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I Feel Like Dreaming While I’m Awake, But Awake and Comfortable While Asleep… What is This?

by SumTimesIWonder
written by SumTimesIWonder

I re-read this comment I made while replying to The Last Snorlax on another post, and suddenly realized how much sense it made. And just like that, Sala Samobójców (aka. Suicide Room, 2011) came to mind, not sure why. Can you help me reason this? I mean the lyrics and theme don’t really match my below thought, yet somehow… it jives.

It’s like a constant period of hibernation for me sometimes… You sleep and while you do, you can actually “feel” how good it is. Then waking up. Functioning. Eating. Transportation. It all feels secondary. Like a dream of reality while the real you waits to […]

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Do You Ever Go to Bed, Sleep For Hours, and Wake Up as If You’d Only Blinked?

by SumTimesIWonder
written by SumTimesIWonder

It’s strange sometimes. How you can go to bed with a thought, a feeling, a sensation of sorts, and then you fall asleep for a few hours, 9 hours, or more… Yet as soon as you open your eyes it instantly is all there. The same thought, feeling, sensation, as if you only blinked while in the middle of a thought.  That’s how I went to bed last night. And it’s how I woke up today. The looping paragraph of the lyrics resounding in my mind:

“‘Cause with all the changes you’ve been through, it seems the stranger’s always you…”

Please enjoy “Wicked Little Town” (2001, the […]

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Hello! New-ish here… Do You Ever Wonder?

by SumTimesIWonder
written by SumTimesIWonder

Actually, I’ve been a lurker for the longest time. On and off. Never posted before though. I don’t think I’ve ever been actually the text book definition of suicidal, but I wonder about death (and life) a lot. The last time I had been on here was about 2 years ago. So today when I came across this video, I surprised myself to suddenly find that my very first thought was to share it here on TSP.

So HELLO SPians, and here’s to life and death, our favorite oil-and-water odd couple…

Enjoy CREEP (Radiohead, 1992), performed by this raspy and wholehearted former street performer, “Mustard” (aka. Danny […]

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Last Hope Vanished – I was Born, Shaped, and MOLDED by the DARK!!!

by silverComplex
written by silverComplex

I was doing Carbon Monoxide in a sealed tent underground… I was just passing out and I crawled out and realized looking at the sunset… I want to live as much as I want to die… In other words, when life gets fucking hard I want to die as much I want to fucking live!! I fucking screamed and broke down. Every muscle in me was aching was saying what’s the point? Every muscle in my fucking body was telling me to stop. Every in me was telling me to stop and give up. And I said I can fucking do it… I know there is […]

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i wish harry potter was real , i wish fantastic beasts were real , i wish magic was real , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

by niki
written by niki

i wish harry potter was real really exist , i wish fantastic beasts were real really exist , i wish magic was real really exist , i wish magic really exist , i wish wizards were real really exist

because reality is boring , mundane , and limiting limited
because real world is boring , mundane , and limited limiting
because real life is boring , mundane , & limited limiting !

reality is all about MONEY !
real-life is all about Money !
real-world is all about Money !

Life is boring , mundane ,
movies is better than reality real life real world !
novels is […]

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Outside

by K.y.l.e
written by K.y.l.e

I seem like I’m bulletproof, and no amount of lead from their mouths will ever hurt me. But what’s on the outside isn’t what matters to me, my insides take their words, and accepts them, because I am them.

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Luna

by EyeOfHorus
written by EyeOfHorus

The moon is the closest to Earth than it’s been in 69 years and we’re further away than we’ve ever been. I would have liked to of held your hand and watched the sunset and moon-rise together like we used to. I keep trying to talk to new people, but I feel out of place. I feel like my heart still belongs to you even if you have turned me away already. I know you aren’t thinking of me anymore, but I hope you find happiness. I’m trying.. at least for tonight I can lie with Luna.

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I am alive because of you

by silent survivor
written by silent survivor

Hello, it has been 2 years since the last time I’ve been on here. Things have changed. I often find myself wondering if the same people who were here when i first started are still alive or if their lives have gotten better. I hope so. I hope that they’re enjoying life as much as they can like i am.

I want to be honest, the first time i came across this place i was  around 13-14 years old and googling suicide methods. Instead of finding ways to end my life this place helped me find ways to cope and keep on living. I am 18 years […]

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Finally

by kamidaka
written by kamidaka

I have all the money!!! Oh boy, I’m so excited but at the same time scared!!

What do I do? Is this the right thing to do?

No, I don’t have time to think about it, I’ll finally have my uniform.

But I’m still scared. What if it doesn’t arrive? What if it doesn’t fit me? What if I’m not worthy enough?

I can’t stop to think, I need to act!!

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So close

by kamidaka
written by kamidaka

I’m so close to have all the money I need to buy the uniform. I’m starting to feel weird, like happy but also kind of sad. Bittersweet feelings, because once I have it, I’ll die.

Just a week, just a week away.

I’m so excited.

