For your poems.
Petals turned from red to brown
Falling slowly to the ground
No one sheds a single tear
Hollow grave dug with fear
Skin so cold made of ice
Breath so empty what a price
A wilted rose will go with you
To show there love is always true
That a lot of you on here are absolutely amazing and talented people. I find it extremely strange that all of you have knack for stylistic writing. Have you seen how beautiful you write? The way you describe your shattered hopes and your distant dreams. It is so heartbreaking the way you guys describe it in an eerie yet beautiful poetic way. I think that you merely writing about how horrible and hard life has been is something that should help you persevere, as that is how I am beginning to feel. When you guys write on here, I can feel your pain, and it […]
I’ve been thinking recently, I could just die right now, it’s the most truthful thing I’ve said in a while. I’ve stopped eating, I’m throwing it all away… there’s starving people out there, why should I eat, when they have to wait… Everyday, I’m breaking apart it’s tearing out every trace of my heart. Do you feel this too? When doubt hits you hard… anyway, where should I start?
…she would like it very much to live in a printed world. Where everything is written out, where Fate is written out. Where a little girl, whose heart is lost, must only move through the magic in the letters. Where she can define her own character and is not forced into a mould of someone else’s ideas. She would like it very much to be written into a family’s Sunday supper, with good food set on the neatly pressed table cloth. She would like to hug her mother and father goodnight, and crawl between the covers of her little bed. She would like to sleep soundly at […]
Beauty.
in the eye
of the beholder.
no one is
holding me.
no beauty
for me.
turn on the light,
tell me what you see?
nothing beautiful at all.
i dont posses
that quality in me.
i cant change
how i look
how i sound
how i feel.
my life has
betrayed me.
i dont know
what to do.
Blue skies
and red ribbons
flowing freely
in the wind.
crimson waves
in the ocean
riding towards
the shore.
tears falling slowly
like marbles rolling.
the course of the
wind.
sobs.
coming from
the floors below.
i want to move,
but i cannot
it wont let me.
i see it now,
death invading,
i feel his thirst,
thirst for my blood.
There are no more tears to shed
How many goodbyes have i left unsaid?
Did it hurt to see me die?
I know it hurt to see you cry.
I didn’t mean to be so cruel.
I know i broke all your rules.
I wish i could be normal again.
I wish i didn’t have to pretend.
All the lies and underlying hate,
will still be with me at Hell’s gate.
The hate, not for you, but for me,
is the kind that kills, it killed me.
So you see, i killed myself,
It’s not your fault.
So don’t blame yourself, you did okay.
I didn’t tell anyone i felt this way.
You may have guessed but brushed it off.
Maybe you’ll be […]
Hello.
I think I’ll start with introducing myself so that, you know who I am and you won’t have to put it all together in confusion.
My name is James, but I like to be called Jamie. It’s more fitting and all of my friends call me that.
I’m 16 and enduring my Junior year of high school, Â so far the hardest year of my life.
There are many things that make me sad, which seems to be the case for most sincere people on this site, so I’ll just break my rant up into parts according to what’s going on.
My Brain
The thoughts that I have are so unorganized, […]
Lights off. Ears plugged. Doors locked. Notes placed. Water running. Blade cutting. Perfect. All according to plan.
Lights fading. Consciousness slipping. Room spinning. Parents sleeping. Blood pouring. Finally. Time to go.
No more. The End. Black. Infinite black. Peace. Calm. Eternity.
Then noise. Faint. Distant. A hum. A buzz. Audible only because it it the only sound in the beautiful void.
The hum won’t stop. Won’t go away. Won’t leave me alone. I have to find out what it is. What is it anyway!? Look around. Just black.
Wait, I didn’t look around. I couldn’t. There is only black. Maybe if I open my eyes. Then I could find the source […]
I HATE my life. That’s it. I spend all my time, hating my life. My kids, take turns BASHING and PUNISHING me. I am terminal anyway. It takes so much energy to HATE anything, or anyone for that matter. I know that someday I will be in Heaven with my Father. I can not believe that He Hath Forsaken me. I knew the consequences of coming back, I should not ever have come back. I HATE it here. I am so emotionally abused…and everyone sits around like that is an acceptable action ~ to be verbally, mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive. My son in LA, […]
Death is so tempting when I’m so tired of life.
