tonight is my last night. i’ve already said goodbye and I’m sorry to my mom. but she refuses to accept it. i told her to make sure my note is read by all the people it concerns. she’s in disbelief. my father doesn’t allow me to be upset.
i can’t live with him. it will only be arguing and fighting forever. nothing will get better. and i can’t live without him.
I’m going to see my grandparents one last time tomorrow.
im in the middle of drafting my note. i want to make sure i say everything i need to say.
I’ve tried everything. there […]
but I am hurting, I’m hurting so bad that I do whatever it takes to shut everything off. I want to die so bad, and everyday some part of me tries to talk me out of it. I know I get it I truly honestly do you have to live for yourself make yourself happy do things you want. But I don’t care about myself I don’t love myself so its hard for me it really is. I self destruct, I give up, I have never truly done anything solely because I wanted to. I have done nothing but hurt myself, I have so much […]
I’ve been hearing of allot of suicides in the news lately,allot of young people too.Jumping from a building and in front of a train are the preferred methods.This is a bigger problem than I thought.Why does life suck so much?
The word ‘MoM’ doesn’t only mean the person who held me nine months but let me say ‘ my doctor, my teacher , my best friend and of course my soul. Mommy if you could just see my heart , i will show you the love I have for you and your name ‘Khadijah’ craved in my heart.
I do believe in love from first sight? Do you know why mommy?! It is because since I was born and opened my eyes I saw you and loved you .Years past […]
A vast majority if my life as been spent sedate. Â This may seem like a bad thing. Perhaps it has stifled my coping mechanism. Either way the reality I the situation is this. when I was 16 I attempted Suicide. My parents foun me my stomach was pumped an I spent 9 weeks in the mental ward at the hospital, as long as another 5 months at a day treatment program. Truthfully at that time I wanted help. it seemed to me the more that I tried to use the services around me. The worse I really was, or the worse the people overseeing me […]
When you sink into your low points, the pro/con ratio presents itself. You search for reasons to stay or go. It’s pathetic that a lifetime bottles down into a risk vs. reward scenario.
My question is, do you really need a reason? Do you honestly have to maul over the burdens that make living desirable?
It can be true that most of life’s setbacks are temporary problems. But some linger and will never be resolved. When they continue to stack up and never find a working solution, hope is in decline.
So I find it’s not as simple as hovering over one reason or a couple. It’s […]
Just curious, where are you people on here all from?
PD: Having my ups and downs still, but been hanging in there for a few weeks now. I spoke up to my parents recently, I actually feel better after actually letting them in.
Feeling okay,
PURPLEPAIN
This has been said to me a lot. Did I really get better before? If so, how could the darkness overcome me so hard and fast again? Why doesn’t the darkness slowly recede, but continue to get darker and darker. Maybe I never did get better.
I was forced into therapy and meds about 10 years ago. Well, forced is too strong a word. I guess I could say I was pressured into it. I was just following orders. People know I’m weak and fold easily, will do what they say. Whatever, I’m deviating from the main point of this rant.
So was I better after that? […]
i let everyone down but most of all i let my mummx down 🙁 im such a loser but an even bigger failure i can’t even do dthat little thing properly! i wish i was dead!!!
I don’t know. I’ve been having anxiety and depression episodes since I don’t know when. When i left high school i started to study. During my studies I broke down and my parents told me i do not need to study, i can just get a job and be done with it. But even then I was shit scared about the idea of real job. So I went back to the studies because I’d still feel shit while studying but at least I would not have to think about getting a real job. So the years went on and I got my first degree and […]
i let everyone down.. i let my mummy down. im so tired of being a failre
Mine looks like a contorted black hole that sucks everything around into its center.
I had been like this before, but this time is different. I had tried suicide once before: i tried drinking detol, quite clumsy and painful i would imagine, my mother threw a fit about ‘what the neighbors would say’ – i find her scent now, she stinks.
I never really admitted whether I had depression or not, it seems like something quite subjective and personal. I only know that I feel numb and hopeless and meaningless and sometimes i cry but then that seems pointless as well. though i have so many monetary […]
To anyone who is attempting suicide tonight, I wish you success in your attempt. Simple as that. I know we would all like to think that we can offer positive encouragement to fellow sufferers… maybe because it’s what we desperately wish we could find ourselves… but I know in my case that is just hypocrisy.
I wish for you what I wish for myself, that tonight your pain ends. No bs about finding a cure in life, no bs about finding a better solution or a way to deal with the pain. No, I hope you reach the true end of your pain which can only […]
I’ve decided that I just don’t have the patience to try to acquire ********, so tonight I’m going to hang myself with a belt. I have put it around my neck as tight as possible and fastened it by poking a new, very small hole, which makes it extremely difficult to remove, and it cuts off all oxygen. Wish me luck guys. I really would’ve preferred to just have done the ******** method, but that’s not possible, which fucking sucks.
Love you all,
Bailey.
Hello. I’m jess. I’m fourteen years old, and I’ve gone crazy.
I found this site when I was looking for ways to commit suicide. I thought it would be nice to finally talk to someone, and explain my madness to them.
I’m going to list all the reasons why I want to end my life.
1. I live in a country that’s incredibly corrupt. I don’t see a future for me, and we’re going through so much pain right now… that I want to end it. I’m filled with rage.
2. I know I’m young, but I’ve done things I shouldn’t have and my anxiety is killing me because […]
My pains are revengable but when I see other people (which are poor,silly …)I just want to cry and escape from this world.
i am over 50 years old and depressed i am out of work broke sleeping on a pile of sponges in my mothers covered driveway i’ve never married have no kids, i have no money and i really just can’t continue living like this. most things i read online suggest getting medical attention immediately, however having zero funds makes this an impossibility. is it reasonable the solution to my situation be to end my life?
I have finally realized that pain and suffering are human emotions along with hate envy greed lust depression lots of fealings that can drag a person down and everyone searches for love and happyness but in the corrupt world we live in that’s all it is a search dose anyone find the real thing anymore in life the thing for me is what is love my mom told me she loved me once but her actions were to loud to here what she said she gave me to the state and abandoned me with nothing is that love now I’m older I’ve tried to move […]
It started when I was really young. I started writing suicide letters to my mother at the age of 5. Â Around age 7, I wasn’t very smart and I attempted to choke myself with my own hands not knowing it wouldn’t work. Around age 11, I took sleeping pills and then took a bath lying on my stomach, hoping I would drown as I slept. Since then I haven’t attempted suicide but I have frequently thought about it. I started cutting myself last year. I never ever cut deep because it scared me but I enjoyed the pain. I started cutting because I truly hated […]