OK so I was just and average 12 year old until I entered sixth grade and I had a crush on this boy Jonathon*. He knew I liked him so he started calling me ugly, fat,ect.  He also told me to go cut myself and die, so I did what he wanted I watched the blood go down my arm as I got weaker and weaker I stopped for my mom cause she threatened to put me in a mental  hospital,  so I stated to cut in nonnoticable places like legs ankles thighs.  So moving on to the beginning of this year.  I’m still twelve. […]

I’m just a girl… A girl who is truly broken, I have tried to kill myself many many many times. I have scars, scars all up my wrist all down my thighs. I guess I just want to let someone know what I’m feeling because I can’t talk about how I’m feeling to any of my loved ones, they can’t see me like this. I will kill myself, I will. It hurts knowing that nobody is there for you… Ever. My mom wanders why I am always sleeping, she has no Idea, I pray to god that I don’t wake up… Every night! But I […]

When I started my first post.. I thought it might get easier talking. It just gets harder. My parents absolutely hate me. You may think I exaggerate this but they do. I can never do anything right, my life is just one big fuck up. I don’t deserve to put them through this pain and stress. I don’t deserve anything. I’m a spoiled brat. I have nothing going for me. I just want it to be over, I just want to have a gun in my hand to end all this misery. I wish I had some way just to kill myself. The more I […]

i have sat down so many times and contemplated how to end my life how my time i have tried and how scared i have felt and chickend out of it, i was abused at a very young age i just want closure and a way to let it all go….

at a very young age maby 5 or 6 i was molested by my babysitters husband i remeber him putting his hands in my pants every night i stayed over her house and mom worked late. he would wait till everyone was alseep and come to the living room and touch me while lay there i […]

this is my first post .  I lost everything this year.  I am so sad I cannot even think much less live.  I read that ******** is now tightly controlled in Mexico.  Anyone else know where to get it.  Please help me end my pain.  I cant do this much longer.  How can it hurt so much?

Hello, well I don’t really know what a forum is, or how to use it, but I guess i’ll just share my story and maybe someone can help.  I am a 19 year old guy from California. 9 years ago I stared getting bullied. I was already a loner, so I guess it made me more lonely. I always thought that was fine though. This was before social media though, which just added to my depression. When I used to sit at home alone, I thought everyone did. Later I found out that people actually do fun stuff with these things called “friends”. Well I’ve […]

I don’t know how much longer I can stand the uselessness of my life.

I hit a lot of those success markers.  I am 30.  I have my own place, car, job, life.  I’ve had a number of intense long term relationships; my ex of a six-year relationship left me in October.  I have a large group of friends who are, frankly, some of the very best people on the planet.  I am loved by many.  I have a Master’s degree in a field where there is at least some work.  I volunteer.  I create.

And I just feel done.  You ever make scrambled eggs and just […]

All of this stuff that they say I have to look forward to, this amazing life that they say I’ll have. But the way I feel will never change. It’s bullshit, I’ll always be fat and vile. No one will want me. I’ll never be happy and smiling at festivals surrounded by people who want the best for me. I’ll always be in my room depressed and waiting for it all to change – to end. Curtains closed, hidden under the covers. It’s never going to happen. So what is the point. For someone who craves death so much yes I’ll admit I am scared. […]

For those that remember me I tried killing myself and ended up in a treatment center for twenty three days.  How have you all been?

Every day, I wish I was dead. All I know is that I once had a life in another place with a family that cared about me. I’m not to allowed to remember any of that. Nor am I allowed to remember all the horrible decisions that I made and the crimes that I committed to end up here on “earth”. I wonder every day what was different about me as a young man. I wonder why I didn’t follow the rules or care about law and order like everyone else who enjoys a good life by following the golden rule. I wonder what went […]

It’s time, I’ve finally made the decision to go.
What triggered this choice? Reality. I’m ready, there is nothing to live for, except my girlfriend.

