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Everytime I get into a car I hope it’ll crash so I don’t have to go on, everytime I go to sleep I hope I’ll never wake up, everytime I walk around late at night I want to just be murdered. I starve myself and take small overdoses in the hopes that my organs won’t be able to handle it and I’ll just drop dead.
I just want it to end. The fact that I can’t do it myself makes it even harder, it’s a vicious cycle filled with malicious irony.
I need help.
Ever since I was 12 my mom has made me feel like a horrible human being every single day. She insults me, hits me, mocks me and laughs at me when I cry, and tells me how much of a failure I am, how I’m not muscular enough to be a real man, how she wishes she had a better son. Even after multiple suicide attempts, one of which resulted in the school counselor taking me to the hospital ward to get help, my mom still doesn’t see what she’s doing. My dad realized it was wrong to hit me and insult […]
I’ve been bullied ever since i was younger
I’ve been called stupid, useless,worthless, been told to go kill myself, i just don’t have it in me. I have self harmed myself in the past. I didn’t cut myself or anything, instead i gave myself earser burns. i stopped doing that when my friends got really worried about me. my  best friend killed himself when we were 16. He’s the reason i could never kill myself. I saw the pain in our friends eyes when it happened and thinking about killing myself now even kills me to picture the look in their eyes. Or my boyfriend…i’ve been […]
Hey if anyone ever needs to talk then I am here for you ALL. No matter how extreme the problem is because chances are I have been through it too.
I hope some of you comment/message me 🙂
all I’m sure of is non-existence is the best.
It’s so hard to keep going 🙁 I suddenly feel like crying. I wish my brother would die. Then I could go do whatever the fuck I want guilt free. Instead, I work a job I hate everyday, sharing oxygen with people that disgust me, just so he can survive. Our mother is fucking useless; I wish the both of them would die. She’s a fucking whore, a stupid fucking whore that keeps having kids cause she’s too dumb to keep her legs closed. fuck, I hate all of them. Not just my mother, but her mother, […]
I usually have two or three days where i feel happy and normal. Then the depression hits me twice as hard and brings me down to nothing.
I completely forget what happiness is like, and feel like there is no way out. It almost feels like if i ever felt anything else but this consuming darkness, it was just a dream.
Then there are those amazing weeks that i am normal, i’m not exactly happy but i’m not depressed. But the funny thing is… After about a week of feeling neutral, i start to say to myself. “I miss being depressed, i wonder what it felt […]
I have always wondered what exactly it was about my life that made me so depressed. I can never pinpoint what is so terrible that i want to erase myself from human-kinds memory.
I am currently studying at University and alot of things have fallen into place for me. They still don’t explain everything but the information i am learning has highlighted some very important things.
My mother has an anxiety disorder, looking back on my life, childhood was harder than it seemed at the time.
My brother also has a learning difficulty so although i am the ‘baby’ of the family, i have always had to […]
Great success, i went from doing soo many pills to alcoholic, i never drank ’till i was 18 (i’m 18 now) ’cause of dad, he’s an alcoholic, i see why now, although i’d go back to pills without a doubt if i could, i been sober for 7 or 8 weeks tomorrow, from pills that is. I might stop with alcohol some time, prolly not, but i’m never ever gonna stop smoking weed.
The pills i did were mainly benzos, and also codeine. I haven’t done codeine since i overdosed on codeine and paracetamol, prolly almost died, idk really. Didn’t feel too well for a week. […]
hi.
was just hoping someone out there might actually be able to help me.
I was in the navy was injured during the intense training.
they made me spend 4 months in there hospital with no friends or family.
i had surgery to both legs and now suffer from extreme chronic pain depression anxiety and chronic fatigue syndrome.
i cant do any of thethings i used to love because of the pain.
this has also caused my boyfriend to not be able to handle me anymore.
i believe his about to give up on me and when he does it will be the end of me as he is the only thing […]
I want to die
That is all
Hey, I know I posted like not too long ago, but I need a favour from anyone willing to help. If I were to put on an anonymous survey about religion (I know it’s not a popular subject, but it’s for an assignment), would both religious and atheist people be willing to do it? Basically the questions will probably be like:
Are you religious? If so, what religion do you practice?
