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Tonight is the night I will say my farewells. Tonight all the pain will be taken away. I will be no more, that’s what y’all wanted. There isn’t anything holding me back. This is it. Everything ends tonight, the pain and misery will all be gone
I’m 53, a mother, grandmother and a wife. And I’ve totally andcompletely botched them all. I used to be strong. Strong enough to have endured my childhood that was full of physical, sexual and verbal abuse. I got married, and for a few years life seemed OK. Then his drinking got worse, and the verbal abuse started, then the emotional affairs he had with women on the internet, and then the physical affair he had with one of the women he met via the internet. I lived through all that, but health has been in a steady decline. […]
I just don’t even know anymore. I just want too feel happy not sad and stressed out all the time. I want my life too turn around so badly I just feel like it never will. I want a way out but I know that giving up is not the answer. I am a strong enough person too do get through this I just don’t know if I’ll last long enough too even see that happen. I can’t keep waiting for it too get better I am sick of thinking I can do this because I am having such a hard time waiting for it […]
so many feelings and thoughts whirring
around in my head i feel like im going to
explode! none of em’ make sense and i cant
figure them out it’s like they’re written in some
foreign code but at the same time i know what
the say “AH!” too much it’s all to much! so much noise whirring aroud i feel like my head
is being slowly sliced into peices and looked
at. i cant make sense i have so many secrets
so many lies but at the same time i cant tell
myself the secrets and i cannot find the
truths!!! AHHH so […]
I have a friend who fluants her scars. She treats them like a good thing. Thinks the make her more popular somehow. Here is some news for you, THOSE SCARS DONT MAKE YOU POPULAR. Great. You cut. So what. The rest of us are cutting for good reasons. So get your head out of tour ass because you have nothing to be sad about.
This weekend was weird. I don’t know why I got so depressed this weekend. I think I’m just treacly tired and need some rest. I may take a sick day tomorrow and just get out of school. I think it’s what I need.
im sorry to have cut myself again. Â don’t know what possesed me to do so… But IÂ think we all feel that way sometimes
anyways I am sorry I will NOT do it agaon
I hate you, I really do. Well, most of you. Ok, I don’t hate you, I just think most of you are not helping, not always. I came to this site and since the beginning I’ve been wondering why you comment a lot in some post and you ignore others (which sometimes are desperate screams for help, and no, I’m not talking about me, I’m talking about a lot of people who come here with the hope of being helped and you just try to find something interesting to be amused for a while). Really, why do you like ignoring some of the post and commenting in […]
Four months. Four long months I went without cutting. All down the drain last night. There is about 42 cuts in a 1×2 inch patch on my leg. I guess there is no going back now. But I started a chain reaction in my friends. They started cutting again too. This is all my fault now all I want to do is cut more.
A friend of mine came across and posted this response from Gene Simmons’ website regarding his thoughts about God and religion and being that he studied theology as he grew up, I found this rather interesting…
Usually, my notions about God (if there is one, I might add) are private. I RESENT anyone telling me or anyone else publicly how much their God means to them and how much it is the only God. I find it vile and…primitive. It’s back to the inquisition (look it up on the internet).
But since you asked:
If there is a God, and I am open to the possibility […]
I wish I could decide who I am going to be, because living like this makes no sense. Everything I do I criticize, I hate. it’s not like judging who I am with all the good and bad sides, it’s just pure hate for everything I am. But I haven’t decided I am a lost cause just yet. I am willing to give myself another shot, just that if I mess this up it is going to be the end of me for I am not strong enough to endure another complete failure.
or i wasn’t. my mind plays tricks on me
It usually makes me feel better when I wake up. Well this map only has me more sepreased and more eager to cut drink or smok… Or all three
I love my mother. She means a lot to me.. She means the world to me. But she acts like an immature little slut sometimes and gets drunk forcing her daughter  who is only 16 to pick up all of her slack.
she keeps me alive but makes me cut more.
How am I suppose to hold on when I feel dead?
How am I suppose to hold on when I don’t want anyone near me, since I suck?
How am I suppose to hold on when I can’t stalk my friends and exes anymore, since they’ve had enough?
HOW? tell me how…
I’m sorry for irritating you and wining and being totally blegh.
I love you. I mean it. You’re a kind stranger. <3
I just got out of a relationship 3 to 4 months ago and 2 months after we broke up, my ex hadnt given me any of the answers I needed to move on, so I asked all kinds of questions and the truth came out. She never was in love with me, we shouldnt have happened, she knew for months before she broke up with me how she felt and it was a mistake. I was with this girl for almost a year. You have to understand something about me, I dont do “relationships”. I dont like people alot. Im not a player, but I […]
Happy, smiling, laughing, enjoying myself.
Yeah, one day I should become an actor.
I only be what people expect me to be.
I fake my happiness to get though the day without questions.
I’ve developed a people phobia, and now when people come running towards me, I start to shake but they don’t see that. Because I smile and say “Omg good to see you”.
I’ve got low self esteem but people tell me I’m beautiful, I say “thanks pretty, we’re all beautiful.” I hate the life I live. But people think I love it, because I say “life couldn’t get any better!” People […]
pleaseeeeeeee help me,,i’m thinking to make suicede,,,,,i’m 21 years old..no one by my side.i can’t take can any more pain…,i lost every thing in my lifeee,til now my destination,hope,,and every thing so please help me frndsssssssss…..
so I know I haven’t been on here in a while but I wanted to give you guys an update. I’ve been doing pretty good finally got me to a point where im stable. I can say I truly have changed and although I still do have those thoughts ive learned to control them instead of letting them control me. I guess I just take each day as it comes. Im still dealing with my anxiety a lot.but that’s something that I feel will never go away.now im just doing things that I enjoy doing like listing to music and reading and arts.and my favorite […]
I cannot believe I’m actually doing this. For so long I wanted to have somebody to talk to, without him or her having to answer or to talk back, just to listen, and I feel it’s finally happening. It’s not a solution, is just a step.
I’m lonely. I’m scared. I’m afraid that all I’ll ever be is just that, lonely, scared, loser, a nobody. No one understands me and nobody really wants to. I’m trying to keep all my friends away from my thoughts because I am afraid I would lose them, especially since I have only 3 friends. If, by any chance, I let […]
Too scared to be judged by my mom, dad, sisters. I’m scared that they will judge me for being the way I am and doing the things I do.
They won’t understand what it’s like to cut your skin open to relieve the pain that they don’t see. They won’t understand what it’s like to sit in your room at night and cry. They won’t understand what it’s like to hate yourself every waking moment of the day. The won’t. They never will. I have a feeling they’ll think it’s all in my head. That I’m faking it. But how I could I fake it if […]