Who honestly gets into a fight over a bag of fucking chips? Me and my family do. I have been living back with my family because I have a medical condition and can no longer work. No work equals no money to pay for my old apartment. After finally earning some money for myself from working the odd nights at my friends hall, all I wanted to do was enjoy a bag of chips that i finally bought with my own money. I bought other foods for everyone else and all I wanted was to have this to myself. Stupid isn’t it?

I go to grab […]

Its been a really long time since I posted here. I thought, maybe I was getting better or stronger, but I was kidding myself, pretending to be happy in case the semblance eventually turned into something real. I try to be rational and tell myself I am not worthless, I am not ugly, I am not stupid, and I actually believe myself for a fraction of time. Then I go outside and try to interact with people and am reminded of how I have nothing to offer anyone. What am I missing that makes someone appealing to another human being? How did I get to […]

People tell you to not kill yourself and they give you every fucking reason to do it. How’s about it’s my life and I will deal however I feel like I can to get over the pain. Someone hurts you and then tells you how to deal? That’s just bullshit. I believe if you don’t want to go through pain, you shouldn’t cause it in the first place. You can’t call yourself a good person and then go around using people. I never thought a piece of ass was so damn worth hurting someone over. Or money for that matter. I always thought that as […]

I just want to slit my wrists I want to so bad..it’s killing me I have so many thoughts racing through my mind. I just want us to work out you know I want these thoughts to stop I’m close to being done again

im 14 and i did something stupid along time ago and because of it. my family had to move out of the country and then my dad lost his job and it had continued to go downhill from there. i cant take it anymore. i want it to end but i cant leave. i cant brig my self to the jump. but im getting closer each time and im sick of it!. i gone down a long road of self harm and alcohol. everyone blames me and all i can think about is that i deserve it!

yes I wish I could just give my life to someone who was dying for some one facing death yet  wanted to live that’s how bed I want to die im going to end my life soon as I find a good way to end it im 51 years old and sick of life

SERIOUSLY i cant live any longer. i have failed at everything and am too weak of a person to pick myself up, and im too weak to kill myself.

i never delayed gratification growing up just always drowned my pain in smoking pot.

i craved adventure and always seeked for more, till one day in highschool my depression kicked in.

my time has come for me to go. i’ve contemplated hanging, and jumping in front of a train, no. i cant do it.

if we’re gonna die , might as well make it worthwhile.

so the question is, is there anybody serious out there ? anybody in the state of […]

I’m Danielle, 16 years old and suicidal…

I guess it all started when I got bullied in primary school because of my weight and the people I used to hang out with. I was basically a tomboy, always wearing jeans or tracksuits, never skirts or dresses… I wasn’t the skinniest or prettiest of kids back then, but there was this one group of girls that would pick on me constantly… I was 10 and depressed… I was stupid enough to pick an all girls secondary school and got bullied there for being a tomboy. it was the beginning of year 8, and I woke up at 5 […]

I have fucking everything

I wear namebrand makeup

guys who wanna talk to me

decent car,money,looks,young big boobs pathetic ass *****

I’m in agony right now…every movement is pain and I know it’s going to be ten times worse tomorrow morning.  Hopped up on myprodol, tramacet and coxflam and not even a slight improvement.  If this keeps up, I’m gona accedentally suicide on the pain-killers…though I fear it might turn into full blown attempt if the pain gets any worse…and it’s going to.  The fact that I am burning up from the widespread inflammation doesn’t help either.  I’m hot, sticky, in agony, miserable, unable to move and confined to my room so I can turn on the fan…family is actually feeling cold…I’m feeling like I’m boiling.

I […]

So many things have changed. My best friend/cousin is dead. My relationship is deteriorating. Every night it’s the same. I think of her and how I wish she was still alive and how I want to be dead. It should have been me instead of her. Everything right now is such a mess. School. Friends. My relationship. I don’t eat right. All I have been thinking about is death. It’s been a year now with these thoughts. Maybe more time. My daydreams are about suicide, how I’d do it and when..

ive decided to bottle things up again. ive decided that it doesnt matter if im breaking, broken, or perfectly fine. it doesnt matter that i want a hug. it doesnt matter that i feel so broken and in pain at times. it doesnt matter. me. i dont matter. my feelings dont matter. everything about me doesnt matter. what matters if you guys are okay. if you are okay good. i dont matter. it doesnt matter. my life. my feelings. my pain. it doesnt matter at all. what so ever.
ive also decided that im going to start lying. if you ask me how i am […]

Even if I got all the powers in the world

I still feel depressed and addicted to suicide with no reason

Kawaii: “Every species pollutes, but only one species tries to stop it. Every species gets sick, but only one can figure out why and stop it. We can’t run very fast, yet we are the fastest living things on the planet. We’re not very strong, yet we can move mountains. We have no wings, yet we’ve flown higher than any animal can imagine. Our voices aren’t very loud, yet we can talk to our brothers on the other side of the planet, even further than that. I have seen more than the keenest of hawks, gone faster than the quickest of all cheetahs, moved more […]

As I vowed in the other post… I will die. Without Stefie I cannot live on… goodbye my friends, goodbye my family, goodbye everyone… You’re better off without me anyway.

I found out Thursday that my cousin ended his own life. The entire community is devastated. My father and Grandfather were both close to him. I have this guilt in me that is just all consuming. All I want to do is cry. A year ago, this could have been me. If I succeeded in killing myself, I would be the cause of more pain than I could ever deal with. I should have been a better family member, a better person. Maybe I could have done something, seen the signs, and now my entire family is feeling so much pain, and al I feel […]

Throughout my entire life, I have searched for the answer, the truth to what the purpose of humanity’s existence could be. Being a former Catholic, I believed “god” to be the answer, but the ugly and unpleasant truth is that there WAS no answer from the very beginning. Life never did have a purpose. People tell themselves that there is some cosmic and divine reason for our existence, but that is a false illusion created to hide our fears, and to ease our consciousness, just like how people delude themselves into thinking that they will be reunited with their loved ones in heaven, or […]

I don’t feel like anything if that makes sense. I feel like I’m empty and I been thinking to much. I’m not in love anymore. And I dontnthink no ever will be I sit there and think about the people I’m suppose to love and I feel nothing. I don’t feel anything. I haven’t even cried and my mom just died. Should I? Why do I feel like I have no feelings anymore..?

I’m at the point where I feel like I’m only living so the people I’ve grown so attached to don’t have to deal with my death. Knowing I’d be missed does feel nice because not all people can feel that. But living for everyone but me is taking it’s toll. I’ve been thinking about suicide everyday for a couple months, each day its becomes more desirable. Even though I know I’ll be missed, I still feel alone. I don’t see my future going anywhere. And I’m okay with dying. But pain is what brought me to this point and my death would cause a lot […]

Things have changed for the better, I can’t believe that things really do “get better”. That saying has always been bs to me, I never believed that things could just one day be better and the suicidal feelings would fade. Ever since having a mental breakdown and coming so close to suicide, my eyes have opened. It’s barely been a week and things are a whole lot clearer. Things only begin to change when you realize they can. I know most of the time it feels like everything bad possible just happens to us, but most of the time it’s the way we handle the […]