I used to be popular. Grades and everything was perfect. But the girls I considered my friends weren’t friends at all. They bullied me and I let it go on for quite some time. Ripping my journals, calling me names, making fun of the way I dress, spreading rumor, making me cry, and laughing at my failures. That’s when I ended my friendship with them. It just became worse. I started talking to new people, making new friends and they started making and spreading rumors to them about me in an attempt to stop then from talking to me. I became friends with a couple […]
My life hasnt been living…its just been a slow and painful trip down to the grave….no one gives a shit about me…if I were to drop dead no one would care. Would anyone care to know why I want to slit my wrists every night? would it matter if I did???
I’m scared of being myself. Sometimes i have really bad days, & other times I’m extremely sad. My heart is broken, and I’m a huge mess. I’m scared that I will be alone forever.
the earth feels as though it composed of 9 billion humans, and then theres me, i fit in more with the animals, unfit here wild and chased away
The light at the end blew out.
And now I’ve had it, just about.
If anyone is reading this please know,
That it wasn’t your doing that made me go.
Im not a perfect person ,
Awkwardly so much of my advice i wish i could listen too . Ironic rite huh .
I have what most people want .
Friends , Family , Popularity , A Boyfriend Who loves Me ,
But yet no happiness
I was raped last year by a guy i thought who loved me
Meanwhile i went home to my brother who beat me ,
This illusion that i put is so dumb
No one knows the real inside pain i suffer
Or how i really feel inside
I have bipolar disorder ,
The meds make me tired , but i can never sleep
I […]
I am a strong person. I am 27. I tried to gut mysel, samurai-style, ten years ago. I clinged to life and vowed to never, ever give up on life. On the way I found the peace of God.
My girl and wife-to-be left me after 2 years and a half. We couldn’t make each other happy, we couldn’t stop hurting and failing each other. She was perfect in ways many cannot imagine: beautiful (a german model), sweet, bright, spiritual. Good cook. Good friend. Good lover. Loved me to her core, was there always for me. Perfect. I thought God was speaking to me through her, […]
those who are there helping,listening and offering advise,
you are heros. the greatest people alive tonight. bless you, your are brings of great passion  EXTREMELY strong hearts
I’m stupid to think he would ACTUALLY want me….. WHY? Why does this always happen to me? I can’t even fucking CRY! He won’t talk to me, and he is with a new one. I warned her this time, because that f*cking b*tch is not worth her time. Not worth anyone’s time. He deserves to be alone. Sorry, but you don’t do this kinda crap to ANYONE. And I’m so tired of being used like this! I’m good until you get what you want and then you move on until you’re tired of them. Then where are you? Back to me because they won’t give […]
does anyone see it like I do. Am I even real, Do I count as a human?
I feel like my suicide is gonna happen this week
anyone in the mood for conversation ,
. . . anyone ,
Has anyone had any success faking being happy? If so, I want to hear your ideas…. PLEASE. Iwork at this job that I don’t like at all and I am so depressed that it is getting hard to get up each day. But, I MUST appear happy at work. Our company serves these rich people and you must be nicey-nice and kissy-butt all of the time. I MUST be cheerful, sunny and bright, no matter how terrible or tired I feel.
I know I’m walking around with this stupid, fake goddamn smile pasted on my face, but I risk losing my job if I do not. […]
I don’t know whats going on and I can’t really feel, its like I don’t have any real emotions. The few times I do feel sad I cry because I look at my life and feel like I should be crying. But I only end up crying a few tears and then I feel nothing again. I don’t love, I just remember thinking that I did at some point in my life. My ex and I just fell apart literally we just stopped talking and just pushed each other and I cried but there was never a real ending a real break up. We just […]
I am only 25 but I feel like suicide has become the only option for me. I want to share my story with you and I hope you’ll give me an honest response on whether it suicide seems acceptable in my case.
My life has always been fucked up. My mum was schizophrenic and an alcoholic. From the post natal depression she was deemed unfit to care for us and I went through several foster families who abused and physically attacked me. She died from liver poisoning when I was 5. My dad took my brother and I in for two years but we lived in […]
if youre from australia, like heavy/core metal, please introduce me as an aqquaintance atleast hey
He thinks I’m interesting and have so many secrets hidden behind me eyes, but I don’t. I wish I did.
He knows I’ve got a story, and thinks I’m dying to share it with him, but I never ever will.
Why does he bother playing games with my head, when he knows that my mind is too fucked to even care?
He thinks he understands me, but there’s nothing to understand.
Moby – The Sky Is Broken (Markus One Strings Works Remix)
The song is preparing me for the incoming advent with one rule; rather burn out than fade away so it’s full throttle or nothing.
Love for life is gradually fading and the sunsets are getting lesser. As far as I’m concerned – I’m almost done. Can’t fight the endless war of growing pain. I just might get lucky and get a heart attack; death is coming soon for me nevertheless – just pray the God that my demise will be painless. I fear of no death, but the pain.
Maybe this suicide mania of my mine wasn’t […]
Hopefully Most Can UnderstandÂ
That Cant Be Understood
What Is Life Supposed To Be
Why Am I Here
Whats My Purpose
I Think About Everyday How Much Pain , & Suffering Ive Been Through
& It Haunts Me . I Move On I Try To When Things Get Better For . . .
It Just Gets Way Worst
Maybe I Dont Deserve To Be Happy
Thats Stupid Right? Because Everyone “Deserves” To Be Happy & Is “Supposed Be Happy . .
Be Never Really Is .
I Think About The Rape . . . How I Felt , Useless , Helpless , Only Person I Reached Out Too ,
Was Ripped Away From Me , My Parents […]
Boys cry.
Cigarettes do kill,
parents lie,
boats sink,
flowers die.
Life goes on,
with or without you.