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Real Pain…

by Rain 7/23/2012

written by Rain

Cut my wrists and black my eyes.
Thats all I ever do now. Cut my wrists and let my ex black my eyes.
I’m going back to him tomorrow…why? Because heÂ loves me.
Dont you dare tell me that that isnt what love is. I’ll gladly wear makeup to cover my face.
I’ll gladly cut my wrists to remind myself what REAL pain is.
Getting beaten, raped, and verbally abused isnt pain, it’s life.
Sometimes when i stop cutting for a while, I forget REAL pain and I cry when he tries to hurt me…then i pick up my razor and slash my legs and wrists […]

7/23/2012 5 comments

Hello

by acommoncold 7/23/2012

written by acommoncold

This is going to sound corny and lame. I’ve tried to kill myself when I was 20 and when I was 22. I haven’t cut myself since for the last I want to say 3-4 years now? I have some larger scars higher up on my arms, and then smaller ones that really show if I some how let myself get tan all over my arms. It is kind of interesting… like you won’t see them until I point them out. So long I wear a shirt, no one sees the big scars, but at the same time I’m always some how reminded of my […]

7/23/2012 2 comments

Downbeat Corp. – Satori (Spiritually Remixed)

by Zombie Vs. 7/23/2012

written by Zombie Vs.

7/23/2012 0 comment

It’s almost like they don’t want me to get better…

by Crazypandachick 7/23/2012

written by Crazypandachick

Late last year I decided I was going to try get help for my issues. I started taking prescribed medication and I gained the courage to go see a psychiatrist again. In the past, I have had the type of psychiatrist that blamed me for everything and the type that just tried to fill me up with drugs. But this time I got one that actually helped. Sure we played video games a lot rather than just plain talking, but he never once tried to push me into anything I didn’t want to do or blamed me. I really started to feel better and even […]

7/23/2012 0 comment

nights are lonely

by fakingit 7/23/2012

written by fakingit

i think the title says it all:/

7/23/2012 43 comments

Some times – some days …

by Dawg 7/23/2012

written by Dawg

I’ve been a kind of a fixture on SP for several months – some know me – others have never seen me. Some like me, some respect me, others hate me and think I’m full of crap and retarded.

I care about everyone – and I try to be positive and upbeat – strong for those who don’t feel they can take another step. I don’t “want” any of us to be here but that just isn’t realistic. and for many of us, ‘here” is a small piece ofÂ flotsamÂ in and angry sea that will eventually but surely take us all …Â preferablyÂ when we’re old and grey … […]

7/23/2012 6 comments

How i earned an extra 2 days of of inpatient

by lostchild445 7/23/2012

written by lostchild445

And so the story goes:

Psychiatrist: “so what do you have at home to help you cope”

Me: “i have my music”

P: “explain”

M: “i play music. i play the piano, the guitar, the bass, the dru-”

P: “yea yea yea and what happens if you cant do that anymore?”

M: “umm excuse me?”

P: “if you couldnt play music anymore. how would you cope?”

M: “i wouldnt”

P: “what?”

M: “i would slit my throat and die. because without music, my life is meaningless”

P: “that’s a pretty weak support system if you ask me. something so tangible and fragile as music. i mean, what happens when you get older and your dream of […]

7/23/2012 26 comments

Someone email me

by yougettingtoknow 7/22/2012

written by yougettingtoknow

Yougettingtoknow@yahoo.com

7/22/2012 1 comment

Forget-Me-Not

by Violet Blake 7/22/2012

written by Violet Blake

I had a revelation today.

Wait, can you only call it a revelation if it has to do with religion, because I think after my last incident with a priest I won’t be having any revelations anytime soon. Oh well, point is I had a “light bulb” moment, and not really a bright one.

Pun not intended.

Let me take you back to my formative elementary school years: Here’s Violet Blake. She likes to wear foofy dresses with flowers on them and ribbons in her hair. Violet thought she was going to have so many friends, turns out, she was wrong. WAY WRONG. Instead of having a happy […]

7/22/2012 23 comments

Rambling Malaise

by SomeMalaise 7/22/2012

written by SomeMalaise

I wish my awareness would dullen some or just disappear. I always walk by a mirror and look myself in the eyes and i can see and feel the sadness. I can see the tears that make up my brown eyes. My hands are calloused and aged. My heart aches and struggles again. My chest wants to break free of the tight bands of muscles surrounding it. My feet tired of walking on the earth.

