I’ve wondered so many times why I must feel the way Ifeel? I still have not found an answer. Every now and then I used to break down, to live in crisis, cutting myself, drinking alcohol until i passed out, taking pills to lose myself, damaging every part of me for not to feel. I understand that i may never get this feeling “out of me”, I understand that no matter what I do, what I try, I keep falling far away, pushing everyone else, and theres only one thing else to do, not to try, because trying implies that I could fail, i will […]
http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/news/20120702/cat-litter-parasite-may-raise-suicide-risk
I apologize for my actions, for being MIA so long. I had to get help. I’m not cured by far, never will be but I’m trying. Please don’t leave me. You guys helped me so much.
Caught Jaws and 4 of his friends (sharks).
Beautiful sunrise today…. as seen from offshore:
I don’t know what is wrong with me. I don’t feel like I have control over my body anymore. I don’t feel like I have control over anything. I want to cry…scream, shout. Something…I have all of this…this emotion built up inside of me and each one wants to get out. One minute I’m happy and the next I’m enraged. I’m sad and frustrated. I want company and I want to be left the fuck alone. I need to talk and yet, I need to shut up all together as well. I just need to stop existing for a while until I can get a […]
I want to do it… I want it to be over quickly. I want to fade into oblivion
Callisto, in one or two days
Will she be, angel’s death
What will be the drastic plan
There are no archangels
All chained, what’s left, I don’t know
It’s sad, my time that passes by
But it’s okay, because it’s just me
Give it all to me, the pain, I’ll take it
Just promise me, one day
One way or another.
This is just to remind you guys of the skype group we created a few days ago, it’s up and running. (text based chat only) With 15 guys on there, it is serving it’s purpose of eliminating (or help you cope up with) loneliness very well indeed.
Sometimes, all we need is just a pat on the back, eh? Many of you won’t even consider joining it, I know, too much hurt from past experiences. Too fucked up to give this a shot. But then, you realize we all are fucked up in one way or the other? This is what makes us compatible. People care here. All you need […]
Back u guys. My ex girlfriend Is back in my Life.i Feel happier Now and i don’t know how to explain it but still she is back in da life with me.we are just friends and are so happy.i do care about her.i Also care bout her Girl.well yup.
Sometimes we are a little too shy to come out of our shells, though eventually we break free allowing ourselves to let loose…experiencing life and all its hidden beauty.
I wonder how they react when they see my thighs.My old bestfriend cried when she seen them.I think that’s the last time I talked to her:/
It started three weeks ago when I saw my cousin.I never understood why my ex would have panic attacks until I myself I had one that day.I just started breathing uncontrollably & I started hiding my face everytime I was around I was just trying to get as far away from him as possible.Anyways I cut that night.I started hiding my cuts & I was home alone so I took the armband off.The door bell rings & It’s my friend.I go outside & I see his eyes lock down looking down & In my head I’m like what’s he looking at so hard then I […]
I feel completely hopeless, like a trapped animal in a cage who can’t break free no matter how hard he tries or how positively he thinks. I have no one close and meaningful to me, nothing to look forward to, and no reason to even try anymore. I’m so sick and tired of this frustration of going about existing. I’ll clearly never never find happiness on this planet so why am I still breathing?
I saw someone write that they are Sisyphus and I thought it was poetically fitting for people in our condition. I myself am Atlas, damned to carry the world on my shoulders without given a moment to shrug. We are all legends and gods in our own right. Perhaps that’s why our deaths are so tragic.
I’ve finally decided to take that final step and let the world roll from my shoulders. I’ll give myself a month to tie loose ends and let my family adapt. I told them I’ll be leaving in a month. They think I’m just going to move away, having no idea. […]
” Here are some obvious things about the weather: It’s real. You can’t change it by wishing it away. If it’s dark and rainy it really is dark and rainy and you can’t alter it. It might be dark and rainy for two weeks in a row , BUT It will be sunny one day. It isn’t under one’s control as to when the sun comes out, but come out it will. One day . ”
I have a stable pain inside, not going away, causing me to thinking about commiting suicide. I cannot enjoy anything, if you can send me to my happiest moment or give an option to just vanish, I would definately choose the second one. Most of the time I wish I was normal. While registering to this site I couldn’t help but think about the future; somehow if I end up committing suicide, this account will eventually be discovered by my friends/relatives, they probably will think this was a cry for help. It is nice to know that you are not the only wierd person who […]
Listening to my immortal right now by amy lee, it looks like my past has come back to haunt me, like death is silently calling me, someone is calling me in this wind, someone wants me, loves me, and i need to commit suicide to see that person. the years i have lived are nothing, im empty as my soul, i have nothing to live for, like.. my parents mean nothing to me, nobody means anything to me. do you understand how i feel ?
I feel like I have a secret life… I want the peace of death, but I would feel so guilty. Overdose?