The school I go to all the boys do is mess with your heart, they get your hopes up. And in the end turth comes out.

I was talking to a boy he made me feel like he cared, that he wanted to be with me, but in the end he told me he already had a girlfriend, and said that he was sorry for trying to lead me on, and if we come still be friends?
Why do boys hurt us, why cant they feel the same way like we feel for them. Just dont understand anymore.

When a true genius appears, you can know him by this sign: 
that all the dunces are in a confederacy against him. 
— Jonathan Swift 

– 
At birth and upon death, atheism isn’t an option; it’s the default.  Any 
theism between these two events is a deviation of the natural. 

Live like a man; eat like a man.  That’s the way it is for me, and that’s my 
motto. 

– 
At birth and upon death, atheism isn’t an option; it’s the default.  Any 
theism between these two events is a deviation of the natural. 

This is related to http://suicideproject.org/2014/02/31st-of-may-2014/

I know this place is more of a message board but I want a public record of my efforts. Also this way if I’m doing anything wrong or just plain stupid then somebody can tell me.

Day 1. Wednesday 5th of February.

My initial thoughts were that I needed to spread my wings a little so I booked some time off work and booked a trip to Vietnam. I have a friend that lives there and he says I can stay a few weeks. I’ve never been before and I figured that if These are my final months I need to see some […]

Pokémon incarnation.
Forsaken one.
Reach into hell, a trusting hand.
Let us travel slow, into the deep of void.
Oh, how fun; perhaps can it be.
A Muk, trying to become a champion.
Funk it, bust the mission. It’s the righteous way.
Muk has a freaking arm and hand, he can breakdance, all day.
At night sitting by the fire, what can we solemnly do.
Muk- I don’t mind. As long as I can breathe, be warm, and heal.
Solemnly like a granite pillar. Back through the void, of saint-hell goodness.

(Caterpie>Venemoth. Venonat>Butterfree…..)
Purple Venemoth, the token one.
I wish I could be, a butterfree.
Maybe […]

I attempted suicide by ambien but it dint work on march 17 2013 that was suppose to be my last post

I came across this piece, and found it beautifully portrayed what it is like to suffor from depression, and to be an outsider looking in.

“He inspected her. He undressed every layer of her soul and could find nothing but kindness. A fabric woven from silken dreams, compassion and understanding. She was like the moon, illuminating all that was in darkness. All darkness but her own. He began to see the thick sinking sand that swallowed her, the small pockets of air from which she could breathe. She reached out to all those that passed her, whom would only let her sink further in. Some which […]

Every time I try.

I’m not good enough.

Unintentional or not,

It never happens.

I’ve tried 3 times.

None of those were successful.

The only time I had hope was when I lost her.

I fell into hell.

And I couldn’t get out.

It was my unwanted home.

And recently I’ve been homesick.

I love Star Wars. Somehow I made you more into it.

I remember when we were talking, I told you I was 100% dark side. You told me you were not. “I’m a good guy” he said. So I laughed and said : I like bad boys. he replied: well, breaking your heart would be evil. He said smiling.

I smiled back, but then I started to think about it.

And after a while, you finally did. You broke my heart.

welcome to the dark side my rebel scum.

Wow, where to begin? I guess i can start off by saying this is not normal for me. Iv always been that girl that’s strong when nobody else is. Iv had straight As through high school and iv participated in a lot of sports and other activities. Iv been through many relationships, being dumped and doing the dumping. I lost the love of my life about 4 months ago, he was my rock, my support. He came into my life when things weren’t good at home, just when i was ready to say i couldn’t take it anymore.. the last 3 years iv depended on […]

I’m just tired of living in sadness I wish it would all just end..

I want to ask your opinion about seeking / talking to a professional. I never go to one. My mother asks me to go to a psychologist / psychiatrist. But I am afraid to pour out my deepest heart to a complete stranger. I feel embarrassed. I am also afraid that he/she will declare me as just an attention seeker. (Am I? I don’t know the answer. I don’t think I am but if a professional says so, who am I to counteract) It has happened before. I opened myself to some people in authority, and they ridiculed me and brushed me off as attention […]

Are you ready to sell it?

How much do you think you can value your life for?

What if so called leaders did a blunder and sold earth for $xyz? —

Hence, I believe humans are stupid because they choose some humans as super humans and call them as leaders

What if newton show-up and say there is nothing called gravity and all 3 rules are bullshit. Same way as Stephen hawking did “all black-hole concept is wrong and there is new thing called grey-holes”

Therefore if you wait for other human to save you, your life worth zero.