‘Ring’ ‘ring’ ‘ring’. I woke up at the sound of my alarm. ” oh gosh , it is still 6:30 am ” . I checked my phone I had no messages from my friends . “That’s weird , my friends used to talk to me everyday! ” I wondered to myself . I took a bath , brushed my teeth and prepared some delicious pancakes with my coffee .
As I was enjoying my sweet breakfast and listening to the sound of the birds , my friend vikki called . […]
(i dont know why its upside down..) This is me. I may not be the prettiest person alive but here i am. I know im not pretty, i hear it everyday from everyone. even my own family. Im used to it. Call me whatever you want. Im a cutter. Im suicidal. This is who i am and nothings going to change that. Ive tried killing myself 8 times. my 8th attempt happened recently about a week ago when people at school started picking on me […]
My life hasn’t been perfect to me. I get into fights with people a lot. My family likes to pick on me a lot. Â My sister calls me names all the time. She calls me a *****, a ****, a lesbian, and a dyke. She punches me a lot. Shes made my mouth bleed. I don’t know how she can be so cruel to me. She never acts this way in front of my dad but once my dad leaves the house shes a devil to me. She starts yellin and screamin at me, callin me names. Shes 21 and has a kid. She shouldn’t […]
I made you a promise.. I promised to tell somebody, to show them the cuts and scars. You promised that things would get a lot better if I did. In all honesty, I’m scared to. Why should I tell someone something that they’ll never understand? They won’t know what to do or how to react.. The idea of getting better really scares me. I haven’t felt “better” in so long that even if I do get better, I might not even realize I am.
I want to go where you went. I want to experience what you experienced. I need to go far away, I need […]
On April 21st of two-thousand-and-twelve, I made a post that started with a picture of me from the return of a field trip. I told everything that I could, up until there wasn’t anything left to tell. I’m back. And there’s more.
It doesn’t say so here, but my name is Wyntre. I’m sixteen. I’m in love. I hate school. I don’t like people, and I don’t appreciate the world enough. None of this is new, isn’t it pretty much stereotypical for a teenager?
Lets begin this where I left off.
“I’m falling in love again, with a boy whom I care so much about. We are not […]
alright well i dont understand. is that i go from happy as can be to depressed and then happy again? its a war between sadness and happines with me…
Don’t really know how this thing works, but it appealed to me.  Considering I have absolutely no true friends I didn’t know where else to turn.  Do you guys just feel like no one understands you?  I feel so embarrassed when I try to talk about my depression because all I get are remarks telling me to toughen up, that things will only get better and I have so much to live for.  But, I don’t want to live anymore.
I have absolutely no friends. Â My family…well my family and I have grown apart. Â And my parents are loving and all, but I can’t help but feel like […]
Im a loser but I shouldn’t be,when I look at myself as a whole I should be happy I used to be popular now im a fuzzled anzty thing I cant even chill,If only I could snap out of it
I did promise I wouldn’t abandon this place. I don’t know why I care so much about the people I’ve never met behind the stories I’ll never really know. I guess I just feel for you and your darkness. I wish I could take it because it seems so wasteful.
I am still very tired. Since my last post I’ve cycled through a few medications with no effect. I’ve found that I am not getting real sleep as I have some sort of growth in my head. I haven’t told my family I am on the verge of passing out at least 5 times a day […]
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Saturday, March 08, 10:30 AM MYT +0800Â Malaysia Airlines MH370 Flight Incident – 3rd Media Statement
Ladies and Gentlemen, we are deeply saddened this morning with the news on MH370.
Malaysia Airlines confirms that flight MH370 had lost contact with Subang Air Traffic Control at 2.40am, today. There has been speculation that the aircraft has landed at Nanming. We are working to verify the authenticity of the report and others.
Flight MH370 was operated on a Boeing 777-200 aircraft. It departed Kuala Lumpur at 12.41 am earlier this morning bound for Beijing. The aircraft was scheduled to land at Beijing International Airport at 6.30am local Beijing time.
The flight was […]
Things make more sense to me now than they ever have in my entire life. I died, the person I was the dreams I had all of it died that was the true reason why I have been so upset. I didn’t want to accept that I let myself die because it hurt too much. But it’s done with now and I can’t change a thing about it. I feel empty, I don’t know who I am or what I want, it feels like I was placed into a body, a life that is empty. It’s like it isn’t my life so I have no […]
i decided to trust someone i know with what i feel, and now i don’t know if that was right. i don’t want her to tell anybody, she says she won’t but I’m still doubting. and I’m pretty sure she’s going to pity me from now on. do you think it was right to tell her..?
I’m kind of partial to old movies, especially Film Noir and B-horror/Sci Fi from the 40’s and 50’s. On the 9th of December Kirk Douglas will turn 98 fucking years old (if he lives that long). I hear he’s a damned lecher and a womanizer – in fact as I recall just a year or so ago he was accused of sexual assault. You would think someone with as much money, fame and fortune as he has could at least keep his shit behind closed doors – I mean (and not to be crude or crass) he could buy any elite hooker on the planet […]
It rained here in Colorado. Only for a bit, but for those few minutes, I was actually happy. Everyone looked sad, and I stood out in the rain grinning like an idiot. Rain smells good.
I’ve been reading some posts on here for a few days and it’s helped a bit. I guess i was curious if anyone felt the same way i felt. I’ve had depression my whole life. I was sent to a psychologist when i was 8. There she told me i had chronic depression and a bunch of other crap. I’ve just kind of bottled my feelings inside my whole life. It wasn’t until i hit 16/17 years old where i realized it was okay to feel this way. Well.. not okay.. but that i wasn’t alone or a freak for it. Anyways.. i’ve still pushed […]
I think that there are bad times and good times. There has to be us sad loser folks to show the giddy happy people how they DON’T want to be. Light and darkness. We are the dark people, and we are meant to see darkness. We are the martyrs who are cursed to show everyone else how blessed they are. People never learn by education alone. They have to be shown. We don’t ever know what we have until it’s gone. Dark things happen to everyone, but you know the ones that are destined to darkness. They are the ones that don’t make it, so they can show the lighted people […]
Please, I have no reasons for staying alive. The problem is I’m either too coward to commit suicide or too stupid for believing something good will happen to me.
What should I do? I have no real friends, everyone just talks to me when they need something. I’m good at nothing but school, and that’s not even worthy. My parents don’t support me. I feel my life is a waste. I feel like thrash. My only real friend is in a worst situation than me. If she dies, I’ll have no real reason to be alive.
The worst part is how people tell me “You just […]
I recently opened up that im bisexual. I didnt really want to tell anyone but i figured that people will bound to know. I live in a small town and word gets around fast. Well me and my best friend made a joke on facebook saying that we were in a relationship (shes straight). A couple hours later in school i heard that people were laughing and talking shit about us. I then decided to make a status on facebook telling everyone to cut the crap. Like who cares if we were dating, its not hurting anyone. Then an hour later one of my friends […]
Why do you even bother saying you love me?