Nobody notices what’s happening, and I’m so glad.

I’ll finally be who I wanted to be. I’ll finally be who I’ve always dreamed of being. I’ll finally be free!

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I’m weak, and I’m finally admitting it

by orange-juice
written by orange-juice

I’m 17. I can hear too many things going on in my head but at the same time I feel blank. I love life but I hate life. Everything is so confusing and I feel a lump in my throat when I try to explain what I really want, so I thought I’d type it.

I don’t want the life that everyone is told to follow. Working behind a desk, getting large sums of money for rotting away in a grey, dull workplace and consistently working for a force that marginalises freedom. I want freedom. I just wish I could run through endless green fields that […]

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I don’t know what to live for anymore

by Kingdaka
written by Kingdaka

As I am typing this, I am on the verge of ending my life. I have never ever been this depressed since my grandfather died. I don’t know why I did it. I know that I should’ve not done it. Because of this, everything was taken from me. The fame, the sports, the hobbies, the clothing, etc. I don’t know why I even exist anymore. There is my dad who calls me names that I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore. He said so much bad things to me that I couldn’t even stand up to myself. My mom was in shock of why […]

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I hate reality ! reality is boring ! Doctor Strange , Marvel MCU , Avengers , Sword Art Online , Virtual Reality , games , movies , novels , anime manga , comics is better than reality !

by niki
written by niki

I hate reality ! reality is boring !

Doctor Strange is better than reality !
Marvel MCU (Marvel Cinematic Universe) is better than reality !
Avengers is better than real world !
Sword Art Online is better than real life !
Virtual Reality is better than boring reality !
video games is better than reality real life real world !
movies is better than real-world real-life reality !
novels is better than real-life real-world reality !
anime manga is better than boring real life real world reality !
comics is better than boring real world real life reality !

Why Human’s Imagination is much better than […]

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Bran

by poetontheedge
written by poetontheedge

My friend had to talk me out of suicide last night. This is the 4th time this month. I love him so much and I don’t want to hurt him. He have saved me so many times and if I left that would be wasted time for him. He lives in Arizona and I’m from Illinois and I really want to meet him, I need to.

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I met a girl

by kamidaka
written by kamidaka

She’s so beautiful and nice!! She even talked to me and also helped me when I asked for directions.

She’s so nice, she even recognized me from my classes (not uni classes, other classes)

She promised me she will be back next semester

I look forward to seeing her, maybe I can be her friend

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Message to kissy_93

by RuinsOfTheVoid
written by RuinsOfTheVoid

I have seen you pop up in the community in the last few days and I just want to say you are not alone. Everyone on this site knows what its like to hurt. You are not alone.

You keep asking for a reason to live, but life is not that simple. There are things in my life that I love and cherish and things I give no value to. I love my GF and my laptop, I don’t love my clothes, if I lose them I can just get more clothes. I cannot replace my GF. So she gives my life meaning, I fight everyday […]

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The Light Side of Darkness

by lostsouloflight
written by lostsouloflight

I discovered this site today, while distracting my pain away.

So much suffering I see- so many souls yearning to be free.

But in the responses of support and love, there is beauty that goes far above.

Raw passion so seldom seen, in those content to live their lives by default alone with fake friends, entertained by a screen.

Perhaps our darkest sides show us who we really are. Desperate for love, meaning, and peace, we try so damned hard.

I know none of you by name, personality or career. But I’m sure I share much of your pain, suffering and fears.

I do not think we are losers, scum or leeches; […]

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Anyone Else On Or Ever Took Effexor?

by GerbzBaby
written by GerbzBaby

Recently my therapist proscribed me Effexer for my depression and anxiety but it seems like it made it a bit worse? I’ve been feeling extremely nauseous after taking the pill, my heart rate picks up for no reason (I’m wondering if it’s just me having some sort of anxiety attack or it’s the pill?), I’ve felt weak and I’m trembling randomly. Anyone else have those symptoms while on this medication??? I just started it two days ago so maybe my body’s adjusting?

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Changed my mind (for the moment)

by user4587
written by user4587

Hey it’s “T”.

You may have read my post about having everything prepared to commit suicide by helium asphixation. Of course it got deleted after a while.

Some of you have really inspired me to not commit suicide (thanks for that). I mainly didn’t do it because of my family. I am still fighting every day but i’ve decided to postpone my suicide indefinitely.

In case things won’t work and if fail I always got the possibility to end my life if I wish so.

I hope you all gonna have a lovely day.

 

 

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Suicide Or Life

by dyinglostgirl
written by dyinglostgirl

i want to die, but im scared to.
everything in my life is crashing and i cant take it anymore, i know my research
and im getting rope to hang myself
im doing long drop but with the knot infront to snap my neck… everythings crashed friday
and yeh it mightve gotten better but i cant bare the pain inside my head
im gonna ask for 20$ then go to the store and buy the rope. wait till im alone leave my note climb a tree and die
thats my plan with suicide im done with this world… i cant do anything right and im […]

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