My name is Gabriel Tullio, I am 17 years old, living in South Australia. I am about to commit the inevitable a bit sooner than expected. Early last year I had an arteriovenous malformation resulting in a left side hemiplegia. I was supported by family, friends and my girlfriend for quite some time, but the injury has gotten to me. Just recently my friends have drifted as I am a burden in their eyes. I am a constant disappointment to my family […]

well my name is tony im 19 ive been down and depressed over the past few months or so I just don’t think there is nothing much more I can do on this world..everything I do or touch turns to shit…in my mind im a worthless piece of shit of a human being im done feeling like this so what im thinking bout doing is taking my own life and im gonna join the  many people in the AFTERLIFE….

today was different. who would have thought itd end like this.
i got blamed for something at school now im expelled ( i had nothing to do with it ). go home to see that we were robed. and now sitting on top of a bridge at the moment guess il see what happenes at the end of the day.

I have had enough. I am sick of picking up the mess of my son – time after time after time.. getting him out of debt, saving him and he is 26. I have just picked him up out of a drug induced psychotic episode and now he is throwing tantrums about not being allowed to smoke weed…… I have had enough. I want to live my life quietly and all the time he continues to snipe…….. tomorrow i will buy the razor.. I never thought I would but he has destroyed any hope of a life for me. I have none………….. and I actually do […]

I’ve noticed I always get more depressed when the weather is nice. In a thunderstorm or something, I’m ok. Nice day with sunshine and birds and happy people, not so much. I’m the opposite of normal people.

Garaa – check ur email, if you may.

Cruxification. Jesus is dead. Sickness.
A cowboy, the song of an outlaw. The Dragon House.
Resuscitate, Eddie Murphy, hit him up to save the Buddha child.
Hit me back up. Tom Cruise will be down to hit me back up.
Tom Hanks, take me to an island. A place, for the freedom of Wilson.
Where to go, to escape Armageddon, T Cruise knows what’s up.
Making his dough. The super star.

Ninja Thai Princess, on to the next sound. Surfing. We will run. We will fight.
The power of a thousand men. Swimming across an ocean, a wooden water […]

Everyone stares at me, i can’t breath. put on a smiling face but nothing is real, i feel hollow and empty everyday. I dont know if i can take this lie anymore.

When i was 13 i was raped, i dropped out after that.

nobody knows why i stopped going to school… the depression just got to be too much. i tried to kill myself and thats when my mother stopped pestering me everyday about getting on the bus, then this year… i thought my life got better. my depression wasnt so bad, so i tried to get back in school, they gave me the option to […]

I have difficulties expressing myself through writing. so I’m just gonna do it like this.

– I panic inside my body cause I feel claustrophobic. My body aches all the time and I have a constant headache and chest ache.

= I. just. want. out.

– I have no interest in a future what so ever. I don’t want to study, meet new people or get married and have kids. I have not had a moment in years and years that I could feel happiness and joy.

– I am not interested in anything. No hobbies that can take my away from the pain just for a […]

I know what you’re thinking. ‘It’s another girl trying to stop us from thinking about suicide’. ‘Nothing she’s going to say is going to stop me’. You’re right. There is nothing I can say or do to stop you from this. I don’t know what you’ve all been through; I definitely have no right to tell you that you shouldn’t commit suicide. But what I can tell you is that you’re not crazy. You’re not exaggerating. But most of all, you’re not alone. You’re probably thinking, ‘I’ve heard all this, there’s no point, she doesn’t understand’. You’re right, I don’t understand. But there is something […]

gooey golden puss leaks out of black hole cavities dug into the bone mixes in with bright red spurting blood from pasty skin. i hope it crusts over encompasses me crystallizes over mushy sores and infected flesh wounds. the red bursting across the whites of my eyes, framed by purple blue sleepless night etched into the skin, leaks.
would you rather die from the inside out, or the outside in?
all the bleach i swallowed to kill the mold growing along my thin bile bag makes it so talking is impossible. leap into flames sparked by the kindling in everything you don’t know, create raw […]