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I tried to speak out today, but you how things never really go as planned. They didn’t understand what I was trying to say and just brushed it off. I felt so small and so sick to my stomach. I went home and I did it again even though I was trying not to anymore. I hurt myself again. I hadn’t done it in awhile so I had forgotten how it felt, but I couldn’t stop myself. My hand is trembling as I write this and I’m just trying to hold myself together as much as I can. But I can’t anymore, I’m just so tired of […]

It seems like everyday I try to escape these thoughts of leaving this world. It seems like a hellish struggle to even make it through the day. I just want to be happy but thats now a forgotten cause. The real problem is here now and I can’t seem to shake it out. I can’t sleep because if the reoccurrence of these thoughts. If my mind doesn’t get a break I might have to give it a permanent one. I’m left wondering if these little pink pills are worth it. I’m left wondering all the time. Left trapped in my own thoughts. In my own […]

Hello Suicide Project and all its users!

I am here today to confirm my plans. (My typing always seems bright and happy but think of the psychotic clown who decapitates victims with a huge grin and heaps of laughter)

So, nearer to the end of the year I am going to utilize the exit bag method. From the research i have done, I found out it is the most painless and peaceful way to go. Which is awesome. But I need more ideas(suicide creativity) to seal the deal. I’m not asking you guys for ideas. Thats against the sites rules and what-not.

Anyways here is my plan:

They all think that my mental break downs are for attention.  Well I’m sorry all I want to do is disappear into the back round, be invisible to everyone. They think that I cut for attention, they think I’m sad and depressed for attention and for people to feel sorry for me. I don’t want people to think that my suicide was for attention. I don’t want people to even remember me. I don’t want to be remembered.

what is your life’s purpose?

I still search for mine…

All i wanted was to meet someone

To say something that could change their life forever

To let them know you’re not alone.

message me if you need someone to listen.

you can probably help me too.