For your poems.
I tried of everything.
Tried of losing my friends.
Tried of not being notice.
Tried of those who don’t understand.
Tried of trying to fit in.
I so tried, just I want it all to end.
But i going to live, because I tried of people who think I am not going to make it.
I’m NOT tried of proving them wrong.
found this poem online n made me think about a lot.
i thought i’ll share it with you guys.
 Razorblade
As the razorblade slides threw my pale skin,
the red, warm blodd starts to run down my arm.
It goes faster and faster.
The sut is so deep,
like it’s never been before.
The razorblade turns all red,
full of blood.
I know now theres no turning back.
The scare of my pain will always be there forever.
I’ll always have the memories.
I just had to let the pain go somehow.
This is the way I do.
Thoughts of suicide start to run threw […]
turning my pain into something creative, and made a music video. watch please.
You always hear people say that, “You’ll be accepted by being yourself,†right? Well,… IT’S WRONG!!! People would only accept you by being like everyone else. They always say that, you’re an anti-social freak or a messed up person am I wrong. Should we live up to other people’s expectation? Should they accept you by using you? Should you change yourself because you’re desperate to be accepted and to speak out on your own? That’s the quest/journey that I never accomplished from my life and still now. I do know that there are others that are doing the same. I understand. The confusion, the depression, […]
This song is called Sayoko it is about a girl who is suffering from depression the original song is japanese. Sayoko meening morning chil is about a girl who is tierd of her everday life thinking she is the worst as i do myself. Please enjoy this song it is if may call “my anthum”. ~Shiann sung by:_Miku-tan_ song:[English] Sayoko_____
Dont know what this day will take me ,Dont know if ill see that sunlight with the newyork lights for another day. After midnight everything is up to your dreams but what if the dream visions me not being able to sleep nor see. Maybe ill sit by the bridge waiting for my world to ended or maybe ill think of ending it standin on the edge prepare to die ..
kso i have my suicide letter ready but i cant go through with suicide. i cant. i dont want to leave my brother behind. he is alwasy with me. i cant even leave him for a night without feeling bad. but at the same time i want leave. i just dont know what to do.
It is not going to get better. It is actually going to get better and worse.  It is going to fluctuate like the temperature does during the year. Or the grades of a collection of students. Or the color of sky at dusk and dawn.Â
There are no guarantees. There is not a happily ever after. It does not work that way. Even if you expend 100% effort and 100% faith what you want still may not happen. Then again it may happen exactly as you choose. Or it may happen in a totally different fashion. The only thing you can do is keep going forward.
Acts […]
Tupac – Wonder Why They Call You *****
Inspired by the above:
Drowning in alcohol,
A man of no lord, no regard for toll,
No reason to live, a jilted soul,
She’s condemned him to a liquor prison,
To this poison of ethanol.
Drinking spirits,
Desperate to fill the void of an abyss within,
Sitting in the darkness of a cornered booth,
Why doesn’t he ever walk away,
Escape from the this cage of musk and sin?
The old me held on to hatred
The new me holds on to love
The old me would hurt others on a whim
The new me tries to help others whenever possible
The old me hated the world
The new me loves the world
The old me embraced the Darkness
The new me embraces the Light
The old me signed a contract with the Devil
The new me has given himself to Life
The old me thought that he was a god
The new me knows that he is a servant
The old me was a masochist
The new me is an optimistÂ
The old […]
Annihilate the silence
Initiate the violence
I won’t bow to my tyrants
Wake me up, pour me out,
My body succumbs to this fear and doubt
The warm froth of pain, bubbling from the recesses of my soul
I’ve made it to the river, now it’s time to pay the toll
Copper discs to cover my eyes,this journey now almost complete
The joy I emit, just a cloak of deceit
This is the end of the line
My sentence is up, I’ve served my time
Through the burning wreckage of defeat
I emerge to seek this release
Shadows fade into relief
As time passes so will the grief
Standing in the sun, absorbing timeless light
Waiting for the bell, to end […]
Born missing something in your brain. That piece that makes many crave attention and affection. When these things are offered you cringe in confusion. Knowing that others readily accept them but they seem rather uncomfortable. And you force yourself to act like you enjoy them because it makes others smile. One thing does touch you. The ones who are outsiders-ostracized-cast out-victims-pariahs. Their plight awakens an inner affinity.