The blood is so painless drawn by a knife.
Suicide is so innocent only thinking how I’d try.
This life is so lonely when I don’t let myself cry.
I long to be dead and never take another breath.
The thing that I fear is a life beyond death.
Kill me I beg you quick and painless
So I can leave this world soon and shameless.
I love my life, but I hate myself.
I hate that I’m […]
I’m saying no but how long for ?
I’m saying no but how long for Will it go before I give in Hold on hard to what is good Freedom from these thoughts These times that bind me Please stand before me I am a prisoner of my own mind As time has shown I am the jailer The keys hang on my belt The doors I can open with forgiveness Gates will be no match for my will Run free I could be happy in the wild If only I wasn’t a man of sin Alas my prison is not made of bars Nor steal […]
Sometimes all you need
Is a little light
A little laughter
A smile
A hug
Some chocolate (yes… chocolate is tasty)
It makes things not so bad
Not so dark
Sometimes all you need
Is a song to sing
A new song
One that can make you laugh
I got it today
So maybe
Maybe there is still hope
If there is hope
I can reach out to someone else
I can help someone else realize that it’s not over
It’s not about me anymore
It’s hard to be at home, when all my parents do lately is fight with eachother. Â It’s usually about money or dad misinterpreting mom’s expressions into anger, and then becoming angry himself. Â After which he tells her that she’s been angry lately, with an ‘I’m right’ tone, which she denies because she’s not, and then he keeps going at it. Â I try and intercede, telling him to stop, that he’s wrong, and just trying to get them to stop fighting. Â Then he yells at me, telling me to stay out of it. Â The dinner table turns into a bubble of silence, weighted by tension and […]
Well today’s the day. Sunday. The plan was to end my life tonight. Leaving a couple different notes addressed to different people. I’ve wanted to do this for a long time. Planning since the beginning of the school year, which started August 27, the day before my birthday. The plan was to wait until after my parents went to sleep, then go do it. My method is not the most preferred method out there, in fact many people hate it and think it’s like THE WORST one. But I have my reasons and I have tried twice before, failing obviously. Waking up in a hospital room surrounded […]
Once I was in the car looking out fot he window, and everything seemed to slow down. I saw a flock of three birds, all flying in perfect harmony, contrasting with the trees and the sky. It was the most beautiful thing.
My blood litters the bathroom floor;
Another fight with you,
Your up against the door,
Begging me not to do it,
Dont go away, you say,
Please stay.
I dont want to leave but I have to,
If I stay, one of us is sure to get hurt;
I hate seeing pain in your beautiful brown eyes,
So therefore I know it is me that has to die.
I’m leaving out the front door!
Your sitting on the couch,
Hoping for one last kiss,
But I know that if I give in now,
I wont be able to go,
You say ‘I love you babe’.
As one tear slowly runs down my face,
You say that we’ll get through this;
We alway do!
I love you babe!
I love you […]
You know.
You know what I did
What I’ve been through
And you know why I did it.
I told you, Daddy.
I though you understood
How much I needed you
But instead you threw me away
Again
Like a piece of trash.
Daddy don’t you realize?
It’s scary out here
I can only make it so far
I’m just a little girl in a grown woman’s body
And I long to be held by you
So
Don’t forget me
While you’re in that jail cell don’t forget me
The little girl who you abandoned all those years ago
The little girl who you abandoned in exchange for someone younger
Your granddaughter
I’m jealous of her, Daddy.
She gets all your attention.
You only talk to me
When you want me […]
When I die I’d like to be a dragonfly and then for once I’ll feel alive. But what if there’s nothing after death, I want to remember my final breath. What if you’re nothing, and everyone forgets, no one will notice… I’m gone again.
Just in case I die tomorrow, I’m going to live today.