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Today my friends we actin weir and I found out at dance that one of them is/was going ti himself i feel like a ***** and I would call him “deppreston” I didn’t know he was actually depressed. I feel Luke a freshing asshole and has dumb as it is I’m jealous that he had the guts to tell someone about it. I dint wan him to die!!! Im so scared because he wrote s note dating that he’s gonna kill himself!!! Preston If you happen to see this, I’m so sorry I wasnt there for u I was in my own he’ll hole…. Ad […]

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Sometimes I can be rather silly.

Sometimes I actually think people can enjoy talking to me because they like me. I know its a silly thing to think. Because it’s not true. And there has never been any evidence to prove I am worthy of being treated like a normal human being.

I guess people can sense when youre willing to do everything for them. Because I am, basically. Give me some attention and Ill worship the ground you walk on.

Its rather pathetic.

I just wish someone would want to talk to me because they find me interesting, and not because they want to fuck me and/or hope I […]

Down this long and twining road
I walk with heavy feet
My head sunk down below
I have made up my mind
It’s time to end this life
Then peace I will find

Walking down to my funeral
The mortal sin…
Some might be sad
I’ll die with a grin
Walking down to my funeral
It’s time to die
When I leave this pathetic world
I will hold my head high

How do people pick themselves backup when they have reached their lowest point? I don’t have friends to boost my morale and my family, especially my father, treat my problems as if they are insignificant. I hate waking up each day doing the same routine while I look at my peers making something of their lives and building friendships and relationships. I want to have something worth waking up for, but I feel as if I’m stuck in the same process that will never end.

I have made a promise to myself to work on my speech, so I can at least control my stutter.

I have […]

Hi, My names Savannah. Lately i just been feeling down. Like a worthless piece of shit.  I can’t seem to do anything right. I’m literally talentless. I’m failing half of my classes and i’m just so stressed out, with sports and school and just life. But then again i just feel like a selfish *****. Like why do i constantly think about ending my life? There’s people out there with such worse problems. You don’t see them giving up. I’m just fucking weak.

When i was 11 my father committed suicide, i’m  the one who found him. I honestly think that’s the […]

I hate everything about my father. From the way he looks at me, shuns me, and treats me like a common stranger when I’m at home. I don’t know what I did to deserve growing up with someone so spiteful for the way I am. He does nothing to encourage me and the only thing I hear from his mouth is criticism. I hate being around him and the fact that I have to see him everyday is a nightmare in itself. I know hate is a strong word, but if you had my father, you’d feel the same. No one should have to feel […]

I hate the way people leave, I hate change, I hate the way people treat each other, I hate the way I look at the world…I hate that I have ADHD and I freak out but I refuse to take medication for it because last time it made me very depressed…I don’t like the world…I wish I was blind and that I couldn’t hear…maybe then….I just might be okay…

dear life…stop kicking me in the balls…I’m sick of being down and worthless. what can I do but be upset and pissed at the world. Help it go away please?

i got no friends. my relatives hate me. my family doesn’t care.

Ok so I haven’t posted in a while but anyways holy ************. I’m shocked I’ve made it this far. My birthday is in 2 weeks I am not happy about it cuz every time I have a birthday it usually adds one more fucked up thing I will do to myself/: hooray! -_- I always had begged for my parents to divorce and in September they finally did I was happy at the time cuz my dad and I got in a huge argument and I hated him for it. Now I was breaking this week at my moms house she favors my sister she […]

Honestly, I have nothing left to live for. I suffer from severe psychosocial disabilities and their is no room for improvement for me. 27 years of emptiness. I have a shitty job where I’m underemployed, never had a girlfriend, got picked on for having a mental disability growing up and I’m tired of being depressed and lonely all of the time. I just want the pain to end and unfortunately death is the only way out of this misery. I almost broke down in tears the other night at my brothers dinner table the because I looked around and saw how happy everyone was and […]

…because you are ashamed of being a human? Because you realize what a horrible, selfish, flawed species we are and you want no part of it? Or maybe  just because you realize there are close to 10 BILLION of us, eating, destroying and exterminating all other living creatures, and maybe that’s a few billion (or at least 1) too many?

I just saw the video on walmartcruelty.com and I can’t get the scene out of my head where the guy is slamming baby piglets’ brains on the concrete floor. Whthe sort of diseased species is capable of this? Capable of the Spanish Inquisition? Capable of gamg […]

Does talking to someone really help ? I feel like all they’ll do is judge me, and tell me how wrong I am for feeling the way I do.

Ever feel like screaming for no reason? Because that’s how I feel at school. I never talk in class and I stay in the background. But sometimes I just want to scream as loud as possible and see what would happen. Then I would run. Run as fast as I could away from that place. And I would never look back.

If you had a pill in your hand right now, that could kill you instantly, quietly and peacefully, take you away from all the shit and let it be, would you take it?