if we all take a stand and help people in this world to stop self-harming then the suicide rate and self harming rate will go down. right now the suicide rate is really high. i pray that it goes down. i know a really cute guy and he was pronounced dead at 6:02pm last night in my own city and I cant believe it and he was so cute and hot but he ot bullied and he couldn’t tke it anymore for all the people who say only ugly people commit suicide that ain true. thats a bullshit lie. i know because this cute guy […]

I’ve been in hospital psych ward for two weeks now. I self admitted to try and regulate my meds. Things aren’t going as smoothly as I had hoped. There are clearly people worse off than I. I have been witness to some aggressive personalities, situations that have occurred beyond my wildest imagination, and today my roommate made an attempt on her life that has struck me to the core. I have come to realize that any healing has to come from within. There is no one out there to help you. You are alone in this mess you find yourself in and there are two […]

There are times when you will wish that you have never, ever, started this life.

I want to CEASE right now. I wish I’ve never met everybody I know. I wish I don’t exist in such a suffocating world. Tears don’t suffice anymore. My eyes could simply not spare me anymore.

I’m so tired. I want to float away mellowly to God’s embrace. Someone that truly cares for me. Oh God on high, hear my prayer.

Frozen In Time

I know I’m always speaking against organized movements, as they always get infiltrated and hijacked. I’m not so much interested in a political movement though as a sociological one. The idea (even if TPTB twist it, I’m sure they will) is to fight against this Christianized stigma on suicide. Suicide should be a fundamental human right. Nobody should have the right to force other people to live against their will. Seeing as none of us CHOSE to be here, then it only makes sense we should have the right to choose NOT to be here. The stigmatization of suicide being “selfish” largely grew from the […]

We knew each other for six years before we got into a relationship that lasted nearly three years because even though things seemed to get better, exactly one week ago she pulled the trigger. Now the same question keeps on repeating itself over, over and over again: “Why?”.

Before you all start commenting on why I didn’t help her, let me first make a couple of this things clear! Even before we got into a relationship I knew she was struggling with herself. She had this image of herself not being beautiful, smart and thin enough.

I could see the pain in the eyes. She had a […]

i have been on here for a couple of days but i deal with the same thing you guys deal with…….i am stuggling to not try and commit suicide even thoe it hards i get thru it.i have learn its not worth it nd nobody is worth my blood or me dying.if you ever need someone to talk to just comment below and i will help you i promise or i will do my best to try and help you.

I wouldn’t say I’ve had a terrible life. In fact, I would actually say I’m very blessed in many ways. Contrary to many of the posts I’ve read on this site, I grew up with a loving family, good friends, and a easy life. But I guess I wouldn’t be writing on this site if there wasn’t a problem…and that problem just happens to be me.

Now don’t get me wrong. This isn’t a cry for help or some pathetic attempt to feel sorry for myself by throwing a pity party. It isn’t a rant on how terrible my life is or the injustices I’ve experienced […]

Okay so I’m a newly converted atheist at my catholic high school. Some people know and some people don’t. the problem is whenever someone I know/have a high level of respect for walks up to me and ask I deny it… Why why can’t I be myself it makes me feel awful because quite frankly I can’t even tell my folks who are adventists. it so hard. Im totally accepting towards their faith seen as I’ve been Christian for 16 years but no one is respecting of what I believe in sigh. I hate lying about who I am for the sake of some uptight […]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z0RNp0ShHsU

While no one will ever exceed the excellence of the original by Simon and Garfunkle, and indeed, some of the younger members here may have never heard of them, this rendition by Josh Groban and Michael Knight is pretty special.

I hope this song can be a message of support for my fellow sufferers here at SP.  My dear mother died one year ago today.  I was her companion/caregiver for the last 2 years of her life.  Today, I miss her so much and my heart is heavy.

Grace and peace to you all, my friends.

And as I asked of you all before….Please, try to stay alive.

Jay […]

Note the sarcasm in that post? Yeah. Loaded.

