can I ask everyone a question…. do we really wanna die I mean of course but actually think about it.. leave our lives here to have an equally as bad or worse life after death… we just can’t win for some reason.. every time i come to this site for help I always think of that song wonder wall by oasis I can’t help but to think that song has a deeper meaning but ponder my question and answer… my kik: YD_LaSephiroth but im going to bed because I have school tomorrow.. yes im young :/

Hello, people.

Once again I thought I’d give an update on how am I doing this’ll probably be my last update though, no I’m not taking my life. I’m trying to move on and I don’t think this site rally needs any more of my recovery updates. So how m I doing? Shortly I’m managing and even though I feel like a turd left in the rain at catimes. I’ve got a handle on my mentality again so my mind doesn’t run amock an get me killed. Things haven’t been resolved but I’m picking up on how to manage, surpress or deal with them. Overall, […]

on top of everything else, now I’ve got a stomach bug. yay…

Every time I meet and start talking to a new guy I am really happy then they turn to assholes after a day asking for nudes and sex, whenever this happens I just feel like shit.

Everybody hates me, no one cares.

Since my Mom was killed due to doctor error two years ago I haven’t been able to string together three good weeks. My own health problems increased and I live like a shut-in. Only going to work and coming home and doing basic tasks. I recently had 3 decent days. 3 days where I didn’t wish for a painless death. That ended Monday. My never ending problems cropped up again. My face is damaged. The doctors can’t help and often create more damage. I have to get my Will done but I can’t even do that now with my current problems. I have the forms […]

So yeah, im new here and its really hard to write here although noone knows the hell who i am. Have been here now 2-3 months or so, watching other peoples posts n stuff. I can t believe its hard to write here bout my feelings, i mean noone here knows me and most guys here are quite nice. The void in my soul just so gigantic. Ist hurts so much. Its anxiety, i Know it. Sounds weird although i seemingly feel nothing anymore, i know im scared.

So this ist where i am. Feel free to just skip this post now. Im doing this cause […]

Wow, I haven’t been on here in forever…my life has definitely changed for the better. But, lately…I’ve been extremely down and I just seem more irritated with absolutely anyone/everything. I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and depression, but I think the bi-polar is what causes the depression part..my life is alright, but something within me is missing. I have no excitement for life really and society just keeps getting more shitty. I don’t trust a lot of people, and the older I get, it seems the more and more I turn away from being a people person. Genuine people are hard to come across these […]

It’s always on my mind to end my life.. I was in a really bad accident that caused permanent brain damage.. I can not remember many things now.. I know my daughters bday is Halloween but I have to do the math to know what year she was born. I suffer from horrible pain.. Migraine headaches, throw up blood, I use to be able to do so much now I can hardly do anything 🙁 Life without health is no life at all.. I tried to end my life I took 80 Xanax & every other medication I can get my hands on. I woke up […]

Hi

this is my first comment and …

I wanna to write sth which a great mathematician has said:”maybe I must stay and decay in this silence tower with the Vultures which are eating my soul and body.” John Nash

Just to give you a background on who I am, I am 21 years old, female and a college student.  I am not expecting to find answers here.  I just really want to be able to express my feelings to people who might understand.

Anyway, I’m not really sure how depressed I really am, but I suppose I’m depressed enough to want to hurt or kill myself.  I had a suicide attempt a few years ago.  (Somewhat long story that I don’t really want to elaborate on right now.)  So I kinda know when I might be tipping over the edge.  I’m not at that point […]

is satisfaction.

what an amazing human being… He is always smiling and working to get better  even he didn’t have hands and legs. He is an inspiration to everyone. Thank You, Nick Vujicic

I truly respect him…

http://youtu.be/XKTg_INHgpc

I know we’ve all had some pretty crappy ones… But what’s the happiest memory that you have?

For me, it was when I told Zoe that I loved her for the first time and she said it back.

There’s blood on my hands, and the killers not my enemy. It’s all for the sake of love, it’s all for you.

So my dad’s found about my self-harm and suicidal stuff
And I have to go a counselor every Tuesday
Does this mean everythings starting to heal? Or will everything I’ve been trying to build (my life) crumble back to dust back when I first got depressed? This is probably my paranoia,  just don’t know what’s gonna happen

I feel like I can get better, but my family is constantly fighting and it gets so bad I have to actually leave for hours at a time so I can just get away, I’m lucky I don’t pass anything I can use for self-harm, I don’t even know […]

I never asked to be born.  I never asked to be abused and treated lower than dirt.  I never asked much of the world other than to be loved and to be treated like a human being.  Am I not meant to have a decent life?  A life that has happiness instead of endless pain and torment?  The abuse is over, yet the scars forever stain my life.  I would move on, but fate somehow has a way of piling endless misery my way.  Is life just a cruel joke?

There are so many bad things happening to me, and I am too weak to fight […]