Do you believe non Christian nations should celebrate Christmas/Easter as a public holiday?
Should we be having public holidays for other religions celebrated days?
So would you be willing to help? By the way, it’s totally […]
I don’t even know what I want to write lol. I guess I just want to say thank-you for all the support not just last night, but all the time it really helps 🙂 Anyway I’m feeling a lot better today and even got up and finished an assignment (for someone as lazy and apathetic as me, that’s an achievement :P), now I have to perform it Thursday. Kinda nervous about that because I’m terrible at presentations, but it should end up okay. My bestfriend / boyfriend also came back from his business trip today with a giant bunch of roses and chocolate. I was […]
I’m Crying Out…Almost Screaming out in pain….but its like no one can hear me, even though they are in the next room…its just that they don’t want to hear it. they are sick of looking after me, they are sick of caring about me, they are just sick of me in general…. my says shes just worried ill make her depressed…like its contagious….my brother doesn’t  even talk to me, to him i don’t exist,my step Dad just doesn’t care. mum told me she can’t handle me, she doesn’t know what to […]
Ten years ago, I realized I had a problem, and I needed to find a solution fast. In the last ten years, I’ve been slowly moving closer to suicide as that solution. I don’t want to kill myself, I don’t want to put my family and friends through that. I wish there was another solution to my problem, but in ten years, it’s only getting worse.
The problem is that I want to kill people. I haven’t, yet, but I want to. I know it’s not right, but I still want to. I know some of you reading this might be thinking that it’s normal, that […]
some people think it is funny to throw the term suicide up in peoples faces; although if yo are sucidal you want everything to end and you always want to move on but there seems to be no other way out. i have attempted suicide several times now but mostly i have been nonchalantly injuring myself… to where its not extremely noticiable but to where it hurts bad enough for a second that i forget all my mental pain to focus on that one little thing. i won’t be suprised if in the next few days i attempt to take my life again… i just […]
Ok so I gave up talking to my bf earlier cuz e kept getting mad an that made me cry it was our first real argument :L anyway my friend suggested I pretend I’m her to fix things so I text him saying it was my friend and the convo went like “r u cheating on Hannah?” hhis reply “no” “well u act like it” “how!” “ur mean and made her cry” then he said a Long rant on why I’m too good to be suicidal. What????? So tho isn’t the first I done this I also pretend to be my […]
I try to keep going but it just gets worse and worse. I’m 31 years old and I’ve been alone for so very long. I’m the fattest, most hideous creature on the planet. Nobody will ever want me let alone love me. Girls can not be ugly if they have any hope of surviving in this society. And, as if that wasn’t bad enough, I am also incredibly stupid and people make it a point to tell me so just about every day and they’re absolutely right, I am. I can’t do anything right. My brain just doesn’t function like normal people. I have no […]
I want to commite suicide…but i know i will miss lots of things….like the sweet of music that always clams….the cool summer breeze….the shinning sun shin…. All its all the little things i know ill miss…but this little things are not enough to get ride of the pain i have…
no matter how much i try to be good i just cant…i dont know why i always fuck things…not only for me but for everyone eles around…i dont deserve to be here…
im starting to realize that it’s just easier to push the ones who care about me away. I think I’d rather have people mad at me for doing this then being sympathetic. The more people I push away the less people i’ll hurt when I’m gone. At first I was cutting my wrist and kinda wanted some sort of attention from it but now I realize that was the wrong way to go. I’ve stopped cutting y wrist and now I’m cutting where can’t be seen if I’m fully dressed. (under and on my stomach going down to my legs about 8 inches of cuts […]
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