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I really, really hate liking a guy.

Actually, you know what, it’s not just liking someone that I hate, it’s the agonizing pain the comes with it. Sure, there are those wonderful butterflies that I can’t help but love, but there is also the pain of not telling anyone. The pain of being so afraid to say how you feel, to risk putting your heart on the line only to have it shattered into a million pieces.

So you don’t say anything. You remain calm around him (or her), you pretend that his random joke are what’s making you smile, you lie and say “nothing” when he/she asks […]

i dunno if I’m doing this right. Probably not… Im a guy, been contemplating suicide I guess… Seems like it would never actually happen… I lost my girlfriend a month ago and honestly I am not a dramatic person in the slightest but this is just too much. Nothings as good without her, she was my everything and I was irrevocably in love with her and she dumped me because I changed for her. She thinks it’s who I am but it’s not. I only ever get about an hour of sleep every night now. I just want her back but everytime I talk to […]

im 19 years old

i dont know if i am depressed? how can you tell if you are depressed ?

i pretend/feel alright when im around family and friends, and i never really think about it.

but at night(mostly) because i can never sleep till like 5am, i think about how much i hate myself and think about dying. i think about what my funeral would be like. and i cry soo much when im alone. sometimes for no reason.

i always get really anxious when around people i dont know, or if im walking alone, especially at night and when i get home im shaking just cause i always think […]

Does anybody here come from the United Kingdom? or are you all yanks 🙂

Diamanda Galas ~ Gloomy Sunday

I look fine on the outside but truly im in so much pain inside. i hide it all with a smile. i dont know why i have have pain inside. could it be abuse from my father? i feel like i need to end one of our lives to end this pain. Question is whos?

the stupidity of the human race fucking PISSES ME OFF.  first, i want to know why it pisses me off so damn much.  Then I want to take a hold of every illogical whiny jackass and hit them four hundred times with a rusty crowbar then leave them to the rats in the sewer.  No one will come for them.

Today I sat down in the library after school.  It was me, my cousin, and my brother (chris).  Chris starts demanding rudely that I look at his photoshop pictures, constantly saying that he’s better at photoshop and all that drivel.  Since he was being such a […]

i don t feel that i have ever fitted in every good relationship i have i ruin.

I just don t feel that I have any worth anymore.

i feel like i am screaming but no one can hear me,

im not brave if i was i would have done it already im a coward.

Hey I’ve been depressed for a very long time now. I’m looking for someone to share my thoughts with, as it is usually very lonely for me. If you are a kind and caring person and would like to talk with an understanding person, respond to this post.

my name is victor martinez im here to tell you a storey i once thought that there was no escape from my past that what ive done had no redemption if you are really wanting to hurt your self read this if not this will give you propective to understand how we’ve felt and why we want to end our lives…..there was a kid who was born  he didnt know who he was or who his parents were he was abandond from the start he was put into home age of 2 he though these were his birth perants but at the age of 5 […]

i have been in a mental hospital for six days. i wish i was still there. i was actually having fun there. i know its wierd to say, but i want to go back. once i left the hospital, i was hurt again. i almost stabbed myself with scissors last night. i just didnt have the guts to go through with it. i hate myself even more for being such a wuss.

Her nose was cut in violence.
(Aisha-Gets-New-Nose)
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-south-asia-11530849

It’s true of violence throughout the world, but side by side there is also benevolence.

To avenge the same violence upon the incriminated, seemingly goddess wrath, but definitely self-made, human-made.
Condemnation aggravates hate to this world !
To brighten the sky with firecrackers bring sparks of lights, swift of joy, but never the beauty enough to steadfastly brand in hearts.

Of her plastic nose, though fabricated, indeed brought back her smile and faith of beauty.
Even though it’s just some money-chasers’ engineering, those plastic surgeons or craftsmen’s artistic time well spent did create a masterpiece reward.
Despite some scheme of […]

so close to giving up. don’t want to be here again.
i just want to fuck myself up. get out of my mind. out of my thoughts. i stopped drinking.i don’t want to go back…
it just feels so inevitable.

Can i ever just get over ONE FUCKING ISSUE?!?!

For six years i had a great life.I had a great family but because of a car accident i lost them all. I have nothing left I wanna kill myself anyone please help me!

Hi everyone, I am a 23 year old girl living in Cali.

I have been depressed for quite a long time and last year I went to the doctor and I have been taking Citalopram since then. However, I still feel like I have the depressive symptoms, I am always tired of life, bored of life, I feel lonely all the time, want to sleep and be in the bed and not get up. It’s like living and breathing is very hard for me. I have suicidal thoughts for a long time, I always thought as I get older my life would get better and  everything […]

I’ve been fired. Not laid off, not downsized, just “you’re not good enough anymore.”

I used to love this job, then the company changed but I still thought they meant it when they said they wanted us to speak out when we thought company policy was hurting our customers (which, in the healthcare software industry, means hurting patients).

The job paid really well. I moved here to the midwest US, far away from my family on the east coast and my husband’s on the west coast.

I should have squirreled away every penny, realizing that eventually the company would boot me out like the worthless person I […]

Hey people of SP, I’ve always liked music and it plays a momentous role in my life.

I was just wondering what songs you guys like.  Just post youtube links and/or a list of bands or specific songs you like! anything you like, post it please i want to fill up my ipod some more

  

It will generally be found that where the terrors of life come to outweigh the terrors of death One will put an end to their life.

But the terrors of death offer considerable resistance: they stand like a sentinel at the exit gate.Perhaps there is no one alive who would not have put an end to their life if this end were something purely negative, a sudden cessation of existence, but there is something positive in it as well:

The destruction of the body. This is a deterrent, […]