Then there is the violation. Inall your collected data this only happens between adults. Between husband and wife. Between girlfriend and boyfriend. Not between adult and child. Not between two males. Deep down you know that this is monumentally worse […]
My sorrow lies here
Redemption through glue
The blue bear shivers
It’d be nice to end it. Quit everything. Abandon all connections. Why bother with anything when giving up is easier. Nothing to live for; everything to fight against. What can one person do against such recklessness.  If not yourself then find something to protect, 8532210.
as her mother looks into her eyes
she sees the pain she sees the hurt she knows her daughter needs help but doesnt know wat to do services has threatend to take her child away so now she is scared she wakes up the next morning finds a a trail of pills on the floor then an empy bottle lye next to the last pill as she walks into her daughters bedroom and finds another empty bottle of pills on her lamp platform she tries to wake her daughter as the EMT’s rush thru the house and back to the hospital screams are heard from the […]
I feel a deep love for Jasmine, a longing to show her I love her. I have gone past the sexual thoughts and I just want to hold her and kiss her. I was reading a sex story based on the Naruto show and how he pleased the women he seduced by treating them well. He showed them he would treat them right. I got teary eyed and my heart felt weird as I thought of Jasmine and as I think of it I get cold chills.Â
I love Jasmine so much. Is this not a feeling of love? Is this really purely a desire and […]
With this hatred I stand
with a razor in hand
To see my final plan through
I wish I could see
The pain in which you’ll be
When you see that I’m through
The day has gone by
And now I will die
With your picture in my hand
But don’t think I’ll rest
It was not meant for us to last
But I’ll be sure to haunt you in your dreams
You’ll think of days that went by
Without a tear in your eye
And hope that theyll come back
But you know in your heart
That black hole of remorse
That you’ll never be […]
Never once before had the thought occurred to me that getting help was so scary. Everyone says it’ll be okay, but it really never will be. Something’s always going to be wrong, life isn’t going to be perfect, if it could be perfect just for one day, I would be fine, but eventually I’d have to remember, you can’t just forget about something and never think back to it again.. Nothing will ever be okay…
This quote is in several articles online about happiness.
“First, your brain adjusts feelings of happiness downward after you’ve reached some goal or other. It regulates the good feelings, presumably so that you have motivation to reach the next goal instead of just lounging by the pool for the rest of your days. “
Which can sort of be related to the Matrix quote
Agent Smith: “Did you know that the first Matrix was designed to be a perfect human world? Where none suffered, where everyone would be happy. It was a disaster. No one would accept the program. Entire crops were lost. Some believed we lacked the programming […]
I have no emotions. Just chemical reactions in my brain and body acting and reacting to internal/external stimuli and previous experiences.
I have no consciousness.  Just bioelectric and biochemical activity that gives the perception of self awareness.
I have no desire. Just instinct honed by evolution for the species to survive as a whole and for as many individuals as possible to pass on their genetic blueprints.
I have no family or friends. Just other creatures with whom cooperating in a certain timeframe is more beneficial than trying to compete for resources.
I have no importance or purpose. Just another member of an animal species hardwired to compete for resources […]
So called fathers be a man and appreciate your sons or daughters..to me you aint even a dad your dead to me you could drop low and it wont mean shit to me. Iwasnt shit to you talking about how I cant be nothing, icant do nothing and way more, even hit me at a young age but not now cuz you know I aint afraid of you ill kill you you baster, so for those who have a real good father appreciate it !
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