For those who have passed on.
“Why do you love me?” I ask him.
“I, I don’t know I just do.” He reply’s while staring at his phone, and ignoring me.
I guess he didn’t really love me, because a week later I saw a text pop up on his phone.
It said everything I needed to know to prove he didn’t love me.
I don’t know if it was me today or my other friend but the conversation wasn’t like any others we had before. It was awkward, I was lost most of the time.. And I felt like he didn’t want me talking to him or wanted me to come visit him. It was horrible. I ended up crying and driving around for a half hour thinking about it, every detail, every feeling, every everything about it. It made me feel like shit. I didn’t want to drive home… If I drove away I would have never came back.. its like every time I talk with him, […]
Okay, now I need to let all this out.
I don’t even know why I’m here. Each day its getting worse and honestly I couldn’t ask for anything worse like ughh, I honestly don’t know how to describe it. Each morning I wake up, wishing that I could die and reborn as someone else, someone better or something. I can’t cope with my lifestyle, I can’t my bare anything at the moment. I have SO MUCH to let out yet I don’t know how, I want to SCREAM, CRY AND LET IT ALL OUT. But I still don’t know, I’ve been staring the screen for minutes […]
Well here it goes first time posting anything but I’m 19 been depressed since I was 10 at the age 14 that’s when I first attempted suicide I took all of my moms pills my childhood friend saved me called the paramedics but I was oblivious to this because I was gone but I had to stay in the hospital for two weeks I never got any visitors I’ve been alone all my life had a rough childhood I was abused by everyone so I became to think it was normal growing up so I did what was done to me to other people because […]
I don’t know who I am today. I know who I use to be. I miss her. Her smile and determination. Her drive and passion. She was unchained. Unbound. Lust filled but just enough to reach the brim of her being. She use to have sex with strangers and kiss them goodbye like a long sentence spoken in one breath. And despite that she was classy with a twist. No one could tell her how to live. Her eyes filled with energy that radiated to those around her. Her heart attracting those who needed a little adventure and a lot of acceptance of things they […]
In my long 19 years of life I’ve had 3 unsuccessful suicide attempts. After the 3rd time I was convinced I was indestructible. Im stuck in a world I don’t want to be a part of. It sucks to be a woman in a world like this.. You are viewed as a sex object no matter how high up in the social ladder u are. It sucks even more when u recognize the game players play. I SEE IT. This is why I’m alone..I don’t want to be a piece of meat to some piece of shit. I remember when I stopped loving myself 2 […]
So, im 15 i know im young but, i just need some answers. I’ve been wanting to kill myself since i was around 10. i’ve really lost all the people i care for and ive had a crappy life.
My little brother told me to kill myself already. So, did my bestfriend/ex he also told me to kill myself too. My parents arent the worse but, they arent the best too. My biological father lives god knows where now, and is good for nothing. My mother is always stressed out and snaps at me alot. My step father was abusive but, has changed his ways… hes […]
After 4 days of pure hell on earth I quit taking my meds. Before you all freak out here’s what I have to say. I was only on the lowest dose of Effexor for only 4 days ( as I stated above) when I called it quits (which would be today). So it’s not like they bumped me up to the highest dosage possible and I just said “screw it I’m not going to take it.” (I know the risks of suddenly stopping when you take higher dosages of meds). I’m not taking it anymore because of a horrible side effect I got from it, nausea. […]
My brother, Matthew, committed suicide a little over 3 years ago and I am so broken from it. He was severely depressed and I never understood – I wasnt as compassionate as I should have been when he was alive. I feel that all of his pain and suffering has just flown into me – I am so unhappy but no one knows. I put on such a front and pretend I’m fine to my family – particularly because I know what Matts death has done to them and I’m all they have left. My heart feels so heavy all of the time, I feel […]
Junk fucked grunge and grime and became punk in time followed by this dope laced rhyme is blue lips and rolled back eyes with a rope tied tight you might find the right side of life when every body is done crying at your funeral they go back home and do the same thing as you but they don’t understand the point of view you had and why you choose to tie ropes to rocks and throw those hopes over the beam tied real tight so you could kick the chair from under your feet in the same place under that bridge you used […]
Spent my last $20 of the next to the last paycheck I’ll ever see in my life on food for him and then he got super pissed off at me because we got caught in the rain and got drenched, then I got on the bus while he was in the middle of playing his game but my back was killing me and there were homeless people camped out at the bus stop and wouldn’t let me sit down and I have a disability with my back and I can’t just stand all day because everyone else has a reason why they deserve the seat […]
You said you’d never leave me.
