Depression/Suicide Rant

Okay so i’ve dealt with depression for most of my life.. but more recently it’s gotten worse and i’ve been fairly suicidal for a month. Anyways.. in the past month or so i’ve been told things, advised things, suggested things… and i keep wanting to scream back at them with frustration. So here is my rant, maybe some of you can relate.

1.) Maybe it’s just a seasonal depression, lots of people get sad during winter. -No.. last time i checked i’ve had this for most of my life and the weather should not make someone suicidal

2.) If you’re ever feeling suicidal or thinking about making an attempt call/text me or call this hotline #. – First of all.. most of the time i’m feeling upset and suicidal is at 1am or something in the morning when most are asleep. Even if i make an attempt.. usually no one is around to talk too. Second of all.. if you’re feeling suicidal the last thing you want is someone trying to talk you out of it. It’s not like when someone feels like they wanna murder someone they call the police.

3.) Try eating a better diet or exercising more. -True a healthy lifestyle generally adds to a better happier mind. But it is not a sole cure. I can run for 5 hours a day and i’ll still be depressed.

4.) Your anti-depressants are making you suicidal. – True, they can definitely add to that in a lot of cases.. but they do help in other ways. Anti-depressants aren’t all bad. It’s a trial and error game.

5.) Suicide is selfish. – Yes.. in a way it is, but most suicidal people think they’re doing everyone a favor by ending their lives.