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I Will Survive

I did this, you can too.

Should I?

by EmoGirl2250 2/11/2015

written by EmoGirl2250

Ive thought about it long and hard! I have this plan running away!! killing myself!! Should i? let me explain!

Age 9-I was taken away from my dad and moved to Ohio

House 1- My mom sister(Aunt) It was horrid..My cousin took a knife to my throut and i got beat for it, that was the last day i was there.

House 2- was my other aunts house and we got in a huge fight and she moved out.. we sleft on the floor all through christmas and for my 10 birthday

House 3- An apartment with just me and my mom, i was left home alot, she worked […]

2/11/2015 5 comments

This moon..

by helenabeat 2/7/2015

written by helenabeat

Now I’m staring at the moon wondering why the bottom fell out , I’ve been searching for answers and there’s questions I’ve found. I’m feeling sad and alone.. again. And i’m losing control, i’m not ready to drown. I feel like I’m just too fucking bruise to keep fighting. I wrote this letter to my family saying ”I’m calm and feeling warm”.

And this bad feeling is coming for me, my eyes have been closed to the world. I can’t do it again. I need to be strong but I just I can’t.. I’m crying all alone in this empty room..again FUCK I hate this, fucking tired […]

2/7/2015 6 comments

fuck reality , fuck real life , fuck real world , because reality / real-world / real-life is boring ! Imagination /dreams / fantasy is better than reality / real-world / real-life !

by niki 2/5/2015

written by niki

I think (some) people would agree that our everyday’s reality / real life / real world life is boring, mundane, repetitive routines, jobs, to make money, and even the ‘fun’ stuff like party, sex, dance, etc in the end still can’t beat our wildest dreams / imagination / fantasy .

Movies , video games , comics , books , novels , anime , manga often are a HUNDRED times much more interesting than this mundane, dull, LIMITED / LIMITING, boring reality / boring reallife / boring realworld !
eg: Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Avatar, X-Men, Marvel heroes / comics , Star Wars, Star Trek, […]

2/5/2015 2 comments

Protected: Adeus, finalmente.

by Tristeza 2/4/2015

written by Tristeza

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

2/4/2015 7 comments

Virtual Reality is escape from boring reality sucks , Virtual Reality is escape from boring real world sucks , Virtual Reality is escape from boring real life suck !

by niki 1/30/2015

written by niki

Virtual Reality is escape from boring reality suck ,
Virtual Reality is escape from boring real world suck ,
Virtual Reality is escape from boring real life sucks !

We all know that this Reality / Real-world / Real-life is very LIMITED / LIMITING !
everyday we do the same routines , chores , go make money , make money / profits , go to boring shitty jobs because of money , and then we go have fun, party, sex, entertainment etc etc , and then it repeats again !
What’s so interesting about that ??
I’ve observed that most people who actually LOVE all those […]

1/30/2015 5 comments

by Pretend Girl 1/29/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I was encouraged by impefertluck to write tonight.

There are so many people hurting and so much pain. Know you can get through your personal struggle and hurts. It can often seem like you can’t. Feelings lie. Maybe that sounds pretentious. Feelings lead us to conclude things we never would have if the feelings hadn’t been so strong.

I have dealt with my depression for over 20 years. I had counseling but no one listened to me when I talked about the pain of my family life so many years before. So, instead of understanding that the depression came from a situation I had no control over, […]

1/29/2015 3 comments

The Otherside

by imperfectluck 1/29/2015

written by imperfectluck

During my darkest times in life, I had nothing to resort to but pain and misery, on the brink of ending it all looking down at the depths of it all and seeing peace and happiness once and for all. I thought I could never be saved and nearly killed myself 3 times but somehow I just wouldn’t die. I’ve been to an asylum, etc. talked to various shrinks but at the end of the day, none of it could help, only I could. That was 4 years ago during my junior year of high school when I was displaced from everything I knew of. […]

1/29/2015 2 comments

by montie 1/25/2015

written by montie

weight

Im 28 and have suffered with depression for the past 12 years,i can’t blame a shitty childhood or lack of family support because that would be lie.i have a good job and friends who try to be a there for me buts its getting harder and harder to live behind this maskmask and when people say what do you have to feel down about the mask gets pulled tighter. I’m being crushed by the weight of my inability to get this monster out of my life.iv tryed all the usually stuff medication therapy not seems to work for longer than a few weeks,I’m now using […]

1/25/2015 2 comments

Think everyone here can relate to this song… The Bravery – “Believe”

by B 1/25/2015

written by B

Not only is this a great song, but I’d imagine that these lyrics can be interpreted by everyone here on a much deeper level than even intended.

1/25/2015 0 comment

Rejuvenation.

by lostsoulblanklife 1/24/2015

written by lostsoulblanklife

I’d like to reconsider my life. Find someone that I could speak to, someone that I could really pour my soul out to. I need someone that will care for me, caress me, hold me when I’m crying. Not a guidance councillor, not my parents or family, but someone.. A stranger. A stranger that understands. A stranger that will wipe away the drops of water rolling down my cheek. A stranger that will love me. A stranger that will not leave me stranded in a room full of depression. I need someone to look at me in the eyes, and tell me that I’m beautiful.

