Nothing, absolutely NOTHING, gets to me more than people who don’t understand anxiety and depression, so they treat you like you’re a whiny ***** for everything. If you don’t understand it that’s fine, not everyone does. But don’t go and treat me like a fucking ***** who whines about “stupid shit.” Until you know what it feels like to have parents hate you, “friends” who only stay around because they hope you’ll eventually sleep with them then treat you like you’re less than human because you don’t, been raped, been abused, held a knife to your throat ready to pull it… bottle of pills in […]

I’m am going to kill myself in the next few hours, I just don’t know how to deal with the pain anymore and I’m tired of feeling so lonely, ever since my friend passed away there has been nobody there for me and I just bother people anyway. So, I guess this is goodbye, I’m sorry I never knew you people better and I wish I could’ve met how wonderful people you all are but It’s too late for me now. I just wasn’t strong enough.

If I don’t respond tomorrow with a post, you know that I’m already dead.

It’s all lost.
The hope.
The love.
The truth.
I only asked that I could be happy, and I get a life full of loneliness, hatred, and failure. And as I was watching my own demise, I saw how much I had ruined other lives in the process. I tried to repair it, I tried to come back and fix it all, but it only showed how little I could accomplish. In my downfall, I had friends for a short period. Or at least I thought I did. The truth was they felt sorry for me. They saw a helpless little shit, and thought they […]

It’s a shame that it had to be this way
It’s not enough to say I’m sorry
Maybe I’m to blame
Or maybe we’re the same
But either way I can’t breathe
Either way I can’t breathe
All I had to say is goodbye
~Secondhand Serenade; Goodbye

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you
It’s not like that at all
~Avril Lavigne; Wish You Were Here

And I will swallow my pride
You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye
~A Great Big World; Say Something

I’m sorry I wasn’t enough
For you, for my friends, for anyone
I didn’t know much […]

I need to get out of here. Can I come over, hang out, be friends, maybe share rent, and never come back again? Somewhere in the western half of the U.S maybe. Please let me know.

I dont know if i should end my life because their happy moments but sad moments in my life. Sad moments for me is when i get bad grades and school is so stressful or the times I hate my parents for doing unfair things. For happy moment is going to the movies with mom because thats the time where we actually bond and laugh and I love those precious moments.

well, the hotline helped a bit more this time around. I still want to slit my throat though. Ugh. I hate these demons.

I’m too scared to kill myself. I’m afraid that I’ll fail, and end up screwed in some way. I don’t have much to live for, with a family that cares to much about the unimportant stuff but doesn’t care about what matters and friends that lie to me and try to make me jealous of them, and social anxiety that’s almost crippling.

My dad left my mom and I when I was 3. She found a guy when I was 8, and at first he wasn’t so bad. Now, he blames me for everything, even stuff I didn’t know about. He forces me to clean everything […]

Just sinking so low. I haven’t written in my journal (which I’ve kept since I was 15) since that night. that fact in itself scares me. I don’t want death, I’m certain of it, not when my head is clear. But I just urt so bad, nearly every morning I wake up and brace myself for the wave of misery, hope it’ll be over fast and won’t keep welling up on and off all day.
I am… no nice way to put it, I am a failure. I’ll be 29 tomorrow. I ave never been able to have a relationship in my life: just the […]

Whenever something bad happens in my life I dont have anyone to go to. If my friends or family try to give me advice i pretend to listen and to understand what they’re saying. It’s just they dont understand what I go through even though they think they do. I always so they have to experince it for themselves to understand. I love my two three main friends because they listen and one of them kind of go trough the same shit everyday like me.

I mean, it’s only the right thing to do before you attempt anything…you may come back, you may not. And if not you want to make sure you sincerely said your apologies

It seems as I get older, life just gets worse. Reality becomes more…well, real. I don’t know if I sound crazy or if anyone else out there wants/thinks the same as me but tbh I really just want to live in a beautiful fairy land where no bad happens, no lies, cheating, murders, etc.
I want to go somewhere far far away from reality and this evil world full of evil people who don’t give a damn about anything! I do not belong here, my soul has never belonged in such an evil place. I am so different to everyone I know and meet:/ I […]

I’m tired. I’m exhausted. I’m fed up.

I’m 20 years old and a junior in college and I literally don’t have a life. I don’t socialize much. I isolate myself; however, I’m not happy when I do so. I feel lonely and sad.

When I’m alone, my whole life runs through my mind.

When I was in the 12th grade my father got diagnosed with cancer. The doctors said he had only a few months left. My dad fought hard and stood strong. A year later. The day I was getting ready to leave to start college he passed away. I was completely heartbroken. Like all the positivity in life got […]

But I have so much grief on my heart right now, it literally, physically hurts. Has anyone else felt this sensation before? I hate it.

Considering that i never chose to be in this world why can’t i cease to exist?  Why can’t i chose to leave? People say that you should think about death and where your soul will go.  That there is a heaven and a hell.  But that’s so unfair.  I never chose to be here in the first place so why should i not be able to choose to be gone…forever…from any existence at all.  When i die i want it to be as if i was NEVER created at all.  I don’t want to continue in an afterlife.  I’m so so so tired.  Sleep used […]

Well I think I’ve finally reached that point.
I’ve been waiting and waiting for the chance to speak to you, to clear the air, to try and mend this broken thing you left.
The pain is utterly unbearable. It is consuming me, erasing anything that was left of who I am.
Now I am just pain and god it hurts so much and it just won’t stop.
I dread going to sleep because the dreams are so painful; in them you forgive me and we are happy again and it’s like I am made of air.
I dread waking up because the pain is instantaneous; […]

Hey there baby, you looking fine
again tonight like always
I’m so bad with these corny lines
but you never judge me
instead you stand far away and let
your vertiginous glory pluck at my nerves
ready to catch me when I remove
80 feet of concrete between us

Remember when we first met?
I was so young then and you were the same
soft shade of aquamarine that I feel
flling my nostrils and bluring my sight
Your presence a promise of an eternal
unbearable comfort hugging me tight

How much has changed since then?
Nothing at all, as you of course know
except that your […]

today i sat on my bed with 205 pills lying in front of me. all a combination of my daily meds. i figured if i took them all i’d probably die. i thought about which would be the easiest to swallow first. i sat for about 30 minutes with my death centimeters away. there were so many thoughts going through my head but one that kept repeating was “you wont fucking do it.” I figured there was a slight chance i could make it but i knew i’d have to get my stomach pumped. so i went on google to see how long i’d be […]

i hate this world

people dont care about our feelings, im depressed i would never off myself even tho everyone around me makes me wanna kill myself, i dont feel sad, i dont feel anything, we are saving our selves from this world, we are making the world a better place for everyone. i dont like it here but i need to be here there was a purpose to my birth, i just dont know what it is. if you get sad dont cut, right what you hate about yourself on a piece of paper then burn it, just burn it and you will never see […]

I’ve been visiting this site for a few months and seems like all of you are Americans?
We are always on the top of the list with the highest suicide rates but no Koreans or Japanese here?
I know it’s dumb question but I was just wondering