The moments when I sit at home alone, and everyone I know is busy. That’s when I finally realize how alone I truly am and it Makes me sad. To know that I have no real true friends nor family that care even just a little. No one ever notices, i feel like I’m not allowed to cry to be weak. But today I feel alone and everything that I push away comes up to the surface and I feel the pain, the emptiness.
Why are we here? All I have seen that life is as a heaven as much as a hell. Why are we here? I have seen good, but view hate and sadness much more. Why are we here? For some, they in happiness over other. Other live to stay alive. Why are we here? I want to know! Why are we here?
Hi. I’m Cole. I have depression, anxiety, and eating disorder, and I struggle with selfharm. I really want to end my life, and I guess this is my last chance to reach out. I keep a bottle of 67 pills hidden in my room. One of these days, I WILL swallow them. I just can’t see any reason to live anymore. My family hates me, my friends have given up on me. I’m a lost cause and everyone knows it. If you can give me one good reason to stay, I’ll reconsider.
I am an inspiration to many both here and in my life outside. I am a preachers son, and expected to act like what I am not. I am looked upon with judging eyes everyday. I am an inspiration to the church, showing teens aren’t all the world says they are. I am an inspiration to my friends by always trying to make them happy before me. They see me as a person who will do anything to help them. I am an inspiration to my family. I have 6 siblings. One is a drama girl, the next an attitude awkward child, and the rest […]
Tonight I am sad. Tonight I am lonely. The Demons are screaming and I need you to hold me.
I know I said I’d leave this site. I know I said I’d attempt and end it all. It doesn’t matter now, half-hearted attempts won’t get me anywhere. I guess I’ll just have to wait until I finally go insane for me to be able to end my pathetic life. Life certainly doesn’t improve at adulthood, turning 18 just makes shit more complicated, for anyone wanting to tell me that I should wait and stay alive. Typically, it seems 90% of the people I remember seeing here have gone for good and I’m just left here. That’s always how it goes, no matter […]
I always say things I shouldnt and I always mess things up so im just gonna stop talking to people then I cant mess anything up because there is nothing to mess up and ill be alone anyway so no one to hurt when I die
I’ll post here once. I think, and I hope
I’m just so fucking tired of life,
Of feeling like everyone hates me.
I’m tired of cutting,
I’m tired of crying,
I’m tired of life, okay?
I just really want to kill myself, but I can’t find a way. I have Ibuprofen, I could down that with Alcohol, making my liver go poof
Or I could jump off the bridge. That’ll definitely kill me. 1, the fall would be too hard. 2, the water is too cold.
Oh well, I’m too tired to figure out how. Maybe I’ll survive? What if I don’t want to survive? What if I […]
Frozen moments down the drain,
Ive been bitten by their mark.
Their coldness seeps into my veins
And crack my sullen heart.
Distorted by the raining wet,
An endless shroud of filmy grey,
I only see your silhouette
Stretched into the night then day.
My heart’s a bowl of tarnished tears
Carved by ceaseless thoughts of you,
worn ragged by the endless years
Of suffocating, singing blues.
I drink so memories decay,
to waste away’s my only duty.
so that my minds in disarray
Into an abyss of nightmarish beauty.
A rainbow made of rusty marrow
Ebbs into the dusk so dim,
Leaving a rainy arc so narrow
Of […]
Everybody thinks I’m okay, but in fact, I feel really worse and I hide it, because I want my parents to believe it’s going better. Actually, I feel more suicidal then before right now, really want to life this stupid f*cking life and world. But actualy I don’t think I have enough energy right now to kill myself, and to prepare my suicide, which makes me even feel worse. I hate it!! I just can’t even kill myself, because it’s going that worse, who would ever thought that?!
As much as I’m still dealing with the sadness of reliving Mom’s passing a year ago, I want to share these free hugs with you all here today. This was voted the #1 video on youtube….or so I’ve been told.
“I don’t mind where you come from, as long as you come to me”
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4
Every time I set out to write, a book comes spilling out. I’ve deleted four fucking entries. The problems are too vast. I need to talk to someone who cares about me, someone I can be honest with, but there is no one. There is only my sister, and she has mental problems of her own and gets frustrated with other problems easily and then won’t talk to me for a long time in order to recover. I am so alone. My best friend abandoned me and I have no future. I’m 31 and my “boyfriend” treats me like crap. We both live with his […]
Breathing feels as though I’m being tormented.Waking up in the morning strains my heart that little bit more.Acting as though I’m happy infests the majority of my mind.I seek peace through knowing that leaving this world is the inevitable.I’m told to heal myself, but how is that possible when those who tell me are the problem. They’ve ruined me. I let them ruin me. All that remains are the ruins of a girl, interrupted. Breathing feels as though I’m being tormented. Waking up in the morning strains my heart that little bit more. Acting as though I’m happy infests the majority of my […]
I guess I’m here because I’ve lost hope in the world. We’re in an oligarchy controlled by those who have the money and/or power to control not only the US, but the rest of the world. The money buys politicians who drill obedience into unstoppable armies. Even if the electorate stopped being complacent, there’s nothing to be done.
I just feel powerless.
I don’t want to see it continue any further.
Can anyone convince me that it’ll get better? If not, why bother drifting through a meaningless life?
I guess the thing that keeps me from doing it is not wanting to hurt family and friends, and my obligation […]
ill never be able to accept love , i just don’t see how it is possible.I have done so much wrong. He shows me more love than anyone in my entire life ever has and yet all i can think about is jumping off that cliff or slicing my wrists and watching all the pain end, but i know that no matter how much i wish for that I could never be that selfish…..never! Â I have more than so many people in this world so please tell me why i wish of this every night, tell me why that when Someone I finally actually likes […]
i didn’t want to wake up. i was having a much better time asleep. and that’s really sad. it was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. i woke up into a nightmare.
We put lots of efforts to live and hoping for practically unattainable success.
Very small amount of that effort is enough for suicide. It is lot more easier for a bankrupt business man to suicide than rebuilt all the money he lost
Most importantly, there are lot of humans living out there for whom I can confidently say probability of success is absolutely zero.
There are good number of people who hate all things they do and also hate all things other humans do and hate their life but still struggling to live, even new born kid say this kind of living is illogical and stupid.
Hence provedÂ
i know that my parents love me and want the best for me since I’m their only daughter but they don’t have to be rude about it. I stopped cutting 2 months ago after breaking a 3 year period because of my mother. She calls me a dumba** because i forgot to wear my brace while playing basketball with the guys at my school, I don’t understand since my doctor told me I didn’t need it anymore. Not only that but when I try to talk to her calmly she makes me cry and says “Don’t be a little bi*** stop crying, you know what […]