If anyone at all needs someone to talk to, no matter what, you can email me misbahq93@gmail.com I won’t judge you or lie to you and I’ll always respond. Promise.
There’s no point in living if you’re all alone with your thoughts and dreams and have no one to share in them.
There’s no point in living if you feel too much pain and suffering in a life that’s empty of anything worthwhile.
There’s no point in living if you see everyone around you are out enjoying their lives while you remain hidden.
There’s just no point in living;
I don’t want to look out of my eyes anymore and see the utter void that my life is.
“The Suicide Project is a website devoted to allowing people to share their stories of desperation and depression… and ultimately of hope.”
I think in the light of recent events it is important not to forget what the purpose of this special website is. Regardless of how different the reasons for us to come here might be, what unites us is the suffering we experience and the desire to end it one way or another. No matter what part of the world you come from, what race or gender you are, what kind of sexuality you are living, what religion you might or might not belong […]
Less than a year ago I decided to end my life the other day. I haven’t had a plan and haven’t thought about it much, or at least, seriously. But that day I woke up and felt ready. Finally.
I was supposed to go to my psychologist that day, but I was so frustrated to the fact that nothing changes. I’m still depressed. How exactly is it gonna help me talk about it?
I was on the bus on my way to the clinic and planned my little escape. I always carry with me enough pills to overdose. I call it ‘my suicide kit’. You know, for […]
my sister turned around to me and said i was getting fat again. i hadn’t noticed, but she’s right. of course she is. i just can’t keep stable can i?
There’s no fear, only this immense sense of relief and satisfaction. And happiness.
I know what’s waiting for me at the end of the tunnel, and I can’t fucking wait to get there already.
Heck, I won’t even be mad if I survive the attempt and be severely paralyzed for the rest of my life. But I need to feel it. Even if for a few seconds, I need to feel it.
31/09/2014.
So this is a sorta free verse lyric I wrote for my English class last year. Hope you like it. Sorta dark though. Happier ones still to come
One more.
One more year, one more week,
One more second In one more day,
One more sunrise, one more breath
One more night, don’t fade away.
They tell you, “you’re a fighter,”
Yet the don’t see the blood
Or burns etched by the fire
Or tears that come in floods.
They tell you to keep living,
When yoy feel dead inside
They say that it gets better,
Get up, stand out, don’t hide.
So you live one more day,
Counting minutes go by.
They add up to all these years
You […]
I actually came on here tonight for the first time in a week or so to make a post about some stuff that’s happened lately in my life… and now my head is just too overwhelmed by the utterly repulsive tragedy that’s taken place today/tonight involving a really awesome person.
So instead of crapping on about my own troubles, I’m just gonna leave this post here so we can all maybe give a thought to that special person today/tonight, because this is their day now and they deserve to be remembered.
Rest easy.
‘tamaka’
where’s a mod at
I failed since day zero
the zero, the zero-child
I smile, I am not alive
chained to the earth
from the sky, fell celestial
flower, vanquish already yours
in this age, I am no longer
such irony, hoping for a phoenix for the elite
I need to get a wagon but I need someone by the fire
and our glocks by a wire, a grand a month before it explodes
I need you now; Tamaka, from East-South America
by the wire, under the stars, singing in golden sands
now for ever before, derailed to the never land
in hope to persist till the end […]
I think I am almost ready… I almost let it slip today that I have a plan. No one noticed though all I ever hear is have faith. Well it’s too late for that… I have to pick a date I think that will help push me to get everything ready. I wonder how long it will take for anyone to notice I am gone.
Just need to put my goodbyes in order…I have to say goodbye…
Is it possible for someone to never be happy? If so then I guess that’s me. I found out this morning that my debilitating autoimmune disease is non responsive to current treatment and will require much more aggressive treatment. To do so will require time off from work I don’t have and a loss of income. I can’t pay my rent as it is… I am drowning in debt and I ruined my eight year relationship with my anger and hatred… I am not eligible for help and have no where to turn anymore. I can’t be the reason my kids are homeless again. I […]
I decided to break my silence and apologize to my ex-Boyfriend for being such an overwhelming ***** to him on the day of our breakup. He told me that it’s okay, that he knows I have a mental condition. Mind you, he’s not basing this on anything other than his disdain for me. I was like whatever, though. He isn’t the first to assume I had something wrong with me, so I decided I wouldn’t let it ruin my time with him.
He began to tell me about some app — something that let’s you create an anime thing of yourself. Y’know, he would harp on […]
Hi. I found this site last February by accident and have been popping in once and a while to check out posts. Today I decided to register. Why so? I’m not exactly sure. All I know is that I’ve tried two ways now to die, both have failed on numerous attempts. I’m seeing a psychologist and I’m on medication to control my anxiety problems and depression. I’m 4’2″ living with a type of dwarfism known as achondroplasia. I absolutely hate my body and luv carving it with pretty red sketches. There are voices inside my head and they aren’t all that pleasant. So Yeh, I’m […]
Wednesday – my official day off. My daughter works at the same office so I dragged myself out of bed and drove her to work. I would usually stop for a bite to eat on the way home but I’ve felt like puking for three days so I just went home, back to bed and waited for the sun to make my room too hot to tolerate again.
I ran out of pain meds days early so the “rationing” has me fighting withdrawal again. I don’t see the quacktitioner until Friday and the HMO I have wants all their patients off pain meds so thy don’t […]
It may look like we have everything
Everything should be perfect so you can live the best life….
Wrong
Sometimes all you need is support and happiness
I can tell for some people, they have all that
As for me
I just want to be happy…
Just thought I’d introduce myself as I’ve been lurking and commenting for a while..
But yeah, Mad Hatter here, its been a pleasure hanging around chatting to the people here, I came here recently during a depressive episode looking for an easy way to kill myself – and I found the experience cathartic and decided to stay.
I’m 26 years old, bipolar & DDNOS and am openly gay. I’m a recovering drug addict, I took a vast array of illegal drugs every day for a decade before getting clean earlier this year after a major breakdown where I gave up my job and made a serious suicide […]
How did I get here again? Ugh! I feel like I am never going to break free of this damn soul-disease that makes me hate myself. I feel numb and just want this continual emotional battle that I have going on inside of my head to just give it a rest and leave me alone already! How many more relationships do I sabotage? I have no friends and that is because I don’t want any. I believe that if someone gets to know the real me that they won’t be very impressed-so I push everyone away. I am not close to my parents and I […]
Things are still pretty bad inside my body. My head and heart hurt really bad, but not as bad. I want to go on Facebook and say I want to die, not because I’m planning suicide but because this feels really serious to me. But I don’t need a 72 hour hold and I think all the “buck up camper” replies I’ll get would make me throw up.
I’m frightened that I’m never going to be able to function at a job. What am I going to do with the rest of my life? I can’t keep giving my all over and over again only to […]
I’m sick, I have a cold, and no one is in home, even if I’m dying nobody will give a fuck about me.
Let’s be friends, let’s talk and play and sing together. I don’t want to fight you. I already tried that, back when I was stressed and didn’t know that you actually came to help me, to pull me out of my shit. You’re my savior. Let’s learn how to live together, like siamese twins.
Joni Mitchell says “Blue, I love you” in her song Blue, which talk about acceptence and far from that, falling in love to the side which enslaves you. It’s not like you have much choice. If you are clinically depressed like me and want to experience life to the fullest before leaving […]