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What I’m supposed to be

by lostchild445
written by lostchild445

A man

Such a simple concept
Burned into our minds from birth
What a man should be
smart, confident, resilient.
handsome, chivalrous, in control.
So many things that just aren’t me.
Men are smart, my grades say no
Men are confident, I’m shyer than anyone
Men are resilient, I break at the drop of a straw
Men are handsome, I am ugly
Men are chivalrous, I’m a douche
Men are in control, I’ve lost that long ago
What a man isn’t, that’s been told too
And again, the opposite is what I do
Men don’t cut. My arms beg to differ
Men don’t cry. My eyes must deceive me
Men don’t hurt or so they say
I try to hide it away
Push it […]

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I don’t see the point.

by Demmissio
written by Demmissio

I’m sick of the drugs and pills, the panic attacks, the hatred, the lies, the abuse, the blood, the scars, the hospitals. Most of all: I’m sick of life. Why even try when nothing has gotten better? Why should I even get up in the noting if the day always ends with pain? Why should I go on when nothing anybody says helps? Why do people lie to me and say they care when they just end up leaving? Why should I even bother when nobody cares?

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i quit whats the point anymore

by amberr3384
written by amberr3384

iam in a dark place and have been for a while. no one is here for me and i should have known that i have been alone my whole life my life is horrible i am 26 and went through 4 years of daily sexual abuse when i was young. when i told someone later in life my own mother excused what i went through by saying we were just kids and he didn’t know better. now he lives with my mother, its all supposed to be ok because he said he was sorry and said someone was doing it to him. my childhood other […]

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feeling lost…

by bendingsteel
written by bendingsteel

hi. well my name is zoe I’m 14 and I think I’m really depressed I’ve had emotional issues since I was in fifth grade but I haven’t ever told anyone about it. I’m a middle child in between two brothers. my dad neglects me and verbally abuses me while I think my mom is great. I hate my life so much and no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to find anything to do about it. I’m so scared that I’m going to end up killing myself cause that’s not what I want to happen. I cut myself on a regular basis and […]

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The Truth is…

by Naturally_UnNatural
written by Naturally_UnNatural

Nobody believes I’m depressed. My parents say depression isn’t real. My friends think I’m an attention whore. He thinks I’m not suicidal anymore. Truth is, depression is real and it hurts like hell, I don’t want attention they give it to me because they saw my cuts, and he just doesn’t want to believe that I’m still planning suicide. I think it’s funny that they can’t cope with my depression. I mean, it’s MY depression, not theirs… I just wish it would stop or that I could talk to somebody who I don’t have to look at face […]

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The cliff

by Jess
written by Jess

I’m starting to feel as if nobody understands, and even worse, I don’t think anybody cares to understand. No one knows. It’s like I’m falling off a cliff, scrambling to hold on. I’ve found a root, but that root can’t hold on forever. It’s almost done, it’s about to give way, and I crashed.

I go through life like a dream, it’s almost like clockwork. 10 AM, depressed, won’t talk to anybody, just trying to keep from bawling. 12 PM, happy-go-lucky, bouncing off the walls, so excited. 2 PM, depressed again. I constantly wonder, what’s the point? Why even bother?

I’m not enjoying myself, and I’ll admit, […]

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Should be dead

by jack86
written by jack86

I was supposed to kill myself almost 3 years ago on my 24th birthday. I wish I had.

I can’t bear the knowledge that my ex is moving on with her life and happy and doing well while I am so tortured over what transpired. Losing her love is horrible, but losing her as my best friend–that’s what just makes me wish I was dead. I’ve been optimistic about life, and doing OK sometimes and looking forward to the long vacation which I just got back from. But now I’m back and all alone and feel like I’m at square one. There are times when I’m […]

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i only just survived, but i was ment to die.

by alone and abandoned
written by alone and abandoned

hi everyone, for the past month ive been in hospital. you may of read the other posts but if you didnt then ill explain, when i tried to commit suicide my mum found me and i was only just concious, i told her to write on here and say sorry to all of you wonderful people. the things i did to try make this work was, poison, overdose and cutting my wrists and it would of worked if mym mother didnt come in my room. i left her and my family a letter explaining further details of this website and told her it was important. […]

