Expressing my feelings has always been
hard for me, mostly because i don’t even understand myself. One day i can feel really happy and then others i can feel like ending my life. Does anyone else feel this way? I can’t take feeling this way anymore its like a constant never ending battle in my head…I hate myself sooo..much. I would end it all but i know my little brother would be devistated if i was gone. And i would never want to hurt my brother..i would never want him to feel like me. Thats why i always put on my fake smile when i’m […]
I’m looking for people to talk to. Every-time I post someone new usually messages me, and as I enjoy talking to others i’m going to keep re-posting >_>
I’m twenty-one year old guy from the UK. I have anxiety, I get depressed, and I have suicidal thoughts. I use to self-harm but haven’t for ages. I also think I might have a personality and body dysmorphic disorder. I’ll be seeing a psychologist this Thursday…. at last.
I don’t usually talk depressingly with others, but I am more than willing to lend an ear if you wish to chat about things that are bothering you. It would be […]
yes fuck you!!!
I see your face when I close my eyes, I hear your voice, you come into my dreams and ……FUCK YOU!!!
The only thing I hate more than you is myself.
Sometimes the volume knob just doesn’t go high enough
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/09-Swan-Dive1.mp3
Swan Dive by (Hed) P.E.
So recently, my brother and his girlfriend moved in. I thought it would be okay because I got along with his girlfriend and him, but not so much anymore. My brother started being psycho and started screaming, threatening me and my mom. Making fun of my little brother for being asian (i am as well). I threatened to call the cops for the safety of my family and him needing to be removed. His dumb girlfriend started rumors with my family trying to turn them on me. Saying I messaged her stuff and that she was going to beat my ass. At this point, my […]
I do everything I can… For my family, for my friends, even for some strangers! Then why is it like Karma turns on me anyway?
How do you get over it? How do you come to gripes with the fact that no one wants to be with you?…how do you attract people..or expect them to ignore your scars? How do you ask someone to be your shoulder to cry on?
Do others cry like you and I? Do they sigh when passed by passersby? Or when the cool kids give an awkward eye?
I’m 20. I wonder if its too late for me to learn how to make friends.
Hello *echo, echo*
Is there anyone out there?…Anybody
Maybe this world is another planet’s hell.
i think everyone goes through everything in their head before committing suicide. How everyone will feel and how everything will be afterwards. I guess I’m finally on that stage. I have nothing else to think. Anything that pops into my head it’s to get away from everyone. Stop hurting people I love. And to leave the people that dont need me anymore. I dont have a purpose here. Who am I kidding? I just haven’t committed into really leaving because I want to be here to see everyone else’s reaction when I’m dead. When they’re in the funeral. To see the trueness in people. Now, […]
I really just want a friend who understands what it’s like to be depressed and in and out of hospitals. All I want is someone who will make me laugh and comfort me when I cry and who I can do the same for. I want to discuss anime and fandoms and video games and homestuck, and who will chat with me over skype and email and text and tumblr. Is all that too much to ask?
so first, i want to apologize if i say anything that I’m not supposed to. i do that a lot >.>
well a month ago i tried to kill myself, and afterwards i thought that everything would be fine, and i felt happy. now i feel like theres no future for me and that I’m gonna feel depressed for the rest of my life, and really empty. i know that ill probably feel better by tomorrow but then ill just feel bad again. T_T again sorry if i say something wrong, I’m not good about talking to people about my feelings or actually feelings in general.
now […]
Hello I am very new to this site but I really just needed somewhere to vent. I have been thinking about suicide since I was about 10 and I would always make myself not contemplate it to grate lengths by asking myself how I would feel if a family member or loved one killed themselves, but recently I honest to god don’t think I would care. I hate my friends and I often think about killing them myself… and for my family, I really just don’t care about them anymore. I’m so emotionally exhausted I will have days where I just can’t even get out […]
i made a post to my FB a while ago. I’m sharing it here now because i think it’s a means of motivation in some way.
“it’s time I just come out and say the obvious for those who may or may not have gotten the hint just yet.
I’m battling orthorexia. with anorexic tendencies.
I weigh, as of last .. maybe two weeks ago (the bathroom scale has been relocated and its probably for the best.) a solid 100 pounds.
I promise you that has gone down and I just dont know the exact number now.
one hundred pounds.
my problem is finding balance.
and this week, I […]
I just want her to make it go away.
hello… I’m new on here… though I’ve been lurking around here since last year, just too scared to make an account. so… hi?
It was exhilarating. It hurt alot, but it also somehow felt really good. My heart started racing, my anxiety suddenly kicked in, what a strange yet incredible feeling! How was I so blind? I always thought people who cut themselves were insane, but this is awesome! I can’t stop now! G’day to you, my friends. Imma keep at it! So wish me luck!
So for awhile now I’ve been trying to hold on, and I know what I need to do is call a suicide hotline, but today right after school I caught myself looking at pill bottles, freaking pill bottles to see if  a side effect was death.
I just don’t know anymore.
Their is this one girl who I like, and she likes me, and we tell everything to each other. She knows about my depression, self harm and suicide attempt and thoughts, but I don’t think I can ever tell her about today.
Feels like the only place I can freely talk about this stuff […]
The longer I live, the more I can’t help but think about how everything has the same fate. There’s a beginning, middle and end. From a term in school, a job, relationship, trip to the doctor’s office and even life. Nothing is forever, but plenty of things appear like they should last that long.
Life is composed of all these short lived events. One after another. They all bring different emotions. I want to know which ones are the best experiences that make you want to hang on for another chapter of life?,
I have meddled with suicide, sure. That changed when my father showed his nonchalance towards my death.
“Go ahead and jump,†he said.
Just two months ago some 21 year-old guy plunged from the 19th floor of a shopping mall here, and DIED. Everyone around him carried on as usual. Though plenty of Facebook shares from mortals pretending to care, while they barely know a thing about the guy and the hell he went through (lots of gory pictures too!). It was in the news as well. Would not go into details but my godmother knew him in person, so I know the backstory a […]