I won’t let you die.
It’s not your desicion it’s mine.
please don’t try. please don’t die. It’s not your time.
It’s been time for quite a while, I promise I’ll leave with a smile.
J, your in denial
how am I in denial this world were in is vile.No reason to stay and nothing you say will make me okay. I’m lost I’m hurt I’m broken and torn I’ve taken too many years of bullshit and scorn I’m leaving and bleeding and not giving a fuck so just let me die just wish me good luck!
No, no, […]
I am sitting up late at night, listening to the rain, and considering suicide.
by sono_libero
written by sono_libero
How do normal people handle overwhelming amounts of stress?
if i leave him will anyone hold me? will i feel love? will i break? will he cheat on me? does he still love me? if i die would there be never ending black and would anyone care? more importantly would he feel guilty? would he feel guilty that he raped me and called me those things or would he be angry and think it was the result of my dad, or any other abuse? why am i still here, why am i with him? if i die heaven will take me anyway despite my sins, maybe hell will consume me and torture […]
Y should I live anymore no one loves me all I do is get hurt no matter what happens all I do is fuck up every good thing I get I hate life I finally get to be happy and I lose it
So at school, it’s as bad as usual. The guys keep looking at me like I’m emo/goth. The girls are as judgemental and narrow-minded as usual. I don’t mind them. but oh my friggin gawd the grades. I’m far from being stupid, at least until it comes to math. The teachers only make it worse. I am only twelve but I am really stressed out. I was sick for like 3 days in school, and I have a project due on Mon. and I haven’t come close to finishing it. It must sound pretty pathetic that out of all things I’m complaning about my grades, […]