He reconciled with me went for counselling with me while his restraining order was still on. He broke that and also moved in with me. He asked me to lie in the court so he could not have a record. I did that and the day judgment came out: all charges withdrawn, he left me.
So distraught over this. What am i suppose to do?
Firstly. I need love. I have loads of them, but I don’t feel that people wants it from me… I think I don’t fit their standards. And I’m afraid to approach them. Like you know.. being approached by someone you don’t want to is irritating, and I don’t want them to feel that way. I can’t expressed it. And it’s so hurting me. Seriously though. Guys, do you wait for girls to react?
I need your opinion.. I can’t stand this idleness no more. Please please reply…
I’m tired of life. Tired of obligations, tired of this world with its rules, its human society. I made a lot of mistakes in my life. And wasted a lot of chances to become successful or to fulfill my dreams. I regret a lot. Yea, if only I could revert time back, while keeping my current memory, lol.
Sure, reverting time would be great. But I don’t really care about all this now. The only things that keep me going these days are my hobbies. And my mom. She did really a lot for me. But I’m tired, I really am.
Almost every night I go to […]
Hey there, Basically I’m 18 dropped out of school. Ive been facing mental health problems since i was 15 and tried to take my own life. I was hospitalised this year for 9 weeks and then a day patient for 6 weeks after. Im no better and I’ve the doctors have decided to stop treating me as they don’t know whats wrong. anyhow due to this fact that i can’t be helped and my lack of future and many many other things I’ve decided that tonight I’m going to take my own life.
does anybody have any tips on like is there anyway i can make […]
Wondering starting to date again… I like one girl more then the others she is cute and sweet. She is originally from the country that I moved too 6 years ago. But also lived in the east and southern of Europe.
She is 8 years older then me. I don’t mind. I actually quite like it as I would like children and I think she would want them too. I wonder though if it is a wise step.. in the longer run for my happiness if that path were to happen….
we click really well so I do not really for see problems in that […]
The Earth is a beautiful place made to be walked by beautiful creatures. All around me I see ugliness, myself included. Laws should be introduced banning the ugly from showing their faces in public places. Separate areas should be made for ugly people and beautiful people, seperate schools, separate shops, separate bars. Ugly people should be banned from having children so that in future generations the ugly genes may be eliminated.
Hello fellow humanoids,
I am new here, this is my first post, feedback is appreciated.
Recently while delving into the depths of internet suicide material, I came accross a few mentions of how suicide is a very selfish way to die. This rather annoyed me as, on the contrary, I find it a very unselfish, noble way to die. Surely one has a right to be selfish with ones own life? Surely it is those who preach this that are being selfish? They ask us to remain trapped in these useless lives, suffering everyday, just so they dont have to deal with our deaths.
I […]
I am a girl in high school. I don’t have a lot of friends and recently I quarreled with my so-called best friend. I used to have lunch and go back home with her every day. Now that we have had a fight, we no longer talk. I need to ask someone else to go back home and have lunch with me every single day. I feel like I am bringing troubles to people. I feel like they are just too nice so they wouldn’t refuse me even though they really think that I am annoying. I don’t dare talking to my so-called friends about […]
I will start out with saying that I am only alive today out of spite. I have had family and friends who have tried to destroy me, and failed. I have fought to stay alive, and I have had nothing handed to me. I learned how to program, how to make more money in a month than many people see in a year, graduated high school, and survived multiple hospitalizations for various things, none of them being psychiatric. I have only lived this long because I had decided that everyone who had tried to hurt me had been my enemies, and that the greatest suffering […]
I have a sweet tooth.
Days can pass and I won’t be hungry, won’t eat, but the second someone offers me something sweet- or if I find it myself- the fast is broken; it can be an apple, a piece of candy, grapes, ice cream. Anything.
But why? Who cares?
The reason is old and sad (or pathetic, if that’s how you want to see it).
We’re not rich. We usually don’t have a lot of food.
When I was younger, we still didn’t have much to eat, but we rarely got anything sugary (or fruits, because parents just went and bought fast food for the starving masses).