You said you’d stay by my side forever.
You said you’d always hold me tight.
You said you’d go through anything with me.
You said you’d never let me go.
You said you’d never forget me.
You said you loved me.
You liar.
i want to die, but im scared to.
everything in my life is crashing and i cant take it anymore, i know my research
and im getting rope to hang myself
im doing long drop but with the knot infront to snap my neck… everythings crashed friday
and yeh it mightve gotten better but i cant bare the pain inside my head
im gonna ask for 20$ then go to the store and buy the rope. wait till im alone leave my note climb a tree and die
thats my plan with suicide im done with this world… i cant do anything right and im […]
I have a feeling that no one will read this but I need to be able to talk to someone. When I was about 3 my dad went away to jail, so my mom remarried and I had a stepdad. I had already been exposed to sex, because my mom had gotten raped a lot at the time. So my stepdad raped me beat me, and today I’m really messed up because of that. My mom and stepdad told me to shop lift, made me look at pornography and I hated it. Today I wake up afraid that my stepdad will find me and kill […]
My Boyfriend Recently Broke Up With Me Because His Parents Forced Him To. I Try To Talk To My Friends On XboxLIVE. But I Still Have Xbox360. They Have XboxOne… They Mean So Much To Me. We Were Actually Planning On Living Together Along With My Boyfriend. Yeah I Met Them Online Gaming… But I Met My BF In Person.. Best Day Ever. My Other Friend Not Yet But Soon.
Now…….. I Feel Like Everything’s Falling Apart. And I Don’t Know What To Do Or Who To Turn To… I Used To Be A Cutter… But I Stopped For My Friends. Because I Know They […]
Every time me and my friend meet up to talk after work someone he knows shows up. He leaves me, whether I’m right beside him, in his car, etc. He doesn’t come back until the ones working decide they need to go fearing they’d get introuble. I can’t talk to his friends. They give me an odd vibe, I’ve tried to talk with them but they don’t seem to like me. I’m an idiot when I talk so now I just shut myself up.
He comes back and apologizes, “are you mad at me because I left you?” Of fucking course I am.. But I didn’t […]
The reason I’m here is from the mindless browsing that I randomly find myself doing at the oddest of times. In just a few minutes I can feel the trembling hands the shaking voices the ones who just can’t cry anymore or are still shedding these tears. Its depressing to see many of us in despair but I find some kind of solace knowing I’m not alone on the bridge.
I’m 21 years old and for this past year I feel like I’ve been sitting on a bench in purgatory for the longest. In this year my losses are not even comparable to most people but […]
I can’t keep going on like this. I feel so unappreciated. I feel so lonely. I need help but no one doesn’t want to take time out of their day to help me.. All they do is worry about themselves. They care little for those like me who are suffering.. I thought I was getting better when in all actuality I’m just getting worse. I’m so sleep deprived. Working just makes everything worse. As I’m sitting here on my break all I can think about is suicide. I feel that will be the only way to release me from my suffering. I can’t […]
I once had a shirt that said “if you’re looking for a sign not to commit suicide this is it” and it honestly made me really happy to have. It cheered me up a lot, some how making me feel better about life. But it was stolen from me and it crushed me and made me really sad and depressed. Pathetic huh?
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