I feel like i love this person, and its impossible, because they will never love me back. this is eating me away and i dont know how to deal with any of it. i just really want to talk to someone about all of this. the bad thing is, im afraid if i admit it to someone, itll be so much worse. i know i need to talk to someone, if not, ill just explode. either way, this is slowly killing me.

Sad, lonely and depressed. This is how I feel as I look at myself in the mirror, The names they called me still burned my memories, and filled my eyes with tears. The snickering behind my back, the laughing at me, the pushing in the halls and the notes filled with what they think is wrong with me. They tortured me for no other reason other then they felt like it, and they could. It didn’t just stop at school. Nope, thanks to computer, they can follow me everywhere. And when i pretended that it all was okay, i made it much much worse then […]

I feel so alone all the time, its killing me. Its  like i look around and see all these things going on and i just feel so distant from them. Im turning 18 and graduating next week, yet i feel no excitement whatsoever. Ive been going through so much lately, mentally and physically its really wearing me down. I dont know how to cope with any of this because i have no one to talk to. if i tell my best friend, she will just worry, if i tell my mom, she will worry. i cant worry about someone else worrying for me. it sounds […]

I drift on day to day constantly battling with my meth-addicted mother, who hasn’t let me see my little brothers in almost 10 years. I’m stuck in a relationship where I’m not loved back (or at least he really doesn’t act like it), and I have only one friend, who is gone all the time. I am lonely, I’m hurting, and I am mentally messed up with endless anxiety and I also am bipolar and have fibromayalgia. And because I used to be a Jehovah’s Witness and left, I’m pretty sure God is pissed as hell at me so I’m probably doomed to destruction whenever […]

Right now, I am scrolled away in my spare bedroom upstairs.  It can get claustrophobic up here as it is a converted attic with only a small skylight for a window.  I have been up here for two days avoiding my boyfriend…. avoiding the world, really.

I am a 50 year old female with too much loss in my life and have reached a point where I just don’t want to go on.  I am sure I don’t have the worst story out there, but for me, its been far too taxing.

In 2003, I buried my only daughter (9 years old) from a tragic car accident.  She […]

“People pontificate, “Suicide is selfishness.” Career churchmen like Pater go a step further and call in a cowardly assault on the living. Oafs argue this specious line for varying reason: to evade fingers of blame, to impress one’s audience with one’s mental fiber, to vent anger, or just because one lacks the necessary suffering to sympathize. Cowardice is nothing to do with it – suicide takes considerable courage. Japanese have the right idea. No, what’s selfish is to demand another to endure an intolerable existence, just to spare families, friends, and enemies a bit of soul-searching.”

where may I go to go transform. into the golden metallical.
what nebulous smite can our hell bring.
how do we escape at the level zero. but then it’s just me.
karma here does not exist in my land. battalion of true hell.
or go fuck yourselves.

there is only one path. I understand.
I am, that I am. i have no heart. cut.
see with your eye, my hell.
the dragon. the boar. the dog. the monkey.
all dead.

i must escape ground zero.
take me. direct me. then leave me.
guiding star. that could be a plan.
then hopefully maybe if, in our other saging […]

Why i feel pity on people who cry before they die?

suicidal people are the only kind of humans who laughs before die.

Even if I am

1. The richest person in the world
2. Most intelligent being
3. Great leader
4. Influential human being
5. God
6. Go to mars along with best of breed human beings

I still be suicidal for no reason.

Is there anyone from San Francisco on here?

We should hang out…Misery loves company.

NO PERVERTS THOUGH I won’t fall for that.

i need to die …

Cant let it win. Get it together…come on you fuck, I can do this

oh God this is so draining

Hi all,

this is a guy who is alive only because he’s not got the courage to commit suicide so far.

You may say I’m a weak person only to have such a thought in my head, but I’m sure even if I tell you the story you’ll not understand it, but know it.

I’m 19 now, freshman in college. I have let go of my studies for months now though I used to be one of the bests back in school.

I have always been lonely in my life, even during the short periods that others thought I was not anymore, I felt that loneliness inside me. I […]

Most of us are here because we feel so shit we want to kill ourselves.  So I want to tell my story..

I had been crying non stop every day for about 4 months. I would go to college, cry, go gome, cry, cry myself to sleep.. it was a never ending cycle of me crying. Till one day during my lunch break at college I decided I had, had enough. I got lots of differdnt friends to go to shops and buy me tablets  (I couldn’t because I was too young) Anyway, I , anahed to get a fair amount of tablets, since more than […]

Ahhhhhha, I don’t know what to say , basically I’m screwd up as hell.
It just seems to be over , I’m done with all of the shit I’m facing.
Abailtity to feel I’ve lost it , I don’t how to feel or what to feel Im just tired of myself nd I’m tired of this shit. It makes me sick.
I know this all shit I’m writing , makes really no sense.
Starting with my parents. I’m a child of divorced parents nd that sucks , I’m sick of dealing with the shit ur parents are giving u!!! Like Man my mom doesn’t wanna […]

So, I’ve been depressed for about 2 years when my ex broke up with me. It wasn’t like that at first; I gradually became depressed.

Anyhow, she was my first girlfriend at the age of (me) 23, and (her) 18.

Unable to move past her, despite trying, I tried to suffocate my self with a plastic grocery bag and a couple of rubberbands over my head and neck, respectfully. First time I panicked within three minutes; second time my skin started to tingle in the hands and feet.

I had left my ex a little deathnote, asked her not to stop me, and ended up stopping myself twice. […]

hitting out of a leaf spiff.
the music cycles through the zodiac.
it seems at the end, we have lost.
only me. staring at the cat.
the bunny bit me, and I bled.

the purple sky turns the water red.
devil shines through the mind.
what is your color of black.
on to the next tract. what will be.
in the hands of faith.

the moon and the night.
in darkness. the story of the lost knight.
death. a horsemen.
seems like we hold a chain, all of us.
exiled from the mystical realm.

i am losing.

Here’s a great chillout piece for everyone. Enjoy, have a drink and relax. 🙂

Check out the video text:

With every sunrise, another day of our lives, begins

With every sunset, another day, is lost

Life is short, so every once in while

Break the rules; Forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably and never regret anything that made you smile

Growing old is compulsory, but growing up isn’t

Life might not be the party we hoped for, but while we’re here

Let’s dance.

How did it feel to come so close? To walk the line between life and death.

Were you relieved?
Was there a “light” rushing towards you?
How long were you drifting for, and what did the drifting feel like?
Is the experience of leaving worth the pain – was there pain, torment?
What was on your mind?

I’ve heard more than anything that one feels an crushing sense of regret upon passing the point of no return.

Finally, what was it like to wake up afterward? Was there frustration? Self-pity? Rejection? Do you feel differently now than you did before?

What has life become for you?

Stay the fuck away from me

Go just go. Just leave before you get hurt too.

Down down down down down and dark.

Subtly and rapidly losing it. This plan…it seems so beautiful in a sickening way.

Oh God what’s happening to me…….

tick tock tick tock