Skydieving!?

SERIOUSLY i cant live any longer. i have failed at everything and am too weak of a person to pick myself up, and im too weak to kill myself.

i never delayed gratification growing up just always drowned my pain in smoking pot.

i craved adventure and always seeked for more, till one day in highschool my depression kicked in.

my time has come for me to go. i’ve contemplated hanging, and jumping in front of a train, no. i cant do it.

if we’re gonna die , might as well make it worthwhile.

so the question is, is there anybody serious out there ? anybody in the state of florida? that wants to go sky dieving (and i know its really skydiving but do you get see what im getting at?) lets enjoy the rush of air and the beautiful feeling of flying and do exactly what the instructor tells us NOT to do !

PLEASE tell me theres somebody out there willing.

im desperate.