I am […]

1/24/2015 3 comments

Friend.

by hellblau 1/21/2015

written by hellblau

If You had a friend who spoke to you in the same way you sometimes speak to yourself, ¿How long would you allow that person to be your friend?

1/21/2015 3 comments

An Unwelcome Guest

by Silverbird 1/16/2015

written by Silverbird

A disclaimer to the world.

I really don’t belong. There’s no conceivable place on this planet where I belong.

The public is my enemy. If you put someone in front of me, I’ll do everything in my power to disregard them, including not-disregarding them. My mask is so genuine that it even deceives myself half the time, such is the cost of being able to blend into society, and avoid being a homeless bum the rest of my pitiful existence (of which will continue to be a pitiful existence, bum or not, however bums are publicly pitiful, which is why I’m willing to throw myself away most […]

1/16/2015 1 comment

Vulnerability

by cr-123456 1/13/2015

written by cr-123456

Hello,

Thanks for taking the time to read this post. I have been thinking about shame and guilt. What I’ve noticed so far that I have done some terrible things in my life as a result of shame. I have intense suicidal thoughts due to shame. Shame, meaning I am a bad person and guilt meaning I have bad behaviors.

At times, I think people use shame and guilt interchangeably, which is detrimental to someone who struggles with mental illness. I have a lot of shame. I am shameful of my ethnic background, I am shameful of my behaviors and people I’ve hurt. There’s several things wrong […]

1/13/2015 1 comment

I’m Back, It Helped

by moonlitrose34 1/12/2015

written by moonlitrose34

Soooo…first off, I wanted to thank all the people that gave me all of their encouraging comments on my last post, and in general. (which was about a week ago)

That was when I was hospitalized. I didn’t have my phone..and there were two computers to use the internet, which was crappy, but I think I would’ve thrown a red flag out there had I gotten on here, so I waited until I was out. Today I got discharged from the hospital, and I just wanted to talk about my experience.

So I was terrified when I first went there, I went voluntarily but I was still […]

1/12/2015 15 comments

One and counting.

by hellblau 1/12/2015

written by hellblau

First day and I still have to fight to not feel so fucking down when you’re not around. Your presence was what kept me alive. I miss you so much. Please come back ._.

1/12/2015 0 comment

I am MAD!!!

by Pretend Girl 1/11/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I am mad! Mad at my depression that interrupted my life, caused heartache and hurts. Separated me from my family for my emotional safety. I am mad at the counseling I had that went no where because I didn’t understand my emotional state of mind, 20 years later!

Over the years I had counseling, but they said counseling wasn’t about dredging up your past, it’s about moving forward! But if the unresolved thoughts and feelings aren’t examined, it IS what I needed/need.

I tell you I am also mad about how many people are affected this way- family of origin does harm and leaves the child to heal […]

1/11/2015 3 comments

Love yourself and hold on

by Pretend Girl 1/11/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I read the posts here and I feel so sad. So many people, so much sadness. I wish I could give each and every person a hug.

Let me say this… YOU are the most important person in your life. Please provide yourself with loving words, loving actions and hold on.

Take great care of you.

1/11/2015 0 comment

Each little thing helps!

by Pretend Girl 1/6/2015

written by Pretend Girl

Thet is hard to imagine, in the thick of a depressive moment that emotions can lift and the depression can leave. After years and y,ears dealing with my depression, I find this is all too true! But we must remember, esp in the middle of an episode that it can change and it can lift!

This morning started out rough, last night’s depression continued to linger. I HAD to go to work, I wanted to go to work, but my heart was really back in the muck. So much so that when a lady asked me for a ride, I was mad. Oye. Not like me. […]

1/6/2015 1 comment

It just seems so hopeless

by tinipie 1/6/2015

written by tinipie

I just had a friend tell me that it takes on average 3-6 months for someone to get a new job. I was fired on November 20th and have been on 11+ interviews with only one offer and it was for something I didn’t feel safe doing. I’m not even having the suicidal car crash fantasies but I ache right now. I see a therapist in about a week for an intake appointment and then maybe in a month I’d see a new psychiatrist for a med adjustment, but I know I need to go to the hospital. I just promised my husband that I’d […]

1/6/2015 5 comments

Thank you guys

by moonlitrose34 1/6/2015

written by moonlitrose34

Thank you guys so much for all your kind words and comments. And all of the people that have been talking to me. You guys really helped.

I just met with my therapist and it’s been decided that I should go to the hospital. I just wanted to let all the people that have been talking to know that. I don’t know if I can come here in the time that I’m at the hospital but I will post again when I’m out.

And bluerabbit, I can’t message you because I’m on my phone, but I just wanted to let you know that I’m fine, and we’ll […]

1/6/2015 16 comments

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