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I may seem strong, i may seem tough,
but im your average girl in this screwed up world,
you expect so much, and i want your love,
i need your love, and i am slowly, but surely sinking into, nothing….
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I know there is people who have it worse than me, which makes me feel guilty about the way I look at my own life.
I love my life, really. I have an amazing boyfriend, amazing friends, amazing family; I have everything I’ve ever wanted, but somehow I still manage to let everything get the best of me.
You’d never guess that I’m unhappy if you saw me. To you, it would look like I’m the happiest girl in the world. I always smile and laugh, but really inside, i’m hurting.
I have this thing called atelophobia. It’s an extreme fear of imperfection, and never being good enough. I […]
My ex is living with someone that has 2 kids by someone else..he is cheating on her with another girl that has 2 kids from someone else..I guy I used to see when I got my first divorce is living with a woman that has a kid by someone else yet he tells me that he wants me..yet he is cheating on her too with his ex wife that is living with someone else..tell me this life gets any better..PLEASE!
Life sucks.
I really want a new life. I don’t understand why I was given this one?
I hate being alone but push everyone away.
Some say I have a near-perfect life. I disagree.
I’m forced to be someone I don’t want to be,
forced into a future and career I don’t want.
Typical story. ‘Perfect girl’ can’t appreciate her life.
Just this very hour, my parents threatened to
disown me if my math grades don’t improve.
I think an ‘A-‘ Â or ‘B+’ is fine.
I think that the whole concept of math we will never use is messed up.
Then again, my parents don’t seem to care what I think.
I read Emily Dickinson’s ‘I’m Nobody’ again. She was and is right.
Some people don’t want to be classified into our own boxes.
Some of us would be happy being nobodies.
No titles, reputation, or […]
I’m only young, i’m so messed up, but you are going to think i’m the most stupid girl on here. I cut myself regularly on my waist, and i’m bulemic to the point where it is damaging my body. An d to be honest i really want to kill myself, i’m so fed up of everything. I see strange things that others don’t and my moods swings are completely irrational. I’m not in denial, I admitt to this. The next part i guess is a twist. I’m not really dumb, I have a lovely boyfriend and the most amazing friends, I’m not restricted but everything […]
one of my best friends loves me so much, and she knows about my depression history, and my scars and everything, but she thinks im all better now. she calls me almost every day and i talk with her often. she’s a christian and i think im steering away from christianity. she is so nice and i love her but everyone around me brays at me and everyone is so vitriolic and abusive. i will be attempting suicide tonight though. i feel terrible most of all to my new best friend and i know im so selfish for this, but when you’re in this muc […]
it seems i never belong anywhere, not with my friends.. not even on this site.. not on this world.. not in my family… i don’t know what do to… i think I’m done…
all i want to do is go to sleep and never wake up.. stay in my dream land… its way better then here…
i believe we create our own heaven and hell… and you enter them lots. we go into our hell, but some how find a way out and end up in our heaven.. we make it as we live our life… hopefully this make sense. but right now i know I’m in […]
I am 18 years old and in my second semester of college. I live in the dorms. Although I no longer live with my parents I can not let go of their beliefs. Of awful childhood experiences and memories. My heart is sick from carrying my Mother’s beliefs. The ones that weigh me down most are her beliefs about men. My mother has raised  me to judge all men as bad people, criminals, fuck ups. I can’t start relationships with guys because I mistrust ALL of them. I am trying incredibly hard to move past this indoctrination but also not lose all my sense and […]
I just cant stop thinking about dieing ive tried everything but it just want leave my head
i thought this website would help me.. and some days it does.. but people can still judge you! and i hate it… people judge me a lot already.. i don’t need anyone else to judge me.. when they don’t even know my story…
I’m broke and i need someone to fix me… anyone..
-Morgan
I just found this site after googling “I can’t do this anymore”. I feel awful.
by Lost45
written by Lost45
I know I am depressed. I know I need help. I have felt that I am lower than EVERYONE else since a very young age. Around nine or ten. I am now eighteen. I just can’t keep my life together. I feel like shit every day and it is getting to be too much stress. I was just spending my evening with a nineteen year old guy who lives on my floor. He invited me over to watch a movie and get drunk. I really just want a friend. I said sure and went. He claims he had no intentions…other than getting to know me, […]
So month pass.. over 1 month..
I packed and went to my trips.. Was trying to catch my luck in mountains .. Skii.. It was the best trip ever.. Full of love, sex, food, alcohol, people, laugh and sleep..
Still can’t believe i came back. Stopped crying after 2 days ..
Now i feel worst than before trip ! It had to cure me but broken totally.
My bf, who filled me completely, i thought so, now is sick and totally out of US.
so i am totally lonely, cold and in this FUCKING DARK WINTE! I HATE IT! HATE ALL THAT SNOW!!!!!!
Life sucks again. But it doesnt mean i […]
I believe that our choice of music is very much a reflection of our souls. I’m a bit older than average amongst the people here. I feel fortunate to have come of age during one of the best musical booms in American history, New Wave, and its technological red-headed step child, synthpop. I’ve always been musically inclined, and I found I had a strong affinity for the pasty white boys standing behind keyboards pushing buttons in order to “play live”. My all-time favorite band is Erasure, whose popularity in America peaked when I was in college, but I frequently “worship” the “Holy Trinity”: Erasure, Depeche […]
I’m at the point of my life right now where I’m between childhood and adulthood and pretty soon I’ll be entering the real world. I’m scared about what I’m going to do with my life and I feel like I have nothing to offer in life, that I shouldn’t even be here right now because I’m useless and can’t do anything right. I feel pretty insignificant and scared to tell anyone about it in fear of the reaction they’ll have when I tell them. I’ve already gone through three therapists and none of them have really helped, or more like me thinking that I’m fine […]
Im so used to being in pain that when im not i just feel so numb
Okay, so right now, I want to commit suicide badly, but I’m scared like a little baby. I actually took 5 paracetamols to make me feel a bit numb. But whenever I think of that person, I just can’t seem to do it. Oh, I am so tired of living through all this pain. I can’t tell someone cuz I’m afraid they’d think i just want to draw their attention. 🙁 I was actually okay yesterday, but when my grandma called tonight, she said some things about my mom which I didn’t like. I was so mad. I mean, why does she always tell me […]
I’ve had it for a long time. I’m tired of feeling this way everyday, Im tired of being the fuck up that I am and Im tired of wondering when all of this will end. I won’t and I can’t do this any longer! This will be my last week and then it’s time for me to go. I have no idea what the other side holds for me but the thought of staying here is unbearable. My 16th birthday is less than a month away, but I can’t go that long…I just can’t! Im going to spend my last couple of days creating good […]
I hate repeating myself but i am very stuck and didn’t receive any help the last time i posted about this topic.
I am asking for some advice. I don’t need to be told “Yup. It sucks. Welcome to reality.”
I need help!
Are there any effective treatments out there for Borderline Personality Disorder? I’m worried about my mental health and would prefer to ask someone with personal experience before going to a doctor.
If anyone can help me and give me some advice. It would be really appreciated.
Thanks.
You’re probably not interested in what I have to say but I’ve been reading these forums for about a week after stumbling across them. I just want somewhere to leave my thoughts so I figured this would do.
As the subject line says…. I failed. Pretty badly. I look back at what could have been and compare it to what I am now and think ‘oops, I kinda screwed that up’. I won’t bore you all with the details but if you are reading this then you are reading the writings of a once talented sportsman, who moved to America to pursue his dream, had a […]