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Thinking about cutting again guys… -__-
One who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. Maybe we all have something to look forward too if we ever find our way out of the darkness.
Spend all day In a trap house doinq the obvious.Couple of my friends,two hoes and me.
Do you know what It feels like to be surrounded but Isolated???Like If everyone around you Is there but your casper the qhost.I left without lettinq anyone know and no call,no txt sayinq hey why’d you leave?Nothinq.Theres so many fraud ass people In Houston It’s crazy.I wanna cut sssssoooooo BAD!!!!! but I threw away my razor two months aqo and any new razor Is just qonna leave a scar that Isen’t qonna qo away!
I just wanna drop everythinq and start a new life.
I’m alone. Sad, tired of trying, of living. Tired of waking  up to a bright happy world, and seeing nothing except grey, and things only I can see, hearing sounds of joy, but only hearing the voices of my despair. Franks gone now. Replaced, forgotten. Austins here. He’s just as bad. Eyes are staring, watching with a pointed loaded gun,  or a knife waiting for the right time. I am forgotten, none cares for the sake of me, waiting for the right time. 17. The magic number. 15, countdown. They say if I die, I’ll be back in my world, back in Hallaqu, with Austin, and Goob, Frank, and 200. My […]
it can sometimes be the best medicine to cure any mental, physical or emotional illness/problem…
but sometimes its the worst… Nightmares…
But! Sleep really can be one of the best things to do
(Not upset or anything, just putting it out there)
Goodnight!
A company who I spent three hundred dollars on their self help programs emailed me an ad trying to get me to buy more. I have been doing their programs all year! I definitely feel like I wasted my money on greedy people! Because they wrote me trying to sell me more with an ad titled “They Did it to me!” And that takes the cake!
I beg to differ. What does a person do when they REALLY did it to me, and in great numbers, continue to do it to me, and no matter what positive attitude have, no matter what fantastic in-genius ideas I have, […]
i finally asked the question lurking in my heart for weeks since our break up.. since the moment he asked me out. I asked his best friend.. ” he only wants me for sex.. doesnt he?..”
cody: yes but dont tell him i told you this.. he likes six other girls and when you didnt put out he broke it off im so sorry.. just forget about him please.
Rape victim and now played by the guy i loved most. I’m only a sex object. Thats all people […]
i stopped cutting a month ago, but i accentdentally cut myself with a knife i bought, then i did it again, and again.. etc. i hate life, i get pissed when people smile, like, fuck you some of us have to wear a frown and your walking around fuckin happy and such, i hate everything but cigarettes and my record player…and then my abusive mother started in and told my therapist i didnt come over for x mas…..and now i have to take more fucking meds, i fucking hate her… my girlfreind broke up with me for some more handsome and muscular dude, so its […]
I’m going to war with my depression. I’m going to war with my ED. I’m going to war with myself and the words that hurt me. This year I’m gonna try to change my life and turn it around. Once I was tired of living and I wanted to stop. Now I’m really tired so I’m taking control. I’ve got a long road. Wish me luck…
So, um this is my first post on here. I’ve been lurking around the site for a few days wondering if i belong here… if i belong anywhere. My life? urgh, to be honest, there is no point in it anymore. Ive been writing diary entries on my laptop (password protected) for a while now, but its not helping as much as i thought it would, which disappointed me to be honest. This site looks good, its like an anonymous diary entry but you can get feed back, or support etc, and i think thats what i need. I guess for this to […]
I posted a situation about my girlfriend getting raped. Someone said I was bullshitting. I thought this was a safe place for letting things out. Guess not.
Hi, I’ve been lurking around this site for the last few days . I keep returning to this site at random and I just don’t know why. I feel this need to help people because I can relate to their distress, but I just can’t bring myself to it because I’m just so afraid of saying something wrong and ruining their hope xs
I’m afraid of becoming obsessed with this place xs Is it wrong for me to stay here? All I want is another shot at trying to solve my mess and helping others seems to be quite an important part of it.
I’m afraid […]
im trying to cope with everything goin on in my life right now. but its so hard.. i can see the steps replaying in my head of how i can make things better but feel like my depression is holding me back. its so ohard when you have no one to talk to about it and the people you did have dont understand stand what it is to deal with depression on an everyday badsis. it consumes ur life. i hold it all in. the fact that my husband hates me. he was my only friend. and now he hates me. he wants to leave […]
”Open your eyes, it’s all only lies,
you’ve got people that love you and care for ya- hang on.”
What rubbish, don’t you see, you need some proof? –
take my life, it’s the clearest evidence.
I’ve been left behind, misunderstood,
never one of the kind, the quietness counted as rude.
So don’t give me that lecture,
I’ve got enough to write a book.
I need somebody to stay and not judge by the way it looks.
Cause it’s different, not the way it seems.
So long hidden, lost it’s identity.
Help me find it, always stick with the Lord,
if i lose Him, i’m […]
i knoe its hard to back away from temtation because you may not have someone there for you but im here . if anyone needs someone to talk to im here
Why don’t you let it all crash down?
This crumbling house of cards you’ve built around yourself
Let it all go to waste
Like the life you’ve thrown away
Well caring was never really your thing
And motivation just wouldn’t sink in
Oh baby don’t you know, how this is all going to end?
Falling to the ground , you’re more lost than you are found
A life full of regrets, with no reason to impress
This life, falling down
This life , crashing to the ground
You wake up each day, […]
Why can’t you see the futility
Why can’t you see, this is killing me
All this effort to stay alive
With so little time to make it right
The weight of all my woes
Makes it easier to slap this tag on my toe
So break it, shake it, un-make it all
I close my eyes and I start to fall
Silence my pain, and erase my heart
Rescind everything about me, right from the start
No memories, of this life I’ve misused
No regrets, from all the abuse
Now the blackness is closing in
The pain I feel today,
Will be tomorrow’s end
You can’t hurt me if i’m already hurt,
You can’t break me, if i’m already broken
You can Kick me all you want, but i won’t scream
You may think you won this battle. But turn around
An your gunna wish you never messed with me!
Now run ***** you just messed with a girl thats insane
Lets see if you can out run me, for i’m your worst enemy
You have fuck with me for the last time, i hope your ready for whats about to happen.
He wont love you long, he will forget you i should know.
But i will help him forget you 🙂
im 29 with 3 kids. I have never felt so depressed in my life. I have always suffered from depression and anxiety since i can remember. but right now it’s at its worst and i cant control it. my husband is leaving me because he says im too fat. my work isnt going how i would like it to. i find myself alone with no one to talk to because i dont tell anyone my business so no one knows whats going on. i just dont wanna live anymore. i want to go to sleep and never wake up. but i have 3 kids and […]
is to end my life im 50 years old so its time i die