so ive been in this relationship for a couple months now, and here i thought i was finally getting the hang of it. I thought i could finally make her happy. And i was making her happy up until the last few days. then i fucked the whole think up by saying something stupid as i always do. except this time it was worse. I told her one of her exes (one who broke up with her and she still had feelings for) didn’t care about her. that he was using her for some reason. i had figured this because i thought he might suffer from […]
Will the feeling of hopelessness ever go away?. Will I ever feel or just even be normal again?. Why do i still have suicide thaughts even though i went through all this counselling seeing all the dr’s even being on meds for almost 2 years freaken….. i am so messed up
Life is death my loves and as soon as you embrace that, you’ll know that your freedom is in death. The will to live and the will to die are both in the same. Choosing to die is the bravest thing one has ever chosen. No need to fit in the masses or walk with the herd. Knowing that you only exist because you want to and you can be gone when you want to is true liberation and beauty. Those who try to stop you are seeking validation and a divine purpose. Your death is a choice, your life is a choice. Don’t be […]
I think I’m done with people. I wish they’d at least give me a chance to die without having to suffer with this melancholic mind of mine, but people never fail to disappoint. A peaceful escape is just too much to ask for. I have no friends outside of the family, only feeling okay with my mother and brother. Each day, I feel like I am drifting further apart from them as well. I’m losing interest in talking to people as there is nothing to say. My connections are based on nothing more than materialism. People just can’t connect with me emotionally, philosophically, etc., or […]
Hello sweet strangers, I have been suffering from severe depression and bipolar disorder. I have not been diagnosed of it but it’s very obvious to me.
I used to be engaged about 2 months ago. My life revolved around him and he was my world like any other women who is about to get married no?
I go to college and I am not the smartest nor the best student. I have no source of income really because my scholarship helps me pay for college. My parents can’t even pay to go to the doctor and I do not want to give them more burdens than they […]
It would have been cool
If I could have rolled out
Tonight, the carnage in Arkham
At 10 PM, I see Poison Ivy
Penguin walks with a cane
So far away in spiritual realm
Nothin’ but a spam call’ me Bisban
And the Joker and it’s empire
I don’t want to be another day
Who the fuck, who the fuck am I
I saw the Catwoman, I saw little Robin
I am the nightmare, all in my hell
Mr. Freeze the glass man
I wish I was hot like the Croc
Harvey never came back
I just looked around a bit more and I’m like “Holy shit, I just saw their suicide notes, I don’t know what to do, what if they go through with their plan? I didn’t speak up, I’m a little piece of shit.” So yeah. o-o I really hope none of you guys go through with your plans of ending life because ya know. *points to new route* There’s a whole new adventure waiting for you in a few years, months or even days.
Lul. I’m such a hypocrite. Telling people to keep holding on when I’m about to just end it all. >.> But hey. You […]
Ahem. *clears throat* Awkward. TnT Fuck. Anxiety. Let’s see. Lost 3 friends to suicide. 1 had recently attempted. Idk. I used to have a whole group of friends. Depression came by for a visit. Boom. Became distant and just closed myself up from everyone. Avoiding people all day at school unless I’m stuck with a partner. Realized no one gives a shit about me disappearing. Yep. *becomes air* Probably going to fail school because I’m skipping classes to avoid having anxiety attacks even though I still have them. Holy horseshit I’m probably sounding like some little shit right now. *face palms* How did I even […]
I told hell to bring it
I prayed to be different
Is the chain too many more
Don’t leave me in the reaches
Let me hop, let me trip like a frog
Can you appear dark angel in my fog
Or am I, I can not make it left
I want to be a pirate of death
If you have a broken smile and scars on your skin, stop and read this.
You’re beautiful/ handsome and you can do this. You can make it through today and every day afterwards because guess what?
You’re worth it. You’re worth every moment of life and every breath you take is just showing everyone who has ever put you down that you win, not them. Don’t ever give up.
I always lose. No matter what the situation I will always lose. I don’t know what winning feels like. It’s destroying me. All my major life stages have been marked by serious catastrophic events. It’s soul destroying. My use by date is coming up.
Eitheror Diabolic
Forever Minotaur in labyrinth
I am the only and I know it
An eternal lock of chain
One day, when I walk alone
Until then, all in my hell
Will I ever become a clown
Can I dance like a bug fly
Magnificent like a Scyther
I need to, I need to
Break me, break me
The undead in the desolated amass
All that remain is a pain that exist
Eitheror Diabolic
I honestly have nothing to fill all the hours of each day with. Unfortunately you can’t sleep 24 hours a day, I am actually jealous of coma patients some times. Its ridiculous to say that with all the millions of distractions that are so easily available. Yet its the truth, millions of books, video games, albums, movies, tv series etc available at the click of a mouse thanks to the internet. Plus all the social media and everything else the internet offers message boards chat rooms online classes. Well and of course all the fun things you could do out in the real world. Yet most […]
I think this may have been a mistake.
Joining the suicidal project not because I am suicidal God knows Iv’e never been ballzy enough to even atempt. However, these dark thoughts have haunted me and I’m completely lost in the problems of child hood and self demolition. I have became who I’ve never wanted to be like my father… and i am scared to be come what my biggest fear my mother. Anyways here I come , just another dark post.
…it was my life. So yesterday I had to spend the day going through mum and dads things, mum died recently and dad’s off to a nursing home, and came across all this childhood stuff. Do you think I could find something that didn’t remind me of some kind of hell growing up? Nup. Then I found stuff mum had kept with my cancer diagnosis and treatment, all this paperwork (I was 17), disability and deformity and yeah it was like reliving a nightmare. Yep I remember the hardship, the death defying years, decades, the taunts, abuse, stares and ridicule…hang on they’re still happening in […]
Dire deepest in darkness
I have no more left
Is there only one left
Who am I and who are you
Are you from the underworld
Indeed we are from hell
But there is only one
Heaven is lost on Earth
I am the Spawn, I am here to save
The chain, one thousand year
First I need to die
In your black robe, can you be
For me, The light and the scythe
Hi all,
I found this site accidentally whilst researching suicide options on-line and I have to say it is quite comforting knowing there are so many people out there that are battling with suicidal wishes…
A little about me…
I am 30, female from UK. I have struggled with depression from a young age and was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder last year.
I showed a lot of promise when I was young, teachers constantly commented on my academic ability and apart from general rebellion I was a good kid, that was until I was 12. I was sexually abused by a family friend and that was the kick start […]
My life has always been filled with emptiness. I have never had motivation or aspirations. I completely lack in ambition. There is nothing I want to achieve no goals I want to accomplish. I have no hope for the future because I don’t want anything. If there is nothing you want what is there to hope for? I suppose the only thing I want is the desire to want. Life isn’t bad it just seems so empty and pointless and meaningless. I am not really attached to anything or anyone. I avoid people not because I hate people I am not misanthropic I just find […]