I did this, you can too.
My friend had to talk me out of suicide last night. This is the 4th time this month. I love him so much and I don’t want to hurt him. He have saved me so many times and if I left that would be wasted time for him. He lives in Arizona and I’m from Illinois and I really want to meet him, I need to.
I’m feeling suicidal, idk what to do. I have no one to talk to. What should I do? Should I tough it out alone, I’m so sick of doing that. I need someone.
i have never uttered a single word to anyone about what happened. i’ve been depressed about this lately, thinking that it was my fault. i know that this isn’t the pandora project, but i feel like it will somewhat help if i let someone know how i’m feeling because of my inability to speak.
i don’t understand what i did to you, for you to cause me all this worrying and suffering. you made me think that it was okay and that it was just a game. i’m disgusted with you and myself as well for being in that situation.
i pity you because of the terrible […]
i dont really know how to start my first post, but i guess this is going to be an introduction and the story of why am i here. well, i’m actually still young. i’m not gonna mention how old i am but once people know, they will say “wow, this is so hard for a kid your age.” i have this feeling for about 2-3 years. i took a lot of depression and anxiety test. i got 80% to 90% all the time. at first i dont want to believe, but i search up the symptoms of it and i guess i have one. when […]
Why must I keep living this lie, why can no one see the pain in my eyes. When they ask how I am why can’t they see the “good” is code for I’m falling apart. Why can’t I escape, there’s nothing I can do. Hes got me tangled in his web of deceit and pain. So many people think he is an amazing guy, its my fault I tell them how amazing he is. If only they knew the truth or could see the monster hiding under all of those layers of polished personality. My true hell is in his arms along with my entire […]
I discovered this site today, while distracting my pain away.
So much suffering I see- so many souls yearning to be free.
But in the responses of support and love, there is beauty that goes far above.
Raw passion so seldom seen, in those content to live their lives by default alone with fake friends, entertained by a screen.
Perhaps our darkest sides show us who we really are. Desperate for love, meaning, and peace, we try so damned hard.
I know none of you by name, personality or career. But I’m sure I share much of your pain, suffering and fears.
I do not think we are losers, scum or leeches; […]
After 4 days of pure hell on earth I quit taking my meds. Before you all freak out here’s what I have to say. I was only on the lowest dose of Effexor for only 4 days ( as I stated above) when I called it quits (which would be today). So it’s not like they bumped me up to the highest dosage possible and I just said “screw it I’m not going to take it.” (I know the risks of suddenly stopping when you take higher dosages of meds). I’m not taking it anymore because of a horrible side effect I got from it, nausea. […]
My brother, Matthew, committed suicide a little over 3 years ago and I am so broken from it. He was severely depressed and I never understood – I wasnt as compassionate as I should have been when he was alive. I feel that all of his pain and suffering has just flown into me – I am so unhappy but no one knows. I put on such a front and pretend I’m fine to my family – particularly because I know what Matts death has done to them and I’m all they have left. My heart feels so heavy all of the time, I feel […]
Since I was 13 I knew that one day I would commit suicide. Ive always been able to go one more day and one more day turned into 7 years. And now things are getting so hard that I dont think I can go one more day. I feel like I cannot keep trying. I keep failing, the depression is taking control of me and I just have no reason to be happy anymore. Is life even worth it anymore.
Hey it’s “T”.
You may have read my post about having everything prepared to commit suicide by helium asphixation. Of course it got deleted after a while.
Some of you have really inspired me to not commit suicide (thanks for that). I mainly didn’t do it because of my family. I am still fighting every day but i’ve decided to postpone my suicide indefinitely.
In case things won’t work and if fail I always got the possibility to end my life if I wish so.
I hope you all gonna have a lovely day.
i just… okay so my best friend got to know about the reason of my depression through here and i was planningto tell her but couldnt get it out of me.. now that she does know i dont know what to do but to isolate myself and i dont know what to say anymore…
things have be so grimm lately and my behaviour towards her is so unjust i hate myself not being able to come to peace with myself and tell myself that its okay, whats done is done move on.
I just cant and i dont know what to do. Maybe self isolation is my […]
It’s been about a year or so since I was here but something tells me it’s time to come back for a bit. I want to be here to be a lifeline for somebody. I used to receive emails from around the world and hear amazing stories. I had to step away for a while to catch my own breath but I like to hear from you guys.
I don’t consider myself suicidal at the moment although I have cut before and sometimes think about the silence of death as peaceful. I probably stand out a little in that I see death I’d say at least […]
Definitely feeling depressed and hopeless. Poor, crazy, longing for love and the end of all this bullshit. Life sucks.
There was a time in my life that I would have looked in the mirror, seen what I now once again see and run. Fly away…escape in flight, run back into the night, where in the end, I have always belonged.
Time is that ever horrible tick of deep space; that reminds me that I am worthless and nothing will ever change that. That there is only one path in the end. I’ve seen all the roads and no matter what, change will never come, for there is only one road in the end to be had.
Once again, the clock starts the countdown…for I now, completely […]
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In my family I’m the oldest of my two sisters (we are going to call them:) C and A. C being the first at 17 and A being the second youngest at 15. Me being of the age of 18 you’d think I wouldn’t be compared to my little sister (in this case my sister C)… But I am… A lot! I’m never just “Amanda” I’m just “C’s sister”.
“Oh! You are very shy compared to C.” “Your nothing like C is!” “You don’t look like C or A at all!” “You and C have nothing in comman.” These are just the few I can think […]
So over the past month i found myself get worse and worse & decided to post on here for help and attention. I got over 10 emails from fellow users of this site and i couldnt be happier.
I am overwhelmed with how many people took the time to give a shit about me. Unfortunately it felt very repetitive having to explain myself multiple times and honestly just took the life out of me. Sorry to everyone i didnt reply back to. Im very very appreciative of the effort you all went through.
If you are reading this and feel alone or out of your depths […]
So I am the middle child of 3 children …..
Some people would love that but I don’t. It’s absolutely hell!! My parents would always compare me to my older sister or younger brother.
You see my older sister (24) is now a nurse and is married to Matthew . A doctor who is “the perfect guy” as my parents say …… They would always compare me to her by saying “Oh you know when your sister was your age she used to do this… And do that…”
They never give me a break …
Oh and let’s not forget my little brother. It doesn’t make it […]
Ever since I was a little girl, living was an issue. I’ve wanted to die since I was 8 yrs old. My mother was/is evil and doesn’t have feelings like most people do. Common traits of a Sociopath; she would have a lot of sex with a lot of people just so she could feel something… Or at least I tell myself that’s the reason why. She married my dad while she was still married and had 2 sons with someone else. My dad didn’t know, but her first husband soon found out and divorced her. My dad in turn raised my two older brothers […]
I don’t want to live. There is absolutely no point in it. No matter what I do, my parents will never be proud of me. I know that this is a shitty reason. It sounds shitty. It sounds like I’m over-exaggerating. It sounds like I don’t understand.
But the thing is, I do understand. My parents want the best for me, which is more than I should be able to ask for. But, I am a selfish and discontent human being. I want something to go my way. I’m not right. There’s something wrong with me. That’s probably just me trying to get attention. Ahahahahhaha […]
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