General

*stands up*
Hello. My name is Rain. I currently suffer from depression and heartbreak. I also have an addiction to people and cutting.
I understand that my addiction to people stems from my fear of being alone. I’m currently working on my addiction to people by turning off all care I have for anyone other than my immediate family. Since yesterday I have not helped or checked on anyone, given out hugs or kisses, or spoken to anyone face to face about my problems. I’m here tonight because i am currently having people withdrawals and […]

Il be so happy when i suceed at suicide, hangging is most likely the way, ive tryed three times last month, came close to blacking out but it difficult to sufficate to death, i really get these erges sometimes to just die… it is something i must do, and soon… ive research other methods, so i have a partcial plan..nothing in this life will stop me.. i just have a lil business to take care of for my father then il be more determend to die… i live these hours,days and know that it only take a few minuites to depart and die..so i think […]

To kill myself cos I ain’t got the guts!

I love these peepz

ma’ best mate is next to ma’ bf i know her from the age of 5 and the girl im next to i’ve know 4 a year and a half

This is me and ma’ boyfriend

Ma’ boyfriend stelvio
know secret of self harm he tells me to stop he thinks i have but i dunno how to tell him that i’ve started again.I mean i stop cos he said how it can effect me as in i can go to far and die so i stop to save the relationship but he doesnt know i still do it,but i have to tell him soon.im scared he’ll end it last time he did an […]

Some people asked for artwork… Well here ya go! 🙂 Some of my better drawings.. Alien was done just a few minutes ago.

Patient,

Just as I am,
As always,
Watch the time go by,
Nothing left to pass by,
The minutes follow me,
Drunken little people, 
Work away in me,

Why won’t they leave me, leave me alone
When I don’t even want me, want me

I have to, kill the words,
Before they, form my sentence,
The sentence that is me,
Judged by those that carry
The patient sits in cradled arms
That comfort me by strangling

Why won’t they leave me, leave me alone
When I don’t even want me,

The patient mental sits and stares
An idle mind that’s empty, screaming
Staring back
Why won’t they leave him, leave […]

In a world where thoughts are louder then words, I am screaming.

im 40 years old and ive had enough. its pretty strange for me but just recently ive been feeling more accepting to the idea of death. when i was younger i was scared to death of killing myself although ive always wanted to. now i feel hope in that my life may be coming end. im not broke, i have a good job and i have a good place to live. the problem is that life hasnt turned out the way it should have. ive worked hard all my life and ive been well rewarded and ive even had two fantastic kids. i think my […]

Hello all, I have led a life of suffering from severe abuse as a child to sickness and PTSD insanity as an adult, i’ll be 50 years old in october and it turns out my husband is a crack addict… i’ve always been suicidal, and have worked hard to fight it, but now… i don’t see the point of going on, even tho parts of me want to, to pet my cat, to taste salty food… etc

but what is the point of all this carnage? are religions like Christianity just made up to made us soldier on and keep paying taxes?

all i have to look […]

I’m serious.

When I read about the Exit Bag I read about failure will lead to Brain Damage.  So what it is it?  A killer disease?   Will I still be able to attempt suicide for a 2nd time with “brain damage”?  I’m serious.

Yesterday, someone at work mentioned to me that I looked sad and that I could come into their office anytime and vent if I wanted to. She bought me a kit-kat bar to boot to try and cheer me up. I thought I was doing fine hiding my misery but apparently not.

This happens every so often, where I’ll just be so physically tired that I don’t have the strength to “PUT ON A HAPPY FACE! BRUSH OFF THE CLOUDS AND CHEER UP! PUT ON A HAPPY FACE!” I do appreciate the gesture(to some degree) and I wish that I could confide in someone but it’s […]

I think it’s time to stop all of this.

As in the SP and the chatroom. I’ve met some amazing people, which is hard. Knowing that all of them are suicidal. Which just increases my fear and blows it ridiculously out of proportion.

I’m feeling okay right now. Apart from having the flu. -_-

You people are amazing. And you deserve the right to a happy life. I’m past that point now, That dream ended when the mental health problems took over.

I will make myself avaliable to anyone who needs a little help, Or even just someone to talk to and possibly relate to. I’m no therapist though… […]