Oh the feet enjoy the warm from hot asphalt and cold wet blades of grass. Just like my tongue it enjoys the bitter taste of chocolate or the burn of […]

7/22/2012 0 comment

Another Fucking Day of my Sad Life…

by Scratcher.Ana.DieAlone 7/22/2012

written by Scratcher.Ana.DieAlone

Today was a fuck! I hated it. I give all, for making my parents happy, specially for my father. I want to give him everything perfect. Nevertheless the more I try, the worse it is. I’m about to finish with this damm life. I hate everything around me. Â I’m feeling more and more alone. The Day I finish with everything I’m sure they’ll just have to remember all this days to realize why I’m doing this. I just want to finish everything

7/22/2012 0 comment

highs and lows

by fakingit 7/22/2012

written by fakingit

ok second good day in a row. XD lovin it. but there is always something to effect me.
highs: 1) bf is making huge effort in talkin to me and all the sweet things r back (lets c how long it lasts)
2) parents r acting a little nicer
3) sister isnt punching me as much
4) im able to sleep more
5) im mainly smiling til a flashback hits me but i do my best to deal with it
lows: 1) dad still causes arguement; but makes it shorter
2) mom is still a bit strict
3) sister wont leave me alone
4) my […]

7/22/2012 1 comment

Anyone there?

by Scratcher.Ana.DieAlone 7/22/2012

written by Scratcher.Ana.DieAlone

I almost did it today, almost. If it wasn’t for one of my classmates who called me, just seconds before I did it, asking about homework.

I need to talk.. Is there anyone there, feeling like me? I need to talk.

7/22/2012 3 comments

quick question

by nbarules18 7/22/2012

written by nbarules18

Is wolfenstein666 dead im just kind of wondering

7/22/2012 4 comments

Outside the Wall

by Rachel 7/22/2012

written by Rachel

All alone, or in twos,

The ones who really love you

Walk up and down outside the wall;

Some hand in hand,

Some gathered together in bands,

The bleeding hearts and the artists

Make their stand;

And when they’ve given you their all, some stagger and fall

After all it’s not easy

Banging your heart against some mad bugger’s wall.

– Roger Waters, The Wall

I try to remember it’s not their fault I feel bad. I shouldn’t shut out the people I love. It’s really hard to not want to hide behind the wall. But I need to be better.

7/22/2012 2 comments

A Blessed Curse

by orangish 7/22/2012

written by orangish

No! I am not a lycanthrope!

Now that that is out of the way…

Here is an example of the source of all my problems, as well as the source of happiness in my life. You’ll probably be confused by that statement, but if you lived with it for a while, you’d understand.

So today I went out back to water my rows of tobacco plants. I did that methodically, one at a time, from left to right. I checked on the progress of my seedlings, watered those, then I took a walk around the yard and inspected the other individual plants growing there; I looked at the […]

7/22/2012 2 comments

I hate being a sibling

by Stacey Corbin 7/22/2012

written by Stacey Corbin

Why do siblings always know exactly where to peirce you with a knife to make it hurt so bad that you just want to crumble into a million pieces and just break down and fall and cry forever. They can always make sure you are always either happy or sad. One jab of that stupid knife of theirs and youre down for the count.
I hate feeling left out and hate when people make me feel small and my sisters know that. I just went into my sisters room real quick to tell her something and she told me to get out. (not a good […]

7/22/2012 3 comments

I need someone to help me please x:(

by i_want_to_die_NOW 7/22/2012

written by i_want_to_die_NOW

Heyy guys i really need some help with a few things and just help with what i can do to stop and all , so can someone email me please:'(X

7/22/2012 5 comments

epileptic and ashamed

by joshFL 7/22/2012

written by joshFL

I know people will hate me and there is no way out my situation – this is why I can’t see a therapist. I have a “girlfriend”, who was once a fiance. We had a child together and then she immediately got fat – I don’t mean a few pounds, but nearly 200. She also stopped bathing (except once per week), smokes constantly (even though she has high blood pressure). She is absolutely revolting to me. I feel so absolutely ashamed when I am in public with her – I walk a couple feet behind her, etc. I can’t have friends – because of this. […]

7/22/2012 6 comments

alive

by birthright 7/22/2012

written by birthright

im going to see blink 182 on wednesday, a friend gave me a lastminute ticket, i feel alive around music, live music, and i just love it all, even the big crowds of people, which usually make me nervous and feel even more alon but music id the perfect way to communicate properly and people dont liein songs, im looking forward to it:) everyone needs to find something no matter how trivial that they can look forward to

7/22/2012 0 comment

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