I seem like I’m bulletproof, and no amount of lead from their mouths will ever hurt me. But what’s on the outside isn’t what matters to me, my insides take their words, and accepts them, because I am them.
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Stories of Hope
The moon is the closest to Earth than it’s been in 69 years and we’re further away than we’ve ever been. I would have liked to of held your hand and watched the sunset and moon-rise together like we used to. I keep trying to talk to new people, but I feel out of place. I feel like my heart still belongs to you even if you have turned me away already. I know you aren’t thinking of me anymore, but I hope you find happiness. I’m trying.. at least for tonight I can lie with Luna.
Hello, it has been 2 years since the last time I’ve been on here. Things have changed. I often find myself wondering if the same people who were here when i first started are still alive or if their lives have gotten better. I hope so. I hope that they’re enjoying life as much as they can like i am.
I want to be honest, the first time i came across this place i was around 13-14 years old and googling suicide methods. Instead of finding ways to end my life this place helped me find ways to cope and keep on living. I am 18 years […]
I have all the money!!! Oh boy, I’m so excited but at the same time scared!!
What do I do? Is this the right thing to do?
No, I don’t have time to think about it, I’ll finally have my uniform.
But I’m still scared. What if it doesn’t arrive? What if it doesn’t fit me? What if I’m not worthy enough?
I can’t stop to think, I need to act!!
I’m so close to have all the money I need to buy the uniform. I’m starting to feel weird, like happy but also kind of sad. Bittersweet feelings, because once I have it, I’ll die.
Just a week, just a week away.
I’m so excited.
Nobody notices what’s happening, and I’m so glad.
I’ll finally be who I wanted to be. I’ll finally be who I’ve always dreamed of being. I’ll finally be free!
I’m 17. I can hear too many things going on in my head but at the same time I feel blank. I love life but I hate life. Everything is so confusing and I feel a lump in my throat when I try to explain what I really want, so I thought I’d type it.
I don’t want the life that everyone is told to follow. Working behind a desk, getting large sums of money for rotting away in a grey, dull workplace and consistently working for a force that marginalises freedom. I want freedom. I just wish I could run through endless green fields that […]
As I am typing this, I am on the verge of ending my life. I have never ever been this depressed since my grandfather died. I don’t know why I did it. I know that I should’ve not done it. Because of this, everything was taken from me. The fame, the sports, the hobbies, the clothing, etc. I don’t know why I even exist anymore. There is my dad who calls me names that I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore. He said so much bad things to me that I couldn’t even stand up to myself. My mom was in shock of why […]
I hate reality ! reality is boring ! Doctor Strange , Marvel MCU , Avengers , Sword Art Online , Virtual Reality , games , movies , novels , anime manga , comics is better than reality !
by niki
written by niki
I hate reality ! reality is boring !
Doctor Strange is better than reality !
Marvel MCU (Marvel Cinematic Universe) is better than reality !
Avengers is better than real world !
Sword Art Online is better than real life !
Virtual Reality is better than boring reality !
video games is better than reality real life real world !
movies is better than real-world real-life reality !
novels is better than real-life real-world reality !
anime manga is better than boring real life real world reality !
comics is better than boring real world real life reality !
Why Human’s Imagination is much better than […]
My friend had to talk me out of suicide last night. This is the 4th time this month. I love him so much and I don’t want to hurt him. He have saved me so many times and if I left that would be wasted time for him. He lives in Arizona and I’m from Illinois and I really want to meet him, I need to.
She’s so beautiful and nice!! She even talked to me and also helped me when I asked for directions.
She’s so nice, she even recognized me from my classes (not uni classes, other classes)
She promised me she will be back next semester
I look forward to seeing her, maybe I can be her friend
I have seen you pop up in the community in the last few days and I just want to say you are not alone. Everyone on this site knows what its like to hurt. You are not alone.
You keep asking for a reason to live, but life is not that simple. There are things in my life that I love and cherish and things I give no value to. I love my GF and my laptop, I don’t love my clothes, if I lose them I can just get more clothes. I cannot replace my GF. So she gives my life meaning, I fight everyday […]
I discovered this site today, while distracting my pain away.
So much suffering I see- so many souls yearning to be free.
But in the responses of support and love, there is beauty that goes far above.
Raw passion so seldom seen, in those content to live their lives by default alone with fake friends, entertained by a screen.
Perhaps our darkest sides show us who we really are. Desperate for love, meaning, and peace, we try so damned hard.
I know none of you by name, personality or career. But I’m sure I share much of your pain, suffering and fears.
I do not think we are losers, scum or leeches; […]
Recently my therapist proscribed me Effexer for my depression and anxiety but it seems like it made it a bit worse? I’ve been feeling extremely nauseous after taking the pill, my heart rate picks up for no reason (I’m wondering if it’s just me having some sort of anxiety attack or it’s the pill?), I’ve felt weak and I’m trembling randomly. Anyone else have those symptoms while on this medication??? I just started it two days ago so maybe my body’s adjusting?
Hey it’s “T”.
You may have read my post about having everything prepared to commit suicide by helium asphixation. Of course it got deleted after a while.
Some of you have really inspired me to not commit suicide (thanks for that). I mainly didn’t do it because of my family. I am still fighting every day but i’ve decided to postpone my suicide indefinitely.
In case things won’t work and if fail I always got the possibility to end my life if I wish so.
I hope you all gonna have a lovely day.
i want to die, but im scared to.
everything in my life is crashing and i cant take it anymore, i know my research
and im getting rope to hang myself
im doing long drop but with the knot infront to snap my neck… everythings crashed friday
and yeh it mightve gotten better but i cant bare the pain inside my head
im gonna ask for 20$ then go to the store and buy the rope. wait till im alone leave my note climb a tree and die
thats my plan with suicide im done with this world… i cant do anything right and im […]
It’s been about a year or so since I was here but something tells me it’s time to come back for a bit. I want to be here to be a lifeline for somebody. I used to receive emails from around the world and hear amazing stories. I had to step away for a while to catch my own breath but I like to hear from you guys.
I don’t consider myself suicidal at the moment although I have cut before and sometimes think about the silence of death as peaceful. I probably stand out a little in that I see death I’d say at least […]
My therapist told me that that I’m tired of fighting because my life doesn’t seem to change. My efforts are useless.
Hi. You can call me M.
I just joined hoping to find some light in this dark, dark place my head is going through.
I just stopped reading about suicide methods. Even though I’m tempted, I believe that if I’m here, it means that I have a tiny desire to live…
Life hit me hard for the first time six year ago, when I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis. This brought pain, to me, like no other.
It randomly decides to wake up and f**k up my life. When […]
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Remember I said I had a contest I wanted to participate in? Well, it took place last weekend and… I won 2nd place!! First place was given to the principal of my language school (lol, he always wins first place no matter how terrible he sings, I think it is for political reasons…). But everybody knows first place is always for the principal, so they congratulated me because they believe I’m the real winner!! I received a lot of prices and compliments from a lot of people (except my parents, they looked kind of digusted with my happiness, but I couldn’t care less at that […]
So over the past month i found myself get worse and worse & decided to post on here for help and attention. I got over 10 emails from fellow users of this site and i couldnt be happier.
I am overwhelmed with how many people took the time to give a shit about me. Unfortunately it felt very repetitive having to explain myself multiple times and honestly just took the life out of me. Sorry to everyone i didnt reply back to. Im very very appreciative of the effort you all went through.
If you are reading this and feel alone or out of your depths […]