Depression has literally ruined my life. My mom doesn’t accept me because of my behavior so I got moved away for my only biological family (my sister) and moved to my dads, which his girlfriend doesn’t accept me because of my behavior and the fact that my dad goes out of his way to help benefit me so that I don’t jump off his balcony. I was a straight A B C student till around 7th grade I lost all motivation but somehow made it to 9th grade and completely failed because I stayed in the bathroom due to the fact that I hated going […]
Gosh, this feels weird. My first time openly admitting to my depression albeit it being anonymous… it’s a start right? I am going to rant about a lot of things. It’s your chance to runaway and I’ve never done this before so please pardon me if it’s wrong in any way.
Carying on, what has led you to this may you ask? Well, good fellow, I had a break down today. Being hit with the gobsmacking truth of my morality and my complete utter hatred for life was a fine combination for a mental breakdown. I absolutely positively despise the people around me. Family for one […]
This isn’t exactly a story about an attempted suicide or a failed suicide attempt. I have not experiences none of them but I’m in current fear that I might e sharing my own story of a failed attempt soon – or not.
I have never been diagnosed with depression but I started to self harm 2 years ago. I stopped last year because I told my family (a stupid mistake if I have to be honest) but sine November, I began to feel a bit bad and sad and yeah. By January, I had written that I was suicidal and that I hated life.
I mean, I […]
Hi. I am new to posting on here but have been reading this website for a while now. I am planning on taking my life and wanted to share the reason why.
I truly am an awful, despicable person who does not deserve to live. I lie through my teeth to get what I want. I stole over 5 thousand pounds from the company which I worked for who always treated me with the greatest respect and when they found out they should have called the police and have me arrested for stealing and fraud but instead they only dismissed me.
I ruined the greatest relationship in […]
You know, it’s kind of sick how I predicted my own death.
I knew this year would be the end of me.
Acceptance letters already went out and rejection letters are just starting to come out.
I haven’t received one acceptance letter.
I know the program I applied to ran out of space.
I already know what the generic email will say.
I know it’s all over.
I’ve already come to terms with death. And yes, I know how selfish this all is. I know some depend on me. I know I have responsibilities.
But my suicide is long overdue. I held on to hope, and I have failed […]
It’s hard for me to put into words the way I feel. I call it my black cloud. The feeling of loneliness overwhelms me every day… I’m almost more comfortable this way. Its scary to admit that this “black cloud” is actually depression… It takes more of me every single day. I guess my question is when will it end? When will it completely consume me?
The words you say to me. The words you say behind my back. “Don’t tell her anything she might kill herself.” You saying in front of everyone. They laugh. Why would they care anyways? It’s not like I was ever their friend. But to the girl that said that I was. I was her friend. And I thought I was being a good friend by telling her the truth. But I guess I was wrong… next class I have people laughing at me. Saying stuff about me because I was trying to help out a “friend”. My real friends say with me and said it […]
I’ve been researching different methods of committing suicide and as I’m reading through all of these, tempted as hell, I just can’t help but think that with my shitty luck, I won’t even be able to successfully commit suicide because something is going to go wrong and I’m just going end up with permanent brain damage or something. Does anyone else feel this way? I’ve been depressed on and off since I was about 14. I’m 21 now and have decided on using an exit bag, but have read about so many failed attempts with one on this forum and now I don’t know what […]
Hi you could say Im new but not to depression, psychosis and anxiety and loneliness. Ive had it all my life dont know where it comes from, my mum and dad are normal, my bro has a bit of psychosis/anxiety but i think mines worse. I have paranoid thoughts (delusions) like im the only real person and im being watched/judged even for example scared of expressing myself like answering simple questions like what kinda music do you like, i say i dunno. Or ordering something at a restaurant or food place i feel judged for what i order or even say like they know what […]
Here’s the thing:
I’m not actually afraid of death.
I’m afraid of what comes after. Like where our souls go.
Now if i knew exactly what happened after we died, then I go and jump right in front of a car right this second.
I’d do anything to not exist if I knew.
Here’s the other thing:
If death was sort of like a test run life if I could kill myself and see how everyone would react and see what would happen and then decided whether I actually want to die or not (and if I didn’t want to die I’d wake up in a […]
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