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Being a Knite

by Shadowknite
written by Shadowknite

My favorite thing in the world is being there for someone like us. I am 17, a junior in HS, and I have 7 MS girls who are just like me. Cutters, suicidals. I can only help so much. Today, to get one to stop, I put my blade to my arm, on a line I have thinned out from my elbow to wrist, just in case I ever need to do it. It’s a pain to watch them worry, but a relief to watch them stop. I’ve gone back to cutting, though. What gives me the right to stop others when I can’t stop […]

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Feel like an ice cube

by ni84
written by ni84

Suicide seemed like such a good idea.

Rationalized it with images of my family skipping happily into the future and my partner moving on.

Wrong, my family  and my partner are tense and angry. They want to help but they are so mad at me and don’t know how to.

Can’t explain what prompted to attempt it. I have no idea whether I wanted to die or just stop the fears, the doubts and the self loathing.

And now after 2 days, I’m still in hospital waiting for my kidney function to return to normal  and the drugs to pass

I still feel untethered to this world. No one […]

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Failed attempt. Why?!

by bipolar_and_never_enough
written by bipolar_and_never_enough

I tried hanging myself with a shoelace just now. I wasn’t off the ground, it was tied around my door handle and the other end my neck while I sat on the ground. I’ve even seen a successful video on this being done and I don’t understand why mine wasn’t successful. Anyway, I could barely breathe and I could feel myself getting lightheaded and my ears even felt weird like almost numb, but I sat there for a very long ass time and did not pass out or die. Wth! Can anyone explain why this could have failed? It was not bc I didn’t wait […]

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Sharing is good – feeling good would be better..

by Ozguylost
written by Ozguylost

This site is so sad yet so important – even having a rant or sharing to a cyber-shoulder can help.. can’t it? I have been increasingly thinking of suicide again.. and when I say thinking of it I mean it really has always been there. As with a lot of people on here who have suffered with mental and emotional baggage a big part of their life… they understand. I fall into a bracket where it has always been there looming.. but I guess it gets to a point in your life (I’m an oldie at 48) where you realise you have put a damn […]

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Broken mirror

by AllBroken
written by AllBroken

Hello I’m 25yrs young I like that word better I’ve felt this way for awhile now I attempted suicide once already and died for about 5 seconds, long enough to hear the heart monitor flatline and feel life slip away, when I was a kid I had believed in finding something to believe in or hold onto, when I was younger I would look into the mirror and this feeling of sadness ignite in my heart I’d stare through the tears and tell myself it’ll change it’ll go away I used to wake up at night and cry until I fell asleep again sometimes my […]

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Reality suck , Real Life suck , Real World suck . why human’s Imagination is much better & interesting than this everyday’s boring reality ??

by niki
written by niki

I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very boring, and especially nowadays become only very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!

Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, & very LIMITING life / world / reality ??…

does God (if there is indeed one…!) play such a cruel sick joke for especially creating human’s IMAGINATION inside our heads?? .. especially often the very creative, artistic, […]

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thoughts..?

by cutter4life_
written by cutter4life_

suicidal thoughts & cutting have always been apart of my life but when i decided to quit it became extremely hard on me. i had delt with all my problems this way & now i dont have that. i have to find another way of dealing with my problems so i decided to start writing. my school councelor gave me this idea. he told me that i can make it. im a strong person.i suppose… if all the other people that cut & have tried suicide can quit than so can i.

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Sorry

by DepressedGirl
written by DepressedGirl

Are you proud of me now?.

I’m not gonna be here anymore so there shouldn’t be anymore trouble. This is what everyone wanted. everyone will be happy now that I’m gone. I’m just a waste of space. ill still be here with you, just look up at the sky and you’ll see the moon shining bright. i never wanted to hurt you. you weren’t the one to blame. it was to world and this awful race. I’m sorry but this just isn’t my place. Born in the wrong place, born in the the wrong time. i cant deal with all the pain, I’m not a fighter. […]

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I hate life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, boring & mundane, nothing that interesting!

by niki
written by niki

I hate life. I hate people. I hate this world. I hate reality / real world / real life, they are all too boring/mundane for me, and I’ve found almost nothing that is interesting in this reality/real-life/real-world anymore, also in MOST people/humans!

the majority or MOST of human beings/people in this world I’ve found to be either a bunch of stupid, shallow, superficial, ignorant, selfish, rigid, stoic, lifeless, uninteresting, uncreative, and/or boring / mundane ones.

maybe that’s why this “reality” (or “real world” / “real life”) or our society currently is sooo f*cked up now almost beyond help!

with only VERY FEW exceptions of: real-GOOD, honest humans/people, real […]

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Me

by DepressedGirl
written by DepressedGirl

Where to start. I have had depression and Anxiety now for three years. It got worse when i found out that i have anger problems and OCD. It was really hard to accept that fact that i was depressed and that’s when i started cutting. i stopped for awhile in 2011 but ever since then i have been cutting. It all started in 2010 when my grandma passed away and i got made fun of for it and said that i should have died instead of her. Having everyone against me and no one there for me hurt so much. I started to have panic […]

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1:18 am

by hellblau
written by hellblau

I feel like I’m losing you but you’re not even mine.

You’re going far away from me and I can’t reach you. Not even a little.

You’re the sun. And I’m the moon. 
When you’re up I’m down.

And it feels like dying. It feels like hell. 
I guess, I need to let you go away.

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An expensive cost, the price of rape

by The Girl Who Waited
written by The Girl Who Waited

There was a chill in the wind that night, one like no other.
The darkness made it hard for sight, but I didn’t know it mattered.
The strength of your grip, the frame of your stature;
As you grabbed my hips, before I knew it I was captured.
You forced yourself on me, along with your touch.
I pleaded for you to stop, but you still wouldn’t get off.
You were too strong and heavy, I couldn’t get you off top;
With your hand over my mouth, I kept screaming stop.
My throat went dry, I couldn’t scream.
I tried and tried, but the harder […]

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Inspiration and Expectation

by Shadowknite
written by Shadowknite

I am an inspiration to many both here and in my life outside. I am a preachers son, and expected to act like what I am not. I am looked upon with judging eyes everyday. I am an inspiration to the church, showing teens aren’t all the world says they are. I am an inspiration to my friends by always trying to make them happy before me. They see me as a person who will do anything to help them. I am an inspiration to my family. I have 6 siblings. One is a drama girl, the next an attitude awkward child, and the rest […]

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Reflection of Love

by FromAaronwithLove
written by FromAaronwithLove

Unhappy, Angry, low self esteem, Always feel like I’m outside looking in, where do I fit in? ashamed of myself, I feel so stupid, when I turn And walk away they are talking bad about me, I can feel it… I Insult you to hide my insecurity and pain, I say I Hate you when I just wanted a hug, Where was Dad when I needed his love?.. I feel like I’m Dying, Will Anyone notice or Even care?….. Years Later, Frown Lines, Eyes Weary so much mental Pain Even my body aches, I fucking give, I can’t take […]

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3 years later

by Marissa Kresge
written by Marissa Kresge

It’s been 3 years since i last made a post on here about my depression. Let’s just say I’m the happiest I’ve really ever been. I coped with my depression by exercising and being healthy, doing so I lost 20 pounds in the process which I am happy about. When year 10 of school started I decided I would try something risky and I did. I tried out for the foreign exchange program to go overseas. With the risky decision I succeeded and am now going to Germany in July. And this is all because I found a way to cope with my depression and […]

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