Do I really want to say goodbye …….I have a good boyfriend that I am starting to trust he is as random and weird as me but I keep finding myself siting on the ledge thinking whether to jump or to survive …….to be honest I think better out of the ledge
I didn’t get anything for Christmas and my dad was at work and I just played video games with my older sister and I kept tried thinking of ways I could kill myself and I was EXTREMELY unhappy…I felt a little happy a couple of  days ago but that happiness disappeared when I went back to school I felt so ugly and worthless and uncomfortable when I was at school…I barely talked to anyone and really felt that my life was unimportant I mean there are HUNDREDS of other kids at my school and they are all either happy or pretty and I feel like a nobody,not that it matters anyways…I gonna […]
…and it’s the worst fucking feeling ever.
My ex boyfriend saw me with another guy in a cafe yesterday, and this “other guy” was just a friend of mine in my program and we were just catching up after not seeing each other for a while. So my ex ignored me, which is fine, but today I received a text from him. He basically said fuck off to me and to never talk to him again because I caused him to get deported, so “thanks a lot, you asshole.” He said I didn’t help him find a place when he needed help, and I told […]
It has been months and months in which I have been seriously contemplating whether or not I am depressed. Some days I will smile up at heaven (this not intended to start a religious battle, but for all educational purposes) and thank God for all he has done for me, however other days which seems to be a 70% time thing as opposed to a 30% time of the looking to heaven. I feel extremely stressed due to school, I am 16 years old have been taking classes since freshman year (now a junior) throughout the high school years with not a single summer break. […]
Which would you want during your EXIT and why?
holy shit.. I hate school soo much! like I don’t even know why?!? all my fiends are there..and I love all my classes…SIKE I hate all my classes I try to fit in but nobody likes me! I don’t have friends cause they all hang out with somebody else in the school. and now my ‘friend’ is bailing on me and hanging out with the cool people (aka the people that are supposed to be two grades ahead) lol and the thing is that I study sooo hard when we have tests and then I fail it! HOW!!!! I hate myself so much!!!! even though […]
When I got the news today
I didn’t know what to say.
So I just hung up the phone.
I took a walk to clear my head,
This is where the walking lead
Can’t believe you’re really gone
Don’t feel like going home
So I’m gonna sit right here
On the edge of this pier
Watch the sunset disappear
And drink a beer
Funny how the good ones go
Too soon, but the good Lord knows
The reasons why, I guess
Sometimes the greater plan
Is kinda hard to understand
Right now it don’t make sense
I can’t make it all make sense
So I’m gonna sit right here
On […]
What’s the point in trying to live if I’m autistic and have severe social anxiety? Every time I go outside I feel like an alien. I don’t want to go to college tomorrow, I don’t belong there. There’s too many normal people. I would try and bring up my suicidal feelings to my parents but because of my autism I find it too difficult to express emotions. It probably wouldn’t help anyway. My therapist asked me if I was suicidal and if I had plans, I said no because I didn’t feel like being sectioned. I probably won’t be here much longer.
Early in 2013 I had a premonition (or a feeling at the very least) that I would not see another birthday. Â That was even before I was diagnosed with a potentially fatal illness. Â I was 45 years old, newly single again and saw little hope of finding happiness in the future. Â My diagnosis in July was, in my mind, the universe’s way of saying I was right (sometimes predicting your own future really sucks). Â But then my birthday came and went and I hadn’t died the way I thought I would so I recalculated my fate. I wouldn’t see another new year. Â 2013 would be […]
sorry , im not dead . just toke some times to think , im ok …. i try to be ok . PLEASE I WANNA HELP YOU! IF SOMEONE NEED A PERSON TO TALK , IM HERE! sorry my english , im portuguese…
one minute at a time
If you are true suicidal, you must enjoy every minute of dying
why we all concerned about single point of death ?
Have you guys watched Disney’s FROZEN?
If you do, have you  listened to one of their OST?
If you don’t you better listen to Let It Go because it really motivated me and i listened to it all day and i really love love love it so much!
or just download :
Demi Lovato-Let It Go
I feel safe by listening to it 🙂
I know I haven’t posted in a good while. I really don’t know what going on in my life. I go to a new school with like seven people more like seven bullies I stand like a sore thumb because I am the only  that never graduated.  I’m in a new relationship and everyone says I seem less depressed but really I have just gonna better at faking. He seems to really love me though but he wants to be a sailor ……..I don’t know if I will be able to handle the worry with him being on the sea. Umm what else my parents […]
I have been up since 1:30 am my time. I can’t seem to sleep well at all. Usually for about 3 hours at a time. And it sucks, because later in the day, my body won’t be able to stay awake, and I’ll be trying hard to keep my eyes open. Vacation has ended today, and it’s going to be a long day.
So I’ll try to fall back asleep, yet I can’t. So I’ll read. And no matter what happens in the book, I feel sad when I’m done reading.
Me not sleeping sucks. I’m lonely as can be, and it is […]
I am in my mid 30s and unemployed. Over the past few years I’ve been unable to get anything besides part time work. Recently even that stopped and I moved back in with my mom, who with my stepdad is struggling to hold onto their house. I have no marketable skills and cannot seem to gain financial aid to go back to school. I think I have aspergers. I’ve only ever had one relationship my whole life and it was only for a few months. The depression and anxiety I feel every day makes it hard for me to function. I feel no enthusiasm for […]
We’ve got retreats, haven’t we? Well I was just wondering whether there’d be a suicide retreat ever in the future?  you go there, commit your act and its over! no lawsuits, no ethical concerns, no human rights advocates, nothing of that sort! I mean after all shouldn’t we be free to choose membership of that sort..
Just wondering, are most people on this site from America?
Where is everyone living on this planet?
I can’t remember the last time I was genuinely happy. My dad and I despise each other and my mom kicked me out on my 18th birthday and I’m currently residing in my car stealing wifi from wherever any is offered. I am still 18. Every relationship I’ve had has ended with me getting hurt  and that is because I am not emotionally stable for someone to love me, or for me to love someone else. I’ve tried suicide once, I didn’t go through with it though. I resorted to drugs, stopped after a while. Now, I am empty. I have nobody in my life, […]
so, I don’t know if these things are accurate or not but I’ve been taking a bunch of online depression tests and at different times of day and at different moods just to see if my results change. I’ve done my own research about depression. It’s all pretty much telling my I have Major Depressive Disorder. I can’t believe it. Or I don’t want to. Either was I’m still stuck with all the stigma about depression in my head. I don’t want another illness to deal with. I don’t want to be fucking crazy anymore. Can’t it be something else? Can’t it be fixed with […]