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Please Help Me…

by zazzles8
written by zazzles8

I give up. On everything. Nothing is worth it anymore. Nobody loves me. My family hates me, especially my dad. Everyone loves my sister more than me. She’s skinny, smart, popular, and beautiful. Multiple crushes and my own father (he shouldn’t even be called that) like her better. My father calls me stupid, a whore, and a slut. The one boy I have loved since kindergarten told me repeatedly he hated me, that I’m a freak, that I’m ugly and fat and a lot of other stuff that’s completely true. I have practically no friends. They all left me in 6th grade. I was left utterly alone. […]

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So like,

by Willow
written by Willow

Maybe we should all just be having more sex and eating more chocolate. Really. (Unless you’re too young for the former in which case you should double up on the latter.) Sex releases endorphins, which are natural opiates, and chocolate contains several compounds that induce pleasure. Who needs Prozac?

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Melatonin vs Weed sleep

by Abselom
written by Abselom

Even though the melatonin sleeping pills i take sometimes are natual chemicals in your body.. being a little high makes me sleep better.. like alot better. deeper sleep. peaceful sleep. sweet dreams too..

Hopfully i am high enough to sleep and sleep well.. because its the only thing i know i can trust to help me..

(Yes i look to sleep for comfort..)

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Zach. </3

by Samantha
written by Samantha

While I am reminiscing on the memories that slowly but sweetly tortures my heart.

With all the thoughts running through my head.

Was there something that could be changed?

And somehow make all the pain that was created to go away

I don’t want you back

I want the happiness you brought to my heart

And knew someone cared

But I guess im not well enough or someone you would love to always be there

Now the days are surely getting harder

And im longing for your thoughts

The way you used to hold me

Did you think that I forgot?

I may not be what you want

But im someone that is begging on my knees

Somehow I […]

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Rap game continue

by The rapper
written by The rapper

I forgot to tell many shitty things on my last post, like… I was really depressed bcuz many friends left me, and i chose to give my gf a better life in exchange for hell for myself. so i decided to go to a party with people i knew and the other 600 or something. late that night, i was real happy, not drunk, just a little bit dizzy. and it was reeealy cold outside, hey its norway:P but on the way i heard yelling, and i was like, god no, why… so i turned around and saw two elder boys come at me and […]

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Not deep enough

by solitarywalker
written by solitarywalker

Five hundred.
Five hundred and one.
Five hundred and two.
Five hundred and fifty.
Five hundred and sixty.
Five hundred and seventy eight.

The numbers are there, but I can’t help bursting into tears everytime I realize I’m not cutting deep enough. That I can’t. I know it’s a user problem but I blame my razor. The blades not sharp enough. That’s why I’m cutting so lightly. That’s why I haven’t been able to cut over a centimeter deep. I’d numb my leg like a post suggested, but that freaks me out.

It’ll never be deep enough. I’ll never be good enough to press harder. […]

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immorality

by Tormenting Dreams
written by Tormenting Dreams

blood runs down my finger tips

its a riminder of all that i let slip

it pours out my body

like words written beneath……

they are hear just read it, this is me, you can beleive it

raw and exposed, alone and let go

i am strong, but they are stronger

i try to hide, but im held under,

by the oppression i seek, by the oppression i need

blood runs down my finger tips,

a reminder of all things i let slip

but i let go, for the story to un fold

im okay i really am, i fake it as best i can

but its not the same as all i want to do…

because…..im alive, im […]

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When I’m Alone…

by Alayna
written by Alayna

I feel my worst when I am alone. The think is is that I don’t want to be near people, I want to be alone. It’s bad for me to isolate myself , I learned that the hard way. I came so close to ending it this last week. I abused pills for the first time and it made the pain go away for awhile. I’ve had the week from hell but somehow I keep going, somehow I act like I am okay.

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