I am bringing him up on workplace harassment charges. Today I learned, in addition to him calling me a dumbass in front of everyone, that he’s been telling the guys I work with that he and I were VERY intimate. Uh, no. Never happened. Not even close. So now I know why I few of the guys are being suspiciously nice, and why the one very religious guy almost literally runs away at the mere sight of my face. Let’s make this clear, I’m a virgin, not a goddamn whore. I get promoted because I work my ass […]

Since i was young i have felt a sense of belonging. I was the Football star even went to college of it. Was in the military and served in crazy places, then I was a Police officer. Now i cant see what the next step is. is it possoble that you can feel accomplished like HERO or that you have done everything. Now i feel like the world is getting smaller that verybody is covered in Bullshit or waiting for a pat on the back and thats the only reason they try. what if your back is covered with hands and you want them all […]

I hate how you’re just born out of nowhere forced to go to school and get an education,so you can get a job.What if I wanted to be a duck?

Telling someone they can’t be sad because others have it worse,is like saying someone can’t be happy because others have it better.

Hi everyone, how y’all been doing? I’m bored,  wanna talk to someone. If you have Kik messenger (for mobile devices, not PC), feel free to add me (nigvo). We can talk about anything. But don’t forget to mention you’re from SP first off. No horny bitches, please. I have 3 days to talk to you. So if you feel up to a conversation, hit me up soon.

You’d suspect temptation to be caused by lust or just plain carnal instincts. In my case my cousin was the lustful desires I had. Yet the true temptation at the moment pegs from Nycolle the first girl I fell for. (Read my earliest posts for my deranged and mentally inadequate child in me)   Onto the point at hand, I recently created a new facebook, found her on it after finding she blocked me. I found her on snapchat as well and here is where I consider things. Should I really risk messaging her again. It’s been over 5 years, why bother my childhood love? […]

Are any of you depressed people experiencing not only depression, sorrow, and boredom of life but also HORROR?  Is anyone experiencing trauma and panic from existing in a cruel and violent world?  Afraid to wake up in the morning, afraid to exist, afraid of gods and devils?  Do you feel like you are living in a horror movie?  Fear of someone torturing you?  For me life feels like the movie Saw with God being Jigsaw.  I am trapped in a very evil body and if I want to get out, I have to literally cut myself out or do some other gruesome thing in which […]

so within the past year I have consumed more than a big bottle of different kinds of pills (trying to overdose) obviously. but I have never been successful. what am I doing wrong? why am I still alive. I see this also as a blessing but because I’m so sad I just don’t understand why I’m still here someone please help and tell me what I’m doing wrong

Things are getting crazy here.It’s too dangerous.We can’t trust anyone, people are driving me mad.I think I’m completely insane.Take a look at them, they’re everywhere!.Look at them, looking at me, filling my mind with paranoid thoughts.Talking about their stupid lives, talking about me.Whispers.Pretending to be nice with me.Pretending they do care…
They try to fool me, saying I’m cool and my life is worth living.Lucky me.I know the truth.It’s sad but it’s the truth.I’m planning to get the cooking gas tank, inhale and IT’S OVER!…they don’t know.
Can I trust myself? ….
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Things are getting really really crazy…

im tired of trying to please everyone but myself. im tired of pleasing my parents(grandparents). tired of trying to please my so called friends. tired of trying on everything. im just tired of getting up to go to the same shit everyday. getting yelled at cause im failing my classes well for your fucking information im taking pre ap which is better then regular classes and its changed since your fucking time. getting picked on made fun of being a expierment for my friends just so they can have fun cause i wont stand up for myself well guess what keep doing it but when […]

some days i’m okay but other days like today i’m not. i’m trapped in my thoughts thinking about this baby that never took a breath. at times i find myself literally sitting up staring at the wall. what could i have done to possibly warrant this event.

sometimes i think maybe its for the best. she could’ve grown up to be the worst human ever

other times i think its my fault. whoever took her away thinks i cant handle the task of raising her right. maybe i was in over my head. maybe i wasnt ready. i couldnt do it.

i’d rather suffer trying and be constantly […]