Its been a long day, long week, long month, long life. Â I’m sick and tired of all of it. Â Sleep forever sounds like an amazing prospect. Â I know I’d be giving up on everything. Â I know it would all be over. Â Thats what I want. Â I want out. Â I want to get away. Â I want to sleep. Â I don’t know how much longer I can hold on.
Stumbled on this when googling hotel suicide:
www.theonion.com/articles/red-roof-inn-announces-new-suicidal-suite,33084/
The calories I intake,
Must be so little for my sake.
The smile I put on is fake.
How I wish life was a piece of cake.
They hate you because they’re jealous,
For them, Â your pain is delicious.
You will not give up, Â they will lose.
You will be thinner, Â you will be victorious.
Hush, Â Little baby don’t you cry..
They will soon know how hard you try,
They will soon know the truth behind the lie,
Nothing will change, Â it’s time for goodbye
I am from a good family. they love me and I love them. I have friends but I feel lost when im with them. I have everything someone my age would want, but I still feel empty. nothing unexpected ever happens. I do as im told and I never question it. I questioned my mother once and she looked at me like death would, but she didn’t say anything so I just did as she told.
I feel like I am waiting for something to break me free of this constant cycle. all I do is wake up, go to school, do jobs and go to […]
Isn’t it all about balance, business, give-n-take, cause-n-effect? To every action there must be a reaction, han? its about justice, isn’t it? aren’t we all but seekers of justice, executors of justice? and aren’t all Transcendental things, things like Love, Forgiveness, Letting Go, about breaking this balance? They (preachers of these transcendental things) try to give you a reason to commit these things, that being achieving happiness or getting out of misery, but that’s either a mistake from their side or a deliberate lie. transcendental things should remain transcendental, i.e. without reason; but then who will commit them, and how?
Breaking the loop – is it […]
Okay, this is just the smallest ever update but I just. Omg. Me and the girl I like are together now, like, eep! I’m so happy right now! Omg! C:
You’ll find on this site people who pride themselves over being in a “worse” situation than you….They will tell you that as if it is a badge of honor and automatically is a “co-sign” of sorts to anything they say… You’ll see many people judge others and criticize them about the reason they want to kill themselves and nothing is inherently wrong with this because sometimes we do need a different POV to maybe think about things differently but you’ll have people who will feel validated and sort of “get off” when they see someone contemplating suicide over a reason or reasons they deem to […]
A handsome cat with 9 lives went on a date,Â
He tried to jump, but she saved him, so he has eight.Â
A confused cat with 8 lives was locked on a cage that is wooden,Â
But someone opened it, so he has seven.Â
A scared cat with 7 lives built a fire with sticks,Â
He burnt himself, but there was water, Â so he has six.Â
A happy cat with 6 lives has a good vibe,Â
But it was ultimately perished, Â so he has five.Â
A desperate cat with 5 lives knocked on someone’s door,Â
But he was rejected, so he has four
An angry cat with 4 lives went to the sea,Â
He tried to […]
my dad died yesterday at 4:00am morning yesterday and since then my brother marc has been trying to decide whether to do suicide and without my brother here to comfort me i dont know what i am going to become i know i will become depressed and even be put into a mental intuishion and i really dont want that because i know for a fact that my brother will do it he has been trying to avoid everyone and has been trying to overdose because of he knows that life without dad will only cause him depression i have never seen my brother so […]
I have just found this site and already don’t feel so alone , I am 40 years of age and my first thought of suicide occurred in primary school , iv had several failed attempts , needless to say its been a long haul . Once again I am contemplating taking my own life , and thanks to the internet I am reasonably sure I have found a sure fire way  and possibly some people to discuss my thoughts with . Its always been a lonely position to be in , suicidal that is , and I believe that just makes things worse .
Life has […]
I can’t stand breaking a promise, nor can I stand someone else breaking a promise! It just doesn’t feel right, that’s why I didn’t promise anyone that I wouldn’t kill myself because I’d break the promise and that’s one of the last things I’d ever want to do…
I was brought up with my mom always telling me “don’t break a promise, it’s worse than breaking a bone” I know it sounds silly in English but in Norwegian it rhymes.
That’s why I can’t break a promise. It’d just hurt someone else, and hurting someone else… I just can’t bring myself to do it, not […]
Hi guys! its been a long time since i last posted here., Â I got busy being with the company of my family and cousins since they got here for their vacation and everything starts changing then, my outlook in life and my suicidal tendencies seems to slowly to diminished. I’m planning to improve myself and my life by starting a new career in the business process outsourcing but i’am afraid of the outcome, i’m afraid if i don’t make to the industry i would start blaming myself for being stupid and completely destroy myself and my confidence..
i don’t wanna go back being a bummer and […]
I hope that this story helps those in need, and if so it will mean so much to me!
I grew up my whole life with divorced parents from the age of 1. I had a everlasting struggle of going back and forth from parent to parent. All my life they disliked one another and would always fight. I’ve always had a close relationship with my mom. She had custody over me and my first memories were with her and Joe (who would soon become my step dad at the age of 3). I always had a hard time with my dad at times through the […]
3 weeks ago the last thing I ever thought I would be doing is posting on here! But during that period of time I was admitted for emergency brain surgery after the discovery of a large grade 3 tumour.
I was called back to the hospital yesterday where they told me these things don’t go away and I will have the tumour for the rest of my life, which is predicted to be single figures.
My life has been taken away from me, I cannot drive any more, I have had to give up work and it appears the time I have left will be a miserable […]
My consciousness says  “you don’t need to live with this stupid humans, go and die”
It also says ” If you die, you cannot enjoy the purpose you are dying for”
How I can have both death and “why I am dying for”
As Einstein said “If I don’t look at moon there won’t be any moon” same way If  I don’t experience peace there won’t be any peace
im getting stuck again. im falling and each time I do it’s harder to get up than the last time. I’ve known for a long time that when I die it will be at my own hands I just don’t think it will be any time soon. I’m getting to that place again where it feels like the only true solution is death because I am just so tired and I really wish I could sleep forever. I want to go home but home doesn’t exist anymore so maybe I should just go.
What do you think happens after you die?
Like I said in a previous thread my subconscious mind keeps me from killing myself. Also killing yourself properly isn’t easy. I think death by hanging is the way I’m gonna end up going but I’m scared. I wish my life didn’t turn out this way. This world sucks so much..
and I am going to die breaking out. Don’t tell me that ‘the sky’s the limit’ when there are footprints on the Moon and a remote control toy on Mars. My body may become a future generations’s fossil fuel, but I am setting my spirit free. Fuck the stormtroopers and your masters. I am no longer your lab thing. I won’t see you in Hell. I won’t be here. 😀
My last post was a while ago. I was worried about going nowhere and having nothing.
Well now I’m Nowhere
And I have nothing
The one I used to love, shes gone now. And she wont come back. She broke me, she gave me the hell I tried to save her from.
I have no future prospects, no past prospects, no job, no life. no skills, or talents. no friends, no life.
Now what.
Please, someone, anyone
P.s I am too unmotivated and depressed to do anything at all. I have nothing, and I want something, but I don’t